My loss is my gain!

Starting my 4th week today!!!!!  Woot.  I cant believe Im on my fourth week all ready! 

My weigh in this morning was at 265.3.  So I have 11.7 pounds down in the past 3 weeks!  Yay.   So about 3.9 pounds a week.  Almost on plan!  =)  I also took measurements and updated my log page.  Im down around 11 inches all over.  YAAAAY! 

I decided to go all out for dinner though.  Boo!  I made a homemade alfredo sauce with chicken.  To say the least I made it with heavy whipping cream.  Its my first intential off plan thing Ive ate in 3 weeks.  Ive been doing pretty well though and wanted to splurge just a bit.  I calculated all the ingredients down to the flour and teaspoon of butter and  it was about 825 cals and way too many grams of fat to speak of. 

I super sleepy suddenly.  Im blaming my poor choice for dinner BUT Im dragging Ben to the gym.  I worked out this morning for half a hour but def need another hour!  Eck! 

Today is also the first day I decided to up my calories to 1500.  Im going to try that for the week and see how I do since Ive been having a hard time getting 1200.  Im hoping it might give me some extra energy to burn some more pounds which doesnt make much sense but worth a shot.  I understand it I guess.  lol 

On that note I better get going before Bens the one dragging me to the gym!  =)

Hey There! 

I just got home from the fitness center!  I did a little over a hour on the treadmill.  I got up to a level 15 at 3 mph and then ran for slightly over a minute at the very end of my workout.  I did that yesterday too…I truely hope Im able to run like the wind 100 pounds from now.  I really think I would like it but its just a bit too hard on the knee right now. 

I havnt logged my food today but Im sure Im probably still under 1000.  Eck.  Im terrible.  But atleast I have like a natural calorie cycling thing going on.  I didnt do so great with water either but tomorrows another day I suppose!  I also weighed again tonight and Im down another pound…Im at 265.   8 more pounds till my 1st mini goal!  Im super excited!    I’ll be posting my official weigh in AND measurements tomorrow on my log page!  =)

So I came up with the business idea since I cant freakin find a job.  Im sure if I gave it a couple more weeks and put in a couple more apps I would find something seasonal but we’re broke RIGHT now.  Sooo dog walking popped in my head since Im pretty flexible and usually always home.  Its actually a great idea in theory because I live in a pretty big apartment complex with a ton of dogs!  Everyone is always coming home at night walking their dogs around.  I absolutely HATE to leave Harrison at home for 8-9 hours at a time which Im sure alot of people do to their animals because of work.  So I spent a couple hours today making flyers and coming up with a simple plan.  I advertised pretty much as having an option to do a 25 minute walk for 10 bucks or just doing a “pee and poop” walk for 5 bucks…I also threw in a weekly cost based on 5 days that would be a bit cheaper than paying daily.  If I can get enough dogs that would give us enough money to pay my bills and I will get exercise doing it!  I would feel MUCH better paying my car payments and other bills than Ben having to pay it all.   Sooo I hope its as great in practice as it seems in theory!  It sure would lower my stress!  I put out 8 flyers tonight in the mail box areas so wish me luck!!!! 

Hope everyone had a great day!  Stay Strong!  ONWARD!  =)

Howdy! 

I was so icky last night that I couldnt even think about which day I was on no less think of something to write.  Ben and I went grocery shopping and he was a bit grumpy because we’re broke and I wanted to buy water and jello and then I was grumpy because he was grumpy.  It was a great time, really. 

I need a job so badly…I dont understand why I havnt got any calls back for these seasonal jobs!  Maybe they dont like that I all my work history is out of state.  Who knows…but I def need to find something soon! 

I did ok with calories yesterday.  I slept all day again and its impossible to get all your calories when you wake up at 3 unless I eat once a hour which seems pointless because Im not hungry.  So my calories for yesterday were a little over 900.  I was only awake for like 12 hours though so compared to the amount of time I was up I ate really well.  Gerr.  Getting on schedule is another stress.   Its 5 pm and Im still in PJ’s.  Next week Im getting on schedule dangit.   

Yesterdays workout was really good.  Did a little over a hour on the treadmill.  I am going to give Jillian Michaels 30 day shred a go today.  I have level 2 online so since thats all I have thats what Im jumping into.  Im just excited about the jumping jacks and that I can use my weights!  =)  If im not completely dead afterwards Im going to walk over to the fitness center and walk for a little bit.  OR I might go walk and then come back and do the video. 

