…We’re pregnant!!!!  =)  Surprise!

 
Ben and I found out on June 9th that we’re pregnant and we’re sooo excited!  lol  It was quite a surprise but we can’t wait!  The expected due date is February 20th.  I’m almost at 10 weeks and I can’t believe how fast it’s going!  Its really surreal! 

We’ve had 4 ultrasounds so far and it’s just amazing to see how much the baby changes every couple weeks!  Our first U/S due to some spotting at 4ish weeks, the baby wasn’t even there yet.  Then at 5 weeks/ 5 days it was a little glob, and then at 7 weeks/ 3 days it was so much bigger and had a shape, and then at almost 10 weeks you could see the head, body, arms, and legs…AND HE WAS DANCING AND WIGGLING! Its just so amazing to see the little heart beating and it moving around…I’m in aw!  He’s growing and everything looks great! 

It’s just such an exciting time full of new experiences and I’m pretty much speechless!  lol

Some more exciting news!!  Ben and I are going to be getting married in August!  We’ve always planned on getting married but I wanted to wait until I was done with school but the baby is speeding up that process just a little!  lol  *Squee*!   We’re just going to do something simple…we’re thinking about elloping and going to Vegas for a couple days, flying up to MD and getting a justice of the peace to come out to the beach, or just doing the justice of the peace here.    I’ve never wanted a big wedding…My theory has always been to just save that money and use it to buy a house or take an amazing honeymoon!  lol   We’ll be deciding soon though because it’s a month away! 

I just wrote a huge post out and its gone!  Booo!  lol

Anywho…I think Ive officially reached my first real plateau and Im working on changing stuff up and breaking through it!  Im still in the freakin 230s but last week I was exactly 230 and sooo close.  Im just lingering around and its frustrating but I know I just have to stay strong, keep working hard, and push through it and soon enough I’ll see my mini-goal #4 of 221/20% lost!  I have plane tickets to go to PA/MD to visit family and am going to get down to onederland by the end of May when I leave!  Im absolutely determined to get through this and be skinny for the first time in my life! 

I cant believe that im just a  few pounds away from being at 50lbs lost!  5.5 months ago I was still doubting myself but now that Ive made it this far theres no turning back! 

I have some updated pics that I took a few weeks ago and I couldnt believe the difference but its real! Im posting them below! Also, Ive been keeping track of my measurements and so far in my bust/waist/hips I have lost 21inches.  *squee*!!!

I hope everyone out there is doing great and making amazing progress!  Stay strong ladies!  We can do this!

So Ive realized today 2 things.  1 being that I am halfway through the valentines day challenge and may actually reach the far fetched goal that I put on myself at week 3 of my journey.  The 2nd thing being that I am seriously at week 13 of my journey!!!!!  Holy cow.  That is just such a huge milestone for me!  When I was doing Body For life, a 12 week program, I had every intention of finishing BUT I ended up quitting at week 8.  So just getting to week 8 of this journey meant so much to me.  I thought about it and waited for it to come around so I could push through and make it to week 9.   Suddenly Im PAST week 12 even and sitting at week 13 without a thought about it until I looked at my spreadsheet today.  Quiting at week 8 of BFL really just blew my self esteem and self trust.  I started this in October with little faith that I would even get past week 8.  I let myself down before and failed and it really did something to me.  But here I am, sitting in my lose sweats, and realizing that I ABSOLUTELY CAN DO THIS!!!!!!!  Im amazed with how far Ive come and Im ecstatic!  Granted, I have slacked off alot….I was like the life change/strict calorie counting/workout queen natzi at the beginning of this and now that Im cut my self some slack I feel like Im not working hard enough even though Im still losing 2-4 lbs a week.  I must be doing something right.   I am struggling but Im working through it and thats what matters right now.  I have no doubt in my mind that Im going to make it to my ultimate goal of <150.  By February 14th Im going to be in the 210’s!!!!  Im going to need to buy new clothes in the next few months and Im so excited! 

I made a team challenge today on my BL team board that I was going to challenge myself to workout 5 day a week until the new year.  Im going to push myself to work out.  I need to post a few pics around my apt of lose flabby skin and that’ll get me moving!  I know how important it is and this is definitely where the commitment of my journey needs to come into play!!  

