My loss is my gain!

I’ve relearned this week that if I just count my calories like a good girl AND workout at the same time I lose weight!  It was like *ding* and the light came back on.

I’ve been struggling for MONTHS with being on plan and working out.  I have kept promising myself, my vlog viewers and blog readers that I’m going to get back on plan.  I keep promising that there’s no more fooling around and yet somehow I’ve still been STUCK.  Luckily, I’ve maintained in a +/- 5lb (228-232) range which I’m THANKFUL for BUT I’m ready to see it go down!  I’ve been ready to see it go dowwwn but my attempts have failed.  Why?  Simply because for some odd reason I’ve forgotten to focus on both very important aspects of losing weight, working out & counting strictly, at the same time!  Oops.  One week I would do GREAT with working out but not count my calories….then I would notice I’m still stuck and try and focus on counting calories and forget about working out.  It’s been back and forth for months and I’m soooo happy that this morning when I stepped on the scale and was FINALLY at 227 that my little light went off and I realized that I’ve been counting strictly and working out!  Ding ding ding…that’s what works!!!! Duh! Silly me!  So this time…with my head on straight…we’re going to start seeing the scale move it on dowwwn! 

I got a little depressed this afternoon because looking back I should be down to almost 200 by now…I should’ve been 215-220 by Valentine’s Day!  I had to kind of slap myself to open my eyes and realize that as of today I HAVE LOST 50 POUNDS!!!  That huge and I have no excuse what so ever to be moping around because I’m not 200lbs yet.  I’ve done great, I’ve gotten over bumps in the road, and I’ve kept going when I wasn’t seeing the results I wanted….I’m doing it!  No matter how slow…I’m doing it! 

I have this new fire under my rump and I’m so ready to be 100% committed in counting calories, working out, and focusing on being healthy!

FINALLY!  After NINE WEEKS stuck in the 230’s Ive moved down! 

I admit that half of it was my fault for being a bit too relaxed with cheating here and there AND not really giving it my all in the gym but for the past couple weeks Ive been being a good girl with no results. 

This is where I would like to give my thanks to 24 Hour Fitness and my new gym membership for getting me down to 228 today!  lol  Ben and I got gym memberships this week and OMG its so nice.  I was so bored with going to the apt fitness center and being stuck on that treadmill.  We now have access to ANY equipment we want, a basketball court, a lap pool, and weights!  The only negative thing, which has really turned into a hidden positive, is that we have to drive 15 mins to get to the closest location.  Its been working out really well because if you drive 15 mins to get to the gym you want to make you workout worth the drive the get there.  Last night for example, Ben and I were at the gym from 12:45 until 3:30.  We did 40 mins of cardio (cross trainer and row machine), spent a while on the weights, did ab work, ran around the basketball court playing around, and then swam laps for while.  I got sooo much exercise and its been like that everytime we’ve gone so far! 

I talked about just how motivating it is to go to a gym on my vlog yesterday too.  I LOVE it.  If Im surrounded by people working out around me it really pushes me to workout that much harder.  I dont want to slack off if I know someone may be looking at me.  lol  Im also a weirdo that loves to be surrounded by athletic/in shape people so that while Im working out I can look around and see where I want to be.  Its great inspiration! 

Ive really fallen in love with swimming laps!  Its a perfect ending to a really good workout.  Its more of an reward for working on that a workout in disguise itself!  =)  Ben taught me how to do flip turns too so Im getting better with each workout!   Its so relaxing! 

OH!  I also had to go out and buy a pair of size 16 jeans a couple weeks ago.  I could take off and put on my 18’s without unbuttoning so I figured it was time!  

Its just surreal to me that Im ONE pound away from a 50 lb loss!  I keep an excel sheet of my loss and my last day recorded on there is my birthday, 10/30.  I am at week 30 of 59…at around half way done!  Im so amazed that Ive been doing this for 30 weeks!  WOW!  I can obviously add more weeks to it but that was my initial goal date which was overwhelming and just a dream when I made it. 

Anywho, Im starting to ramble on so I’ll leave it at that for tonight!  Expect to hear from me again soon when I get down to 221/20%!!!!  **happy dance!**

Stay strong ladies and keep working hard!  We can do this!  <3

Wohoo!  I jumped on my scale this morning and was FINALLY at 235!  It’s taken forever.  I’ve been impatiently waiting for this because 235 is my lowest adult weight!  Yay.  My next goal is 20% which puts me at 221 and 55lbs down!  I’m ready!    I’ll post my new progress pics soon! 

