9 years ago I weighed 260 lbs and I joined a gym and I joined Weight Watchers and I lost almost 50 pounds and was way healthier and then sh!#, excuse me, I mean life happened and I fell off the wagon and stopped exercising and starting eating crap and so on and so and the weight began creep, creep, creeping back up. I endured 9 months of failures at WW weigh-ins which frequently included the lovely extra of having the staff member weighing me giving me sour, disapproving looks, as she filled out my booklet, which now charted my rising weight gain instead of loss. I finally got tired of the shame and gave up on WW completely. At the time I had a lot going on in my life (grad school, full-time employment plus a couple of side jobs, and family commitments including a wayward teenager and two intermittently ailing parents with assorted cancers, heart problems, and other issues). I figured I would tackle getting healthy when things settled down. ”Things” didn’t ever really settle down and I am now 9 years older and just as overweight as before and noticeably more unhealthy; arthritis in feet, knees, neck, and other places, frequent hip pain, some back pain, high blood pressure, and reflux. The other day I had a pretty bad fall when I tripped on a broken piece of sidewalk and I can’t help but wonder to myself, “If I was healthier (i.e. stronger and trimmer), would I have been less injured or maybe even avoided the fall?”
So, here I am. I definitely don’t want to go back to WW, even though I lost weight while OP last time and my doctor has suggested several times that I go back. I just feel too turned off by WW even if it did work for me when I followed the program and had a nice sense of community (especially in the online forums). My big issues with WW are that it was a constant financial drain (membership dues and WW swag and foods) and encouraged too much of a “true-believer” mentality. First off, I think it is a total double-speakin’ lie that WW is not a diet. Weight Watchers is a diet. Fact.
Then there are the meetings. I do not want to go to them again, ever. When I first joined WW, I tried to be all enthusiastic about them and get in the spirit, clapping for other members “success” and raising my hand to trumpet my own. In the end it was majorly depressing to listen to the WW newbies’ chirpy tales of a joyous .4 pound loss while on vacation (whoopty freakin’ do) while my weight was going up no matter what I was doing.
Next proverbial bone (or bones) of contention: the leaders. They generally had just a leetle too much of gung-ho, culty vibe for my taste. I did really like one of my WW leaders who, I think, had been a real fat girl before WW. She seemed to have an ongoing struggle with food especially peanut butter. At the time I quit, she was “in trouble” and on some kind of WW “probation” for being over her “Goal” weight. I can easily imagine her being subjected to a WW court martial by the bone leaders who only lost 15 pounds to get to their “Goal” weight and will never really understand how it feels to be truly morbidly obese.
Another issue with trying to redo my previous WW thing is that while doing WW, I ate a lot of low-cal “Frankenfood” in order to stay in my points range. I have moved away from eating that kind of over-processed stuff in the last 9 years. I am not even sure if I want to even mess with the points system because I have gotten rid of all the cookbooks and WW stuff that I bought last time and don’t want to to go backwards. I think I am going to use the old timey method of counting calories, fat, fiber, etc.
My current dietary thing is to eat food that is as all natural and low-processed as possible. I eat a lot of organic food and very little meat. The majority of the meals I fix for my family are vegan. I think if I just write down what I eat and count calories and EXERCISE (I will rant on that later cause it is my biggest issue) and can do this thing.
I visited 3FC before and I have always liked the site. I think I can find the support community thing here. I am going to use My Net Diary to count calories and stuff. I joined that before Christmas but have been fooling with it on an intermittent basis. It has an exercise log section, too. I also plan to join a gym.
Well here’s to the next year! I hope to chart some success based on my own best efforts to really change my lifestyle for good and not just temporarily while I participate in a “program” that I am pretty sure, based on past experience, that I will eventually lose interest in.