Im doing a happy dance right now!  Im feeling good and I hope yall are too!  =)

I hopped on the scale yesterday and low and behold it was at 248!!!!  I was so excited!  Ive been waiting patiently to be able to move the scale to the 200’s instead of the 250’s! 249 put me at my 10% Mini Goal too!   Wohooo!  So as of yesterday I have lost 29 pounds and Im so excited!   I

ve also been running which is AMAZING!  One day last week I jumped on the treadmill and ran as long as I could…I started off at just 5 mins and then I did a full 10 minutes!  AND then the next day I went and decided to run 15 mins straight and ended up doing 18 mins and a mile and a half!!!!  It felt so so so amazing.  My legs didnt hurt, my chest didnt feel like it would explode…it was great!  My sides were so sore though for a couple days!  lol  Sadly though the last 2 times Ive tried to run this week I have only lasted 5 mins.  The first day I was still full from dinner though and felt like I was going to puke…Im on my period too so maybe my stomach is just being weird from that.  I will try again later and hopefully with better results! 

School is FINALLY out for the semester!  Im so glad!  ALthough I ended up making a freakin B in Chem.  I needed a 94 on the final to make an A and I made a 92 which left my grade at an 89 and he didnt bump it up!  Jerk face.  I was highly irritated with myself for not doing better on past exams but it is what it is and a B wont kill me…I dont guess.  I did however make an A in Statistics.  Yay.  =)    I now feel like I can breath and focus on my weightloss for the next month!  Ive been using school as an excuse to not work out the past couple weeks so I need to get with it now…no excuses.  It doesnt help that Im feeling EXTREMELY lazy today buuut I will work out!  I will work out!  I will work out!  Stupid TOM. 

I am going to get a haircut tonight too!  Im going to call it my 10% reward!  I think Im going to get some side bangs!  I need something different.  Im seriously thinking that when I get down to goal Im going to get a cute little bob cut.  My mom used to cut my hair into a really short cut when I was younger because of my really curly hair as a kid and it always looked pretty good on me.  Commmme on goal!  Wohoo! 

Hope all of you Chicks are having a great week!  =) 

So I decided that after Christmas Im going to go up to PA/MD to visit my sister, neices, and friends and Im so excited!  I miss my neices SOOOO much.  Im pretty homesick actually.  Im originally from Texas and moved to MD for 4 years and just moved back to Texas this year.  When I moved to MD my oldest neice was only 4 months and then a year and a half later my sister had my youngest neice.  They are now 4 and 2 and Ive always been there with them so its just so strange to not be able to see them now.  I feel like Im definitely missing out and I hate it! 

Anways, Im going back to visit and I want to look as good as possible!!!  Its a great motivator and actually what has helped me get strict again!  Ive ate great and worked out the past 2 days and am absolutely thrilled to be back on track.  Its so scary falling off the wagon.  =(  I hope I dont have another scare for quite a while!  All I know right now though is that I want to look freakin AMAZING in January!  I just hope I dont get off track there but I have a month to prepare for that! 

Im about to go and try to have a good work out at the gym.  I just hope my knee doesnt act up!  I’ll be glad when I get insurance and can go get it looked at!  I also want to update my weight chart after I get back.  Im obviously a bit late but better late than never!  =)

Hope everyone is having a great day! 

I’ve been sliding all over the place half of me trying to get my balance back and half of me missing all those unhealthy choices. 

I just worked out and did my Turbo Sculpt DVD and got inspiration to write.  Haha the last couple weeks have been hell.  I don’t know why I’m having such a hard time.  Maybe it’s all in my head or simple just the holidays but it’s funny that one day I was still doing AMAZING and being so strict to the next day allowing little splurges.  My biggest mistake is probably allowing myself to eat whatever I want all day long on Thanksgiving.  I didn’t want to have to worry about it…I didn’t want to have to turn down my favorites so I said to heck with it and stuffed my face all day long.  With that came the leftovers though and my aunt sending me home with half a chocolate pie and luckily I didn’t eat all of it but I had a few binges of very very very large spoonfuls of pie.  Ever since then I’ve been allowing myself a little extra that, a few too many sips of soda, eating Panda Express for dinner…ya know, things like that. 

My food had been the better of the 2 main components of weight loss; eating right and working out.  What’s working out again?  I actually started working seasonally last week and my feet and especially my knee have been really hurting.  So I’ve been lazy and used it as an excuse to skip a few workouts.  Last night Ben and I went to work out and my knee felt like it was going to pop in half…we came home 10 mins into our “workout”.  SO tonight after decided without second thought about eating a 1115 calorie meal at Panda Express I decided I had to do SOMETHING even if I had to do my Turbo Sculpt and only work out my upper body.  I feel good.  I’m glad I did it.  I got a sweat going and got my heart rate up and am soooo glad I did it!