My weight-loss has tremendously slowed down though the last 2 months.  It’s definitely my fault because I’ve slacked on working out and I’ve been quite a bit more lenient with what I’m eating.  So I’m loosing but a pound a week compared to 3 and 4 lbs at the beginning. 

I guess I really never expected to keep losing so quickly and it’s probably healthier for me.  I plan to get strict again especially since winter is almost gone and it’s going to start getting hot out quick.  I want to look good for summer!!!!! 

The last couple months have almost been me taking a break without actually gaining the weight back which is great.  If anything at least I know I’m prepared for maintaining my weight once I hit my final goal weight!  =) 

With not being as strict I really didn’t feel like blogging…here or my video blog.  Who wants to hear about someone on a weight loss journey who isn’t really working out or eating on plan 100% of the time?  Even though I’ve struggled to get strict again and get going I think it’s about time for me to stop trying and just do it!  I want to see onederland ASAP! 

I hope all the bloggers out there are doing great!!!! 

I dont mean to be negative but today has just been tough!  So Ive been struggling with getting off my bottom. I feel so so so unmotivated to do anything. I could quite literally stay in bed all day and only get up to eat and potty…which is pretty much all Ive done today.

I know I need to get up and go work-out, study, clean, do laundry, and many other things but I just dont have the energy to get up. This isnt anything new for me. Its been a problem for a long time. Sometimes I do wake up and get going but those days seem to be rare… 

I’m a college student but am only going part-time this semester, I dont work, and Ive just gotten soooo lazy. I may be in a slightly depressed slump but I dont really think thats the problem. I try and stay between 1200 and 1500 cals a day of healthy & filling foods so I really dont think its the food either.

I posted a thread on 3FC and one of the ladies mentioned my iron levels and another mentioned my caffeine.  It like suddenly hit me that its totally my caffeine!  Im used to getting a pretty good amount of caffeine everyday and today I havnt had ANY!  In fact, I havnt even had anything to drink.  So I jumped in the shower, fixed something for dinner, and got a big glass of iced tea and Im actually feeling MUCH MUCH BETTER!  Thank goodness!  I didnt even think about my lack of caffeine but it totally makes sense! 

Im going to start doing some kind of reward system elementary school style.  Like seriously a sticker system!  lol  Ive seen a couple people do it on you tube so it may help me out a bit in order to have a visual on how Im doing. 

I hope everyones having a fantastic day! 

Hey Chicks! 

Ive neglected my blog long enough!  Christmas was just so tough.  Well, the holidays period.  My weight was all over the place and jumping up way too high for my liking and then I would get it down and then up again and then down again…lol  It was REALLY hard!  I finally got back on track with calorie counting and working out so Im pumped and ready to go again!  I was at 241 at the beginning of this week but then started TOM and have been hanging around at 243 but I have had the most horrible TOM ever (like seriously) so Im really expected a whoosh and the 230’s to be around at the beginning of next week!  =) 

I decided to start a video blog today!  I was browsing around on you-tube and was so inspired of all the weight loss blogs I found.  Ive never had a video blog and thought it would be a fantastic way to look back on my journey in the future to really see my progress.  I have no idea why I didnt think about it 36 pounds ago..I really wish I had but I still have a long ways to go and plenty of changes to be made!  =)  I think it’ll be a little easier for me to keep up with a video blog rather my typing.  We’ll see though!  Im super excited.  I definitely had a hard time the first time since I had no idea on how to even post the video…I recorded, edited, and played around a bit only to find out youtube only allows 10 min videos and I had 13 **rolls eyes***  lol  So it took so much longer for the first one…Im hoping it will be a quick post in the future though so that will be my determining factor. 

Im also thinking about posting my video on here if I can get it to work instead of worrying about links to youtube and everything.  I’ll try that today and see how it works out!  Yay!   ***It didnt work…youtube it is!  I’ll get the link when I finish setting up my profile and stuff on there! 

School is starting next week!  Im super nervous.  Im done with all my prereqs to get into the nursing program but I have to apply and wait so while Im waiting Im going to retake A&P just in case I dont get in and that way next semester if I have to reapply my GPA will be higher.  Im also taking a ceramics class with Ben so that should be fun!  Im seriously going to start studying for A&P this weekend before our first class…theres already so much info in the powerpoints she’s posted.  Yikes! 

I forgot to mention that ALL  my jeans in my closet now fit me!  Wohooo!  A couple of them are actually even pretty loose so 16’s are in my near future!  Soooo exciting! 

