alright...so yesterday was a complete disaster. I know I haven't been posting much, i actually haven't even been lurking much due to the total upheaval that is currently my work life. To put it bluntly there are major staffing changes and I will either end up with a promotion to a rather stressful position or I'll get screwed at which point I will start looking for a new job and ultimately end up uprooting my life and moving to New York about a year or so sooner than I planned.
So with that said I've been holding my own and doing ok without the boards, keeping it healthy and working out regularly etc, not necessarially losing but maintaining through the stress which is ok with me.... that was until yesterday. Yesterday was absolutely terrible, so terrible that it could be one of those days that throws you so far off track that it can make it hard to get back on. I ate out for lunch...nothing terrible...I just had a sandwich (tomatoes, basil, mozzarella on a grilled paninni no dressing) and I didn't have any chips or anything with it...but then all afternoon I dipped into the chocolate chip cookies hanging around our office....We had ice cream sundays mid afternoon to say goodbye to an employee....and not only did i have one...I made one with all the fixins... It was running late after work and had doritos for dinner...yup ya heard me, doritos for dinner....then not to mention it was my mother's birthday so following the doritios was a huge hunk of chocolate cake...
really I have no idea what i was thinking, i demonstrated no control whatsoever...then just felt like crap. Today I'm doing good except my hand has already dipped into the office m&ms and I had gotten so good at being ok around office junk and i'm afraid I'm just slipping into my 'munch in passing' old habits. I knew that was a total possibility if I didn't come here and post. I mean really... I don't want to lose control or undo any of the work I've already done!