It may just be complete mental slope I’ve been fighting.  8 weeks into Body for Life I quit and I was completely determined that I was going to be getting to goal then.  I let myself down.  Subconsciously I’ve been waiting for myself to fail again.  I don’t want too…I tell myself I’m not but really I expect nothing more than me failing yet again.  BUT let me tell ya…I have noticed ONE difference between me quitting then and me started to slip this time and that’s that I’m here and I recognize that I’m slowly getting back into those old nasty habits and I’m putting a stop to it.  Dangit, I’m going to lose this weight!!!!! 

The fact that I miss all my favorite fast food restaurants and eating ice cream whenever I please is a different story!  I absolutely do miss it…I thought at this point I would never want to touch the stuff again and I know it’s horrible for me but it’s so yummy.  I’m quite addicted to food…I love it but I’m just going to have to suffer through and say goodbye!  I would have a funeral and bury it but I would eat it all before I got it home to have the funeral.  Ehhh… Every day is a struggle but I just need to get 100% committed again and get strict!  That happening RIGHT NOW!  IM COMMITTED!  =)    The good news is that I haven’t gained any weight…I’ve lost a couple pounds but I need to get my unbloated self back! 

Fitday here I come!  Ahhh feels good! 

Soooo….its been like 12 days since Ive blogged last.  I didnt quite realize its been that long.  The good news is that IM STILL LOSING!  The bad is that I havnt worked out in like 5 days.  I went to Courts this weekend, left on Thursday and came back Sunday, and then I had a busy few days with school so I havnt worked out at all.  =(  I lost like 1 pound this week which is good because I def couldve gained but Ive ate pretty well. 

I hate the feeling of “giving in” though.  Granted I have sucked with working out but Ive made good food choices and kept up with Fitday minus one day over the weekend.  So it couldve been worse.  I just feel like since Ive slacked off working out that Im doomed to fail.  I know Im not going to fail because I am determined not too but its just is too close to failing for me. 

Im really not motivated to write anything inspiring but I def wanted to check in.  =( 

Im waiting for my late breakfast to settle and then Im going to the gym for a long time.  haha  I plan on updating my measurements this evening too! 

UPDATE!

Okies…I worked out and OMG it felt good!  I missed it and feel SO much better!  I went ahead and weighed in today since I didnt yesterday and Im down to one little smidge below 254 so technically 253 but Im sticking with 254 and I can live with that most definitely!  I also just measured myself for the first time in 2 weeks and OMG Im doing such a good job even if I do feel like an absolute failing slacker!  haha Total inches lost all over is 23.625!  I’ll post my main measurements under my logs page.  =)  *squee* 

I hope everyone has a WONDERFUL holiday! 

So we went on our bike ride, came home and showered, had my 771 cal sandwhich from yummy Schlotzskys with water and no chips but a few sips of Bens Dr. Pepper, went to the Highlands to get Sabrina a bday present and looked around a while…I tried on a 16 at LB and got them all the way on but they wouldnt button so Im thinking another 30 pounds is needed OFF, annnnnnnd then to Cold Stone ice cream.  Soooo yummy!  Although this is where my guilt set in.  Of course I decided to get this huge slab of vanilla ice cream with cookie dough and fudge mixed in and then put in this huge waffle cone.  It was so yummy but almost too sweet…**gasps**…yea, I said too sweet.  I thought like halfway through that I wouldve been content with a small kids size and no cone.  So my lesson learned of the night….MODERATION.  Why did I feel like I needed to get the HUGE ice cream when all I needed was the little kids size?  I LOVE icecream…I would eat it 5 times a day if humans didnt have to worry about weight….but I dont need to get such a huge amount to be satisfied.  So, the next time I have a free night I’ll be doing it in moderation.  =)

 ….Yea, I felt like a beached whale sitting in front of the ice cream shop shoving my mouth full.  Blah! 

So after we got home and watched Biggest Loser we went and worked out for a lil over a hour.  My weigh in came in at 260.  1 freakin pound away from my 1st minigoal but still!  Thats huge.  AND TOM is still here visiting….so Im blaming him. 