Alrighty, I hope everyone has had a wonderful New Year thus far and hopefully I’ll be checking in more often! 

OMG, I thought I was going to die without 3FC. I guess the server was down for like a day and a half or 2?  I kept trying to get in and I couldnt and I thought I was going to go eat everything in the kitchen.  It was a weird feeling for me to not be able to get online and get the support.  I didnt realize how strongly I relied on getting on the forum each day to keep me motivated and on track.  WOW.  haha

I dont even know where to start on updating…I feel like I havnt been on for like weeks.  lol 

My food has been great…my workouts have been great.  I actually took yesterday off.  I was really sleepy and my calves have been sore for a week anyways.  I think my body was in need for a break.  My weight however has been steady.  Its still lingering around 260…  Whatever.  I probably havnt been drinking enough but still…I dropped my calories back down to 1200 this week.  It wasnt even intentional but a couple days in a row I had right under 1200 so thats what it is and so I havnt tried to get more.  My weight is down to 259.3ish as of last night.  Not low enough for me…I *REALLY* hope my weightloss doesnt start to slow down this early.  Im 260 freakin pounds.  I feel like I should be dropping the weight off especially with all my workouts and eating clean.  Im not a patient person but perhaps I’ll learn throughout this journey. 

Sooo I found some pictures that really motivated me AND disgusted me!  They are pictures of me pretty close to when I quit doing body for life.  The 2nd picture of me at the airport is me coming to Dallas to visit….which is indeed the trip that got me off track and ended my weightloss. 

I was around 235 here and what I would give to be 235 again.  Im cussing myself actually because WHY IN THE WORLD DID I THROW IN THE TOWEL?  If I could kick myself I would.  I was looking pretty good.  A noticable change…great progress.  When I came home to visit that time I was finished week 8 of 12 of BFL.  I had every intention of staying on plan during my trip and I did.  I went straight to the store and bought stuff for whole wheat turkey sandwhiches, cottage cheese, yogurt, etc.  I went walking everyday around my grandparents neighborhood.  But for some reason when I got back home I just forgot all about BFL and the gym and obviously slowly gained all the weight back plus 20-25 more extra pounds.  What was I thinking to let all that hard work go out the window?  Booooo!  I WONT BE MAKING THAT MISTAKE AGAIN!   

I wasnt even close to goal in those pics, at 235, so it scares me to think I got comfortable in my own skin again that far from goal.  I went home to visit and everyone told me how great I looked and what a great job I was doing….I was floating on cloud 9 because I felt good and I felt pretty!  Im making it to week 12 this time…and then Im going to make it to 24 and 36 and 48 and 60 weeks.  I promised myself over and over when I started BFL that I was going to for once finish and get this weight off.  Im tired of broken promises and settling back into old habits…I really feel and know that this is it.  The new is worn away…and now its time for my commitment to sink in and get me through temptations and lazy days when I dont feel like working out.  Im 100% committed.  I’ll have bad days, I’ll have vacations, and stressful life events but none of those change my goal that I’ll achieve next year….or my goal everyweek and day.  No more excuses….this is it! 

Im scared to weigh in today.  Really, its more of a nervous.  I feel like my weight loss has def slowed down.  Im terrified Im going to get on the scale today and its only going to be a pound down.  Thats still good but I want more.  I want more than 3 pounds….6 sounds good.  lol …..ad unhealthy I suppose.  Im hoping and praying for a big whoosh for TOM almost being gone.  Aye AYe aye.   Its my first mini-goal and I know Im not going to make goal…it makes me really unmotivated.  My original goal was 257 but then I upped it to 259 when I realized I wouldnt be losing 4 pounds every week.  Perhaps I should stop making minigoal deadlines and just go by weight.  I may do that for the next goal….

Ben and I are going on a bike ride today!  Im REALLY excited.  I didnt realize until last night how extremely bored I am getting on the treadmill.  Im only on 6 weeks so eep…thats no good.  Anywho…we go to the park and do 14 miles and it takes us a good hour and 15 mins or so if we dont stop. 

I decided last night that since it is my 6 week mark and Ive done considerably well the last month and a half that Im going to go out tonight and have a schlotzkys sandwhich which is around 700 cals and then were going to go get ice cream.  Its my free night.  I feel somwhat bad having decided that especially since Im feeling extremely nervous about weighing in today but ehhh.  Something high cal and horrid for me might trick my body again.  lol 

I’ll check in later and post my weigh in, if I must….

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