My loss is my gain!

So Ive realized today 2 things.  1 being that I am halfway through the valentines day challenge and may actually reach the far fetched goal that I put on myself at week 3 of my journey.  The 2nd thing being that I am seriously at week 13 of my journey!!!!!  Holy cow.  That is just such a huge milestone for me!  When I was doing Body For life, a 12 week program, I had every intention of finishing BUT I ended up quitting at week 8.  So just getting to week 8 of this journey meant so much to me.  I thought about it and waited for it to come around so I could push through and make it to week 9.   Suddenly Im PAST week 12 even and sitting at week 13 without a thought about it until I looked at my spreadsheet today.  Quiting at week 8 of BFL really just blew my self esteem and self trust.  I started this in October with little faith that I would even get past week 8.  I let myself down before and failed and it really did something to me.  But here I am, sitting in my lose sweats, and realizing that I ABSOLUTELY CAN DO THIS!!!!!!!  Im amazed with how far Ive come and Im ecstatic!  Granted, I have slacked off alot….I was like the life change/strict calorie counting/workout queen natzi at the beginning of this and now that Im cut my self some slack I feel like Im not working hard enough even though Im still losing 2-4 lbs a week.  I must be doing something right.   I am struggling but Im working through it and thats what matters right now.  I have no doubt in my mind that Im going to make it to my ultimate goal of <150.  By February 14th Im going to be in the 210’s!!!!  Im going to need to buy new clothes in the next few months and Im so excited! 

I made a team challenge today on my BL team board that I was going to challenge myself to workout 5 day a week until the new year.  Im going to push myself to work out.  I need to post a few pics around my apt of lose flabby skin and that’ll get me moving!  I know how important it is and this is definitely where the commitment of my journey needs to come into play!!  

Im doing a happy dance right now!  Im feeling good and I hope yall are too!  =)

I hopped on the scale yesterday and low and behold it was at 248!!!!  I was so excited!  Ive been waiting patiently to be able to move the scale to the 200’s instead of the 250’s! 249 put me at my 10% Mini Goal too!   Wohooo!  So as of yesterday I have lost 29 pounds and Im so excited!   I

ve also been running which is AMAZING!  One day last week I jumped on the treadmill and ran as long as I could…I started off at just 5 mins and then I did a full 10 minutes!  AND then the next day I went and decided to run 15 mins straight and ended up doing 18 mins and a mile and a half!!!!  It felt so so so amazing.  My legs didnt hurt, my chest didnt feel like it would explode…it was great!  My sides were so sore though for a couple days!  lol  Sadly though the last 2 times Ive tried to run this week I have only lasted 5 mins.  The first day I was still full from dinner though and felt like I was going to puke…Im on my period too so maybe my stomach is just being weird from that.  I will try again later and hopefully with better results! 

School is FINALLY out for the semester!  Im so glad!  ALthough I ended up making a freakin B in Chem.  I needed a 94 on the final to make an A and I made a 92 which left my grade at an 89 and he didnt bump it up!  Jerk face.  I was highly irritated with myself for not doing better on past exams but it is what it is and a B wont kill me…I dont guess.  I did however make an A in Statistics.  Yay.  =)    I now feel like I can breath and focus on my weightloss for the next month!  Ive been using school as an excuse to not work out the past couple weeks so I need to get with it now…no excuses.  It doesnt help that Im feeling EXTREMELY lazy today buuut I will work out!  I will work out!  I will work out!  Stupid TOM. 

I am going to get a haircut tonight too!  Im going to call it my 10% reward!  I think Im going to get some side bangs!  I need something different.  Im seriously thinking that when I get down to goal Im going to get a cute little bob cut.  My mom used to cut my hair into a really short cut when I was younger because of my really curly hair as a kid and it always looked pretty good on me.  Commmme on goal!  Wohoo! 