I had a moment last  night…a bad one.  Ben weighed in and he’s been losing weight.  He’s still drinking Dr. Pepper all the time, not counting cals, and eating pretty much what he wants….  Dont get me wrong, Im SO happy he’s been working out with me and Im glad he’s losing weight but Im JEALOUS!  Why isnt it that easy for me to lose weight?  Im being super strict (besides last night obviously and a few other PLANNED splurges), but seriously.  I count my calories religiously, I dont cheat, I havnt had soda in 6 weeks (besides last night), I work out like everyday and twice a day sometimes, and here I am BARELY losing weight while he’s putting in not even half the effort and is losing faster than me!  I hate MEN!  Gerrr….why do they lose faster.  Its BS!  AND I want to run….I cant wait to be able to run so what does Ben do on the treadmill lately?  He runs….he runs for like 15 mins and I run for like 1.5 mins.  It made me sad…I want to run dangit!  Im done venting now.  I’ll get over it and one day I’ll be able to kick his ass in running.  Im also 30 pounds heavier than him so =P. 

Anyways….here are some before and afters at 6 weeks.  Enjoy.  I got them like perfectly resized so they were the same size and what not but photobucket is stupid.  =)  My tummy is going away, and my waist is more defined, my arms are a little smaller, and my bra fat is going away!  YAY! 

Had to throw in a mirror shot.  haha  =P

Ive been skipping days blogging lately.  =(  Ive also skipped a couple days of entering in my calories…

Am I slipping?  I still feel like Im gun ho on doing this and getting rid of all this weight but Im just not being as strict as I was the first 4 weeks.  I know its normal.  Its not “new” anymore and thats when most people start slipping back into old habits and slacking off but Im vowing right now that Im ABSOLUTELY NOT going to slack on putting my food into Fitday.  I really feel like thats what keeps me on track.  I love blogging but and it keeps me accountable because I know some read it but I can say whatever I want.  So if I want to talk about something besides the fact that I went over calories I can.    Whereas in fitday Im putting in the facts and Im getting the result.  So if I overeat and enter it in its right there in front of my face calling me a fatass when my cals are at 1800 instead of 1500….unless I lie but thats pointless.  Blogging is enjoyable and somewhere I can vent where as fitday is my no BS motivation.  lol  I hope that makes sense. 

With that being said…I will TRY and update my bloggy everyday but Im not going to freak out if I miss a day here and there.  Its the calories not being counted that worry me!  lol

So a bit OT from my weight loss…I took my puppy to get nuetered Wednesday night.  It was so sad.  He’s feeling better today but its MISERABLE in that cone thingy.  =(  My bestfriend/sister is a vet tech and happens to be dating the vet there so he did it for me.  They let me stay back there with him which Im sure was extremely comforting for him.  They put his little IV’s in his legs and then let me hold him…then after so gave him the anesthesia I got to hold him till he fell asleep.  It was so cute.  The surgery was kinda gross….especially after the vet slung his testicles on the table next to him but Im glad its done.  ALthough I cant speak for Harrison….eep!

I FINALLY got a call back from one of many seasonal jobs Ive applied for.  I hope I get it!!  I have an interview tomorrow.  Being broke sucks!  Ben and I rolled all of our change today…we have 72 bucks.  Its pathetic.  Im looking forward to having thay paycheck coming in so we’re not so stressed out and can actually go do stuff! 

Alrighty…I guess thats all I know!  Court is home from school for the weekend so we’re going to work out to The Firm.  I think I’ll really like it once I get the steps down.  I used my weights with it for the first time last night and it felt good!  =) 

I hope everyone has a fantastic weekend!  Stay Strong! 

I wanted to write about something last night but I dont remember now what it is….hmmm?

I had weigh in last night and came in at 263.  Yay!  I was expecting worse although Im glad I got it back down.  I think its ridiculous that I got down to 263 a few days after last weeks weigh in and then I jumped way up and barely got it back down to last weeks 263.  My weight keeps doing that…although last week was my birthday so atleast I didnt gain!  Atleast I can really say good bye to the 270’s!  Wohoooo! 

One of Bens friends is sending me copies of a few workout videos!  Im excited to get them and change things up a bit.  Ive been jogging for small amount of time on the treadmill the last few days.  I cant wait to be able to just run for as long as I want! 

I guess I dont really have anything to say….just wanted to check in.  =) 

Hope everyone has a fantastic Wednesday!