I was so on the fence about buying a piece of exercise equipment. So many horror stories from friends that basically have “entire” gyms in their homes and never use them. Why would I be any different? Well for one, I’m not the kind of person that has to buy something just because it’s hip and now and to prove to anyone that I can spend money just because I can. I knew that when I invested in something like that I wouldn’t take it lightly to throw a few hundred bucks out without using it. Yes, I realize that I’m new at having workout equipment at home, but I’m not new to exercising at home. When I look back, I can honestly say that most of the time I’d stop doing exercises for some silly reason. I used to do Sweatin to the Oldies and one of my tapes broke. So I bought another tape that came with training cords to stretch. Well after stretching for about 4 weeks my cords broke! Dummy me, instead of calling their customer service and complaining I just said “Oh well, guess I can’t exercise!” Wonder what was going through my head?????
I really want this so bad. I don’t obsess over my weight and I dont’ let it hold me back….to a degree. Do I feel ugly when I go out in public? No! Am I ashamed of my weight when talking to others? No! But….I haven’t had a new pair of shoes in 2 years. I wear the same grungy tennis shoes everyday. Do I wear anything other than jeans? Pretty much No, hate to say on the days I don’t wear jeans it’s sweats. I also don’t like how I look without my clothes on. I’m really afraid that even after losing weight I’ll still have that awful hanging skin. But, honestly right now it’s a lot harder trying to stuff 234 lbs into a sz 18 than what it would be like stuffing 185 into a sz 12/14. I know I’ll never be reed thin, and it’s not even a goal of mine. I just would love to walk into any store, buy fashionable clothes that flatter my body, and for goodness sakes buy myself a new pair of shoes!!!!!