Note to self: Read this if you want to quit again!
OMG, I thought I was going to die without 3FC. I guess the server was down for like a day and a half or 2? I kept trying to get in and I couldnt and I thought I was going to go eat everything in the kitchen. It was a weird feeling for me to not be able to get online and get the support. I didnt realize how strongly I relied on getting on the forum each day to keep me motivated and on track. WOW. haha
I dont even know where to start on updating…I feel like I havnt been on for like weeks. lol
My food has been great…my workouts have been great. I actually took yesterday off. I was really sleepy and my calves have been sore for a week anyways. I think my body was in need for a break. My weight however has been steady. Its still lingering around 260… Whatever. I probably havnt been drinking enough but still…I dropped my calories back down to 1200 this week. It wasnt even intentional but a couple days in a row I had right under 1200 so thats what it is and so I havnt tried to get more. My weight is down to 259.3ish as of last night. Not low enough for me…I *REALLY* hope my weightloss doesnt start to slow down this early. Im 260 freakin pounds. I feel like I should be dropping the weight off especially with all my workouts and eating clean. Im not a patient person but perhaps I’ll learn throughout this journey.
Sooo I found some pictures that really motivated me AND disgusted me! They are pictures of me pretty close to when I quit doing body for life. The 2nd picture of me at the airport is me coming to Dallas to visit….which is indeed the trip that got me off track and ended my weightloss.
I was around 235 here and what I would give to be 235 again. Im cussing myself actually because WHY IN THE WORLD DID I THROW IN THE TOWEL? If I could kick myself I would. I was looking pretty good. A noticable change…great progress. When I came home to visit that time I was finished week 8 of 12 of BFL. I had every intention of staying on plan during my trip and I did. I went straight to the store and bought stuff for whole wheat turkey sandwhiches, cottage cheese, yogurt, etc. I went walking everyday around my grandparents neighborhood. But for some reason when I got back home I just forgot all about BFL and the gym and obviously slowly gained all the weight back plus 20-25 more extra pounds. What was I thinking to let all that hard work go out the window? Booooo! I WONT BE MAKING THAT MISTAKE AGAIN!
I wasnt even close to goal in those pics, at 235, so it scares me to think I got comfortable in my own skin again that far from goal. I went home to visit and everyone told me how great I looked and what a great job I was doing….I was floating on cloud 9 because I felt good and I felt pretty! Im making it to week 12 this time…and then Im going to make it to 24 and 36 and 48 and 60 weeks. I promised myself over and over when I started BFL that I was going to for once finish and get this weight off. Im tired of broken promises and settling back into old habits…I really feel and know that this is it. The new is worn away…and now its time for my commitment to sink in and get me through temptations and lazy days when I dont feel like working out. Im 100% committed. I’ll have bad days, I’ll have vacations, and stressful life events but none of those change my goal that I’ll achieve next year….or my goal everyweek and day. No more excuses….this is it!
I know what you mean about feeling lost without 3FC .. I felt the sAME!
I think you looked really happy and pretty in those pictures =D you will get there soon!!!!!
Best of luck to you!!~~
I like this post a lot. The fact that you see what you did wrong, have a plan for next time too.
I also can really relate to this : “Not low enough for me…I *REALLY* hope my weightloss doesnt start to slow down this early”.
It was really hard for me to come to terms with the fact that I am a slow loser. The book Mindess Eating helped me, as did a lot of intensive dieting where the payoff was “only” 2 or 3 pounds a month. It took me a really long time to accept that my body releases weight slower than the mythical “average 1-2 pounds a week”. It used to drive me nuts. I now just accept it. I focus on my own behavior (diet, exercise, motivation) and know that with time that will result in decreases in the scale. It’s what I need to do long term for maintenance anyway, so I can deal with doing it forever.
You do look fabulous in the pics by the way!
Thanks ladies!
Im prepared for not losing much weight when I get down to an non-obese weight but Im not quite expecting it now. Perhaps Im just being naive. I dont know. I’ll take it how it comes though and get to goal regardless. =)