Oh oh oh, I joined a Valentines day challenge on the forum today!  Im super excited!  Ive been wanting to join one and this ones perfect.  If I stay on plan with my weighloss spreadsheet I’ll be pounds away from onederland by v-day if not already there!  Im stoked!  I was in junior high the last time I was under 200.  I CANT WAIT to see that 199.  You better bet Im going to sob like a baby!  Hope Im alone in the fitness center!  haha

Anyways, I hope everyone has a great day!!!  Stay strong!  =)

Howdy yall!

Dont mind that its just about 4 AM!  The BF and I just got home from a little over a hour at the gym and we’re taking showers before passing out.  Sooo it might be a quick post depending on the length of his shower.  I got in a good high incline workout on the treadmill, jumped on the elliptical for a bit, and then goofed off on a couple weight machines, and did some sit ups.  Im really going to have to start doing situps after my cardio.  I REALLY felt it and I liked it. 

I joined a water challenge on 3FC and oh my how I failed today!  lol.  I bought a bottle of water at school before class today and drank less than half…I still had it when the BF got home at 1230 AM.  Oopsy.  I did drink lots of tea and a slight bit more water.  I really REALLY REAAALLY need to get more water in me.  If it will help with preventing saggy skin thats motivation enough.  Tomorrow Im getting my water in dangit.  Uhh btw, does tea count?  I might have to ask on the forum.  I’ll drink gallons of tea a day.  Yummy and so refreshing!

Food today was great.  Just over 1200.  Its actually so much easier to do 1200 than I wouldve ever imagined.  I remember the 1 time in hs I tried counting calories and those cals were gone before I knew it.  It just proves to show how much Ive learned over the years about dieting and getting the right foods! 

Speaking of which, Im still at freakin 268.  I know I said I was going to wait but I just wanted to know darnit.  Hmph.  lol  I might try upping my cals to 1500 next week if I dont lose.  Maybe I am putting myself in starvation mode.  I’m just going to play it out and see. 

Well its most DEF bed time! 

=)   Have a great day tomorrow…(Today?) Stay strong! 

Just thought I would pop in before bed!  Its been a pretty long day full of homework, studying, and going to class!  Im pooped.  I have had a pretty productive day for which Im glad despite the rain and ickiness.  Days like this usually force me into naps or being a couch potato. 

Wednesdays however, have been declared my workout free day unless I get ants in my pants.  I did hit goal on calories today despite my near dinner binge of healthy food.  I didnt get a chance to eat before school (my bad planning) so by the time I got home I was starving.  I had dinner plus some stuff that couldve counted as 2 snacks/mini meals.  lol 

I was on the 3FC forums tonight and saw a thread about the amount of calories taken in.  Quite a few people were saying that 1200 is too low.  I mean, I aim to stay between 1200 and 1500 but many days I get under 1300.  A couple of days I have gotten less than 1000 just because I slept all through the afternoon or whatnot.  Am I in danger of going into starvation mode?  And how do I know if I am?  I really do feel like Im getting plenty.  Im not hungry all day, dizzy, or not losing weight.  Im having good portions and have enough calories for snacks and such.  So maybe I’ll have to do some more research.  I dont feel like Im the best at reading my body so thats why it concerns me so much.  I dont want to be counter productive.  I just know anything over 2000 is def going to make me gain weight because it was proven last Saturday!  lol

I absolutely CANT wait for tomorrow!  I hate having exams because Im so tense and feel so trapped and then after the exam Im free free free!  =)  Im going to get a good workout in tomorrow, clean the apt, give the puppy a bath, annnd do some laundry!  *Squee*

See ya tomorrow!  =)

My weigh in for week 2 is…..3 pounds down @ 268!  So on average I have lost 4.5 pounds per week which is right above my target weekly weight loss.  Wohoooo!  =)

Despite previous entries I am HAPPY with this!  I made a few bad choices over the weekend and worked hard to get back down to my 268 and Im more determined than ever! 

Today while on the treadmill, for my last chance workout (haha), I had the best workout I have had this far.  My shins didnt hurt, my blisters were well taken care of, and I just showed that treadmill who was boss.  I got to my last 20 mins on and got my speed to 3.0 and my incline to 10 and I told myself that I was going to get to 60 at those settings.  I thought about changing them halfway through…or stopping at 55 mins to cooldown and told myself NO.  I wanted to finish something for a change.  I wanted to beat that treadmill and I did and had a “yessss” moment. 

Workouts become more enjoyable everyday and Im lovin it! 

On another note, Biggest Loser just came on!  Wohoo!  I love this show.  lol  Its so encouraging and just seeing them working so hard and struggling hits home now. 

Food today has been great!  Im a little under calories but I should be able to get it up with dinner and snack.  Ive been having a hard time getting all my calories but Im starting to get the hang of it a bit better. 

