I SO need to get back on track...done good today, I guess, if anything, I've underate, but I also haven't done much water....getting my usual change of seasons cold, and it's kicking my butt....must be why I couldn't stop eating yesterday....LOL, My body was stockpiling....
I guess rather than starting another thread for food and exercise, I can post mine here too...
OK, for today...
Breakfast: about 3/4 cup of oatmeal, no sugar, small amount of margarine.
couple swigs of koolaid, barely enough to notice...
Lunch: 1 slice buttered bread, and a half a pb&j sandwich...thin on the PB, makes my hiatial hernia hurt if I eat too much.
8 oz of water
Dinner: Spaghetti with garlic herb and spinach sauce... probably just leave it at that, with
extra sauce, cuz I loooooove my maters and spinach :-)
I'm gonna TRY to get in some extra water with dinner....probably do some stretching, and maybe some work with my light weights....just enough to keep myself going...then I'm going to bed early...try to sleep this off.
Sugar, I would love to join the challenge! Being OP of course and water but I have had to drop the amount from 128 oz's to 100 due to hernia problems to much pressure. I have found I can go to 100 oz. without difficulty but that extra 28 oz. and my stomach is tore up and the hernia feels like it is tearing something and it burns too . So 100 oz. a day will have to do for now.
My challenge is to exercise as in an every other day structured series of exercises for at least 20 minutes a day aside from walking about the house. Increasing the time spent exercising gradually.
This is something I really need to get going on and I will give it my best starting Monday.
It has been so many years since I could do this that now that I
am stabilized physically I think I can begin. Don't worry I know I have to be careful and listen to the poor ol" bod but I will. A new day dawns just for me a new beginning is born.
Ok... need to post this for yesterday, afore I get that selective memory and only tell the good stuff...LOL
Did REALLY bad on water, but had some koolaid, so it's SOME kind of fluid I guess, I had two glasses, and that was my fluid intake for the day, besides the soup I had... here's the rundown of the food...
B'fast: A bowl of organic brown rice cereal with a small amount of rice milk.
snack: about a cup more of that same cereal, toasted and coated with about a tablespoon of sugar, as kind of a desperation snack mix...without the well...stuff that makes it a mix...LOL
Lunch: Some homeade onion soup with cayenne
snack...more desperation snack mix...
Dinner: Chili & red potato bake
2 slices toast with strawberry jam (yes, I eat weird things together...LOL)
snack: One apple and one cherry homerun pie, and a couple handfuls of munchos
OK, so yesterday was pretty poopy all the way around but I'm ready today...
Menu for today follows...
B'fast: 1 1/2 flax seed pancakes with margarine and syrup
Lunch: Baked potato with spinach
Snack: PB&J sandwich
About 16 oz of water
Dinner: BBQ tofu wrap with corn
we don't have any snack foods, but if Johnny happens to make a trip for something nummy, I'll revise this...
Okay, Okay...I have to confess. I did REALLY well on Monday and Tuesday...till about 5 pm. Had to stay late at work, was stressed and emotional. Found some granola bars stashed in my office. Had one, had another..was on a binge. Had 2 small piece of chocolate. What was I thinking? I was mad, andry, sad, depressed, stressed and emotional. Drove home thinking about how sick I felt. I gave myself a stomach ache. Went home, had sausage and peppers on a roll, piece of birthday cake for my grandfather. I went to bed feeling worse than I had in a long time. Stomach ache and now even more depressed. The only thing I can control in my life is what I put in my mouth. And last night I was uncontrollable. I knew what I was doing, but I was so angry with everything, I wanted to "hurt" myself. And I did, with food. I even had to have a little raspberry roll thingy before going to bed. Why oh why do I do it? I wasn't even comforting myself with the food. I was hurting myself, on purpous. It was a bad day, money, lawyers, soon to be ex, mother , friends, work, co-workers, weight..everything just hit me yesterday, and I was mad. Very angry at the world, and at myself. So I went mad and sabotaged myself again.
BUT..OP today and just returned from my 2.5 mile walk. It's cold out, very windy but I did it, and the whole time I thought about where I came from, where I want to be. Thought about the energy I had when I was OP, the compliments, the clothes I wanted to buy, New years Eve, my birthday, summer, bathing suits, not being ashamed of my body...and hopefully sex again one day (LOL)..thought about it all. Thought about what I was going through in my life. Thought about everything this past year has tossed my way. And I thought about all of you here. I can do this...one bad day..it's okay. I know why I did it, and I will try my hardest to know do it again.
This morning I was craving a bagel smothered with cream cheese. Now understand, here at work, the bagels are HUGE, and am sure you all know that you can't just eat half of it, and because of my PCOS and insulin resistance, a bagel, which I've been eating too often is the worst thing I can possibly eat. I fought myself for an hour over it..walked to the cafe with the mind set of getting one and how good it would taste. I walked straight to the grill, asked for two eggs with a piece of bacon. Filled up a 32 oz cup of water, small coffee..and walked back to my office with a HUGE smile on my face. I won!!!!
Just wanted to share this battle with all of you. Some days are so hard, but some days it's so easy..and it feels SO good.
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Jennifer - Thanks for being so honest. Boy have I been there. You are so right, it starts with one innocent piece of chocolate, then 3 more, then cookies from the kitchen, the McDonalds fries on the way home. It is like a frenzie, once it starts, you go crazy!! I am so proud of you for being OP the next day. It's days like that, that usually throw me off track for days. Good job girl. I am sorry that things got so bad. I can't imagine how hard this time must be for you. We here for you sweetie!!!
As far as the weekly challenge and myself, Tuesday only 66 oz. of water, but as we speak, I am working on the 3rd bottle, so I think I'll meet it!!
1fralick - Haven't heard from you? How are you doing?
More good days then bad...hmmmmmm.
Thank you 1fralick..I haven't looked at it like that, but your right. I know I will come full force soon..but your right, it's taking a bit of time. But the more OP days I have, the stronger I am becoming.
Was okay last night, very busy picking up my Mother from the airport (argh) so I was kind of grabbing at anything. But compared to the previous day, I was an angel. lol
Feel good today..my mission today is to drink water till my eye balls float. I miss my water..my weight, skin, nails, hair..head..everything has paid for not drinking enough. I will become the WATER QUEENY again, just watch!
And I will be walking the 2.5 mile windy and cold walk soon this morning..as soon as I eat something.