The self-doubt
whiy on Oct 11th 2009 06:58 pm
Why do I keep sabotaging myself? It’s like deep down, this goal feels so far fetched. The image of a healthy skinny me is more like a dream then something achievable. What, me? Pretty? Who am I trying to kid? So every time I come across a hurdle or succumb to a moment of weakness, it’s like I hear an “Ah ha, I knew you wouldn’t be able to do it” in my head. Proof of my doomed failure. And so I drown my sorrow in more comfort food.
But you know. This so called “comfort” food has now become the source of my stress. This has got to stop. I *CAN* do it. I’ve done it before. I have got to stop comparing me now to the end result that I envisioned and then faulting myself for not miraculously making it there in a day. I didn’t gain all this weight in a day, so how can I expect for it to come off that way? Sometimes the progress is not noticeable in the scale, or measurable in numbers at all, but its mental progress as well. The taking back control of your relationship with food - of your life!
You CAN do it! You CAN make it to goal! You CAN feel beautiful and confident again. You CAN and you WILL and you DESERVE IT. Don’t let anyone cheat you of this dream. Not even yourself.
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Today is my first day on this site. I can totally relate to what you are saying. I sometimes sabotage myself before the day even starts. It has got to stop though. We can do this. You are right. We WILL do it and we definitely DESERVE it.