=)

Just a short hello.  I did really good with food today and got a great workout in.  I DESPERATELY want to go do my *official* weigh in tomorrow and have like 5 or 6 pounds gone but I dont think thats going to happen.  My water weight has been going crazy.  So we shall see! 

Im waking up early in the morning to get a workout in and get the weigh in over with.   

Ehhh, thats all I know for the day.  I got home from working out earlier and Im ready for bed!  =)~

Stay Strong! 

So I realize that I just wrote but I need to rant!….some more. 

So last night while at a friends party in which I drank a few shots….thats it….just like 3, I weighed myself on her digital scale in the bathroom.  I stepped on and low and behold of course its like 271.2.  WTF?!?!  So Im like well, its a different scale.  Ive been using the same scale in our fitness center for all of my weigh ins.  I really do realize I ate semi bad this weekend between just a few things I shouldnt had ate but for that other 90% of my weekend Ive ate really good and healthy and stayed under points AND worked out.  So I jumped on the scale at the fitness center tonight and I am at 270 when just 3 days ago I WAS at 268.  Like how the hell do you gain 2 pounds when you eat too much popcorn, 2 enchiladas, and had a few shots when the rest of the time you were still working out and eating right?  I still think with what I ate I didnt go over on my points…

I was FURIOUS in the fitness center.  I even ran.  And girls that run when they weigh 270, **should be 268**, isnt a pretty sight.  I was just so upset with myself for having those few slips which obviously made  A HUGGGGE DIFFERENCE!  I even expected since TOM went away today that I would be just a lil less solely from that. 

I  dont know…Im just so frustrated.  This is truely my first hump in the diet.  I caved and gave into a few temptations this weekend and now I know how much it can truely delay progress.   I hope that when I do my *official* weigh in on Tuesday Im not really dissapointed.  Its hard to go from losing 6 pounds 1 week to hardly nothing the next week.  Im not ready for that yet.  I need to see these numbers drop. 

I just have to look at this positively.  Im not quitting just because I am suddenly back into the 270’s.  Im really going to do this and Im going to get to my goal no matter how frustrated and dissappointed I get.  ONE DAY AT A TIME! 

Theres endless possibilities on why it might have went up such as the food, or the fact that I did a good dumbell workout yesterday for the first time since Ive started this, or maybe even my body is getting used to the 1 hour walk on the treadmill I do everyday but whatever it is its not going to stop me. 

Oh how I missed my blog yesterday! 

A quick catch up…..over the past 2 days I have ate chicken enchiladas and popcorn and taken a few shots.  Holy Moly!  haha  I just feel FAT today.  I feel like Ive failed and honestly I havnt even ate HORRIBLY or anything.  But ohhh how the movie popcorn has freaked me out!  haha  I failed temptation and that is why Im FAT. 

Ok, Im being overly dramatic but I just feel….I dont know…weird. 

Ive done good with workouts.  Friday I worked out twice really.  I did my hour on the treadmill and then I did 2 miles of a walking video with Court.  Then yesterday I did like 25 mins or so with my dumbells but feel icky without the cardio.  Weird. 

I have a HUGE fear of failing at this.  Of getting off the wagon and gaining these 9 pounds back plus more.  I DONT WANT TO BE FAT ANYMORE!  I HAAAATTTTTTEEEE  IT!  Ive just failed so many times before and I dont want to again.  I dont know.  Im just being super fat and weird today.  I cant even explain it.  =( 

I guess instead of sitting here feeling fat and fat Im going to go work out!  YESSS!  Here I go! 

I decided to sit down and write out all of the reasons I want to lose weight!  I know theres so much more but these just came in my head. 

• To be skinny
• To be able to shop in normal stores w/ cheaper clothes!  Woot
• In hopes my repaired knee will stop killing me
• So I can go to sixflags or the fair and be able to fit COMFORTABLY in the rides
• To be able to run
• To make my family proud
• To be able to have children one day
• Summer dresses
• So my legs wont rub together anymore
• So I can bend over and paint my toes normally
• So I won’t feel so self conscious
• To be a role model and inspiration
• SKYDIVING!
• So I will feel pretty and beautiful
• To gain confidence
• No more disgusting pictures
• So I’ll have more energy
• In hopes that I won’t be so hot natured anymore
• To prevent health issues
• So I wont get out of breath from climbing one flight of stairs
• So I’ll be able to wear heels without taking them off every 5 minutes
• To be able to put on a swimsuit and not feel embarrassed
• To get out of that obese category
• I want to be able to ski, run, kayak, backpack, mountain bike and whatever else I feel like doing that I can’t do at 277 pounds!

I absolutely cant wait to be able to mark all of these off my list and accomplish these things!  Im determined to do what I need to do and am not going to give up.