Ok. I feel I must get this out:
Gained 3 pounds already, but had to go ahead and throw myself down a few more stairs to make the injury just a little bit bloodier.
So..........I brought my lunch today, low fat, low cal. Ate it. Then decided to go the Chinese Buffett across town and eat my feelings away. Well needless to say, it didn't help me and things are still the same. Did I know this before going there, yes. But since dieting for 7 weeeks, I guess I had what you call a "relapse". Since I do look at my food issues as an addiction anyway. The chineese food didn't even taste that good. It wasn't all I thought it'd be. Everything tasted loaded down with grease, and after putting a spoonful of mushrooms on my plate, I saw they were drowning in grease or butter.
At least I now "think" this relapse has gotten out of my system. I am going to go home, eat a small light supper, and just start all over again. I WILL NOT FLUSH THESE 18 POUNDS DOWN THE FRIGGING DRAIN! I will not continue in the cycle that has consumed my life for over 15 years now. I WILL NOT GIVE IN TO MY STUPID THOUGHTS AND WILL NOT GIVE UP AND GAIN THIS WEIGHT BACK. I know I have my friends on 3fat chicks that will help me whenever needed and I am worth every second of my "new healthy lifestyle". I WILL CONTINUE TO EAT WELL AND BEGIN EXERCISE AGAIN, BECAUSE i AM WORTH IT.
Now I feel some better since getting this off my chest. Tomorrow is a new day! Mug