Hope all of you Chicks are having a great week!  =) 

So I decided that after Christmas Im going to go up to PA/MD to visit my sister, neices, and friends and Im so excited!  I miss my neices SOOOO much.  Im pretty homesick actually.  Im originally from Texas and moved to MD for 4 years and just moved back to Texas this year.  When I moved to MD my oldest neice was only 4 months and then a year and a half later my sister had my youngest neice.  They are now 4 and 2 and Ive always been there with them so its just so strange to not be able to see them now.  I feel like Im definitely missing out and I hate it! 

Anways, Im going back to visit and I want to look as good as possible!!!  Its a great motivator and actually what has helped me get strict again!  Ive ate great and worked out the past 2 days and am absolutely thrilled to be back on track.  Its so scary falling off the wagon.  =(  I hope I dont have another scare for quite a while!  All I know right now though is that I want to look freakin AMAZING in January!  I just hope I dont get off track there but I have a month to prepare for that! 

Im about to go and try to have a good work out at the gym.  I just hope my knee doesnt act up!  I’ll be glad when I get insurance and can go get it looked at!  I also want to update my weight chart after I get back.  Im obviously a bit late but better late than never!  =)

Hope everyone is having a great day! 

I’ve been sliding all over the place half of me trying to get my balance back and half of me missing all those unhealthy choices. 

I just worked out and did my Turbo Sculpt DVD and got inspiration to write.  Haha the last couple weeks have been hell.  I don’t know why I’m having such a hard time.  Maybe it’s all in my head or simple just the holidays but it’s funny that one day I was still doing AMAZING and being so strict to the next day allowing little splurges.  My biggest mistake is probably allowing myself to eat whatever I want all day long on Thanksgiving.  I didn’t want to have to worry about it…I didn’t want to have to turn down my favorites so I said to heck with it and stuffed my face all day long.  With that came the leftovers though and my aunt sending me home with half a chocolate pie and luckily I didn’t eat all of it but I had a few binges of very very very large spoonfuls of pie.  Ever since then I’ve been allowing myself a little extra that, a few too many sips of soda, eating Panda Express for dinner…ya know, things like that. 

My food had been the better of the 2 main components of weight loss; eating right and working out.  What’s working out again?  I actually started working seasonally last week and my feet and especially my knee have been really hurting.  So I’ve been lazy and used it as an excuse to skip a few workouts.  Last night Ben and I went to work out and my knee felt like it was going to pop in half…we came home 10 mins into our “workout”.  SO tonight after decided without second thought about eating a 1115 calorie meal at Panda Express I decided I had to do SOMETHING even if I had to do my Turbo Sculpt and only work out my upper body.  I feel good.  I’m glad I did it.  I got a sweat going and got my heart rate up and am soooo glad I did it!

It may just be complete mental slope I’ve been fighting.  8 weeks into Body for Life I quit and I was completely determined that I was going to be getting to goal then.  I let myself down.  Subconsciously I’ve been waiting for myself to fail again.  I don’t want too…I tell myself I’m not but really I expect nothing more than me failing yet again.  BUT let me tell ya…I have noticed ONE difference between me quitting then and me started to slip this time and that’s that I’m here and I recognize that I’m slowly getting back into those old nasty habits and I’m putting a stop to it.  Dangit, I’m going to lose this weight!!!!! 

The fact that I miss all my favorite fast food restaurants and eating ice cream whenever I please is a different story!  I absolutely do miss it…I thought at this point I would never want to touch the stuff again and I know it’s horrible for me but it’s so yummy.  I’m quite addicted to food…I love it but I’m just going to have to suffer through and say goodbye!  I would have a funeral and bury it but I would eat it all before I got it home to have the funeral.  Ehhh… Every day is a struggle but I just need to get 100% committed again and get strict!  That happening RIGHT NOW!  IM COMMITTED!  =)    The good news is that I haven’t gained any weight…I’ve lost a couple pounds but I need to get my unbloated self back! 

Fitday here I come!  Ahhh feels good!