Urgh. Yesterday we did Ab Ripper X and my abs are sooooore. It was only 15 minutes but I could still barely get through it. I’m looking forward to having a stronger core though. I think next week we’ll combine it with one of the shorter cardio workouts, just so I can feel like I did more. Today is cardio (I’m thinking plyo but we’ll see…).
If I can make it through today and tomorrow it’ll have been a week without fast food. That’s something I’m really trying to work on. I’ve cooked dinner at home every day this week and I’m really proud of myself for that. They’re not necessarily the *healthiest* dinners in the world, but one step at a time. Now if only someone would invent delicious, calorie-free mayo, I’d be set! 
Food for today…
Breakfast:
2 hard-boiled eggs: 155
Oatmeal w/skim milk: 160 + 28 = 188
Lunch:
Chicken sandwich: 190
Apple: 65
Cottage cheese w/mandarin oranges: 90 + 70 = 160
Snack:
Tuna kit: 240
Dinner:
Chicken enchilada pasta: 475
Total: 1473
My total just keeps getting better and better! I think it’ll probably be closer to 1600 cals, as I’m not so good at measuring out dinner. If I can just get a handle on my night eating I would feel so much better. I should really make those zucchini chips I saw on Pinterest. But it’s so much wooork *whines*
Posted on February 23rd, 2012 by srosa
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Wednesdays suck. They’re just long and boring. Other than that…
Breakfast:
2 hard-boiled eggs (155)
Oatmeal w/skim milk (160 + 28 = 188)
Lunch:
Chicken sandwich (190)
Cottage cheese w/mandarin oranges (90 + 70 = 160)
Apple (65)
Snack:
Tuna kit (240)
Dinner:
Stroganoff (589)
Total: 1587
Pretty good IMO, considering I’m burning off some of those calories with our workouts. Today is Ab Ripper X from p90x. It’s only half an hour but should be a hard workout for me since I have no core strength or upper body strength whatsoever.
I want to incorporate more vegetables into our dinners but DH is so stubborn about that. Yet another reason I’m leaning toward the smoothie idea. Considering getting a magic bullet…
Posted on February 22nd, 2012 by srosa
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I’m back! A lot of craziness has gone on since I’ve last blogged, but now I’ve got the time, I want to try updating regularly again, keep myself accountable to..myself… lol.
At any rate, I’ve been up and down with the same 15 pounds for awhile now and I’m over it. I finally have a regular schedule and a workout partner, so now’s the time to jump in full speed. Also my sister is getting married in a little over a year, which is just enough time for me to get to goal if I put in a concerted effort. Decided I’m going to try to update daily M-F to log my workouts and food for the day.I know it’s not so interesting to read but I really suck at tracking food and I think this will help.
Today’s food so far:
Breakfast:
Oatmeal w/skim milk (160 + 30 = 190)
3 hard boiled eggs (78 x 3 = 233)
Lunch:
Chicken sandwich (190)
cottage cheese w/mandarin oranges (90 + 70)
Apple (65)
Snacks:
Tuna kit (240)
String cheese (50 x 2 = 100)
Dinner:
Chicken zucchini casserole (537)
TOTAL: 1713
All in all it could’ve been better. Dinner was what killed it, I need to switch back to light sour cream and a few other things I could substitute. But it wasn’t terrible. DH is going to be gone a lot for work here soon and I’m thinking about replacing dinner with a healthy smoothie (”green” smoothies and the like). Dinner is always where I have my problems so maybe this will help.
For exercise I did the power cardio and resistance workout from Insanity. I took way more breaks than was supposed to but I made it through the whole video nonetheless, which is better than I was doing, to say the least. (This was yesterday, 2/21). I’m sore in some funny places today which IMO is good cause it means I’m working muscles that aren’t used to being worked.
Posted on February 22nd, 2012 by srosa
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I still have some reservations. *sigh* I don’t know what’s going on with me. I want to lose weight and get healthy, that hasn’t gone away, but COMPARED TO how I felt this time last year, it’s almost…indifferent. Which I’m not indifferent in the least, but I can’t seem to get ahold of the same determination/motivation I had last year. I want that back. It’s hard to take this seriously when I don’t *feel* that drive to do it right. Ugh.
I have been drinking my water, which is perhaps the easiest step there is, lol. I worked out yesterday and felt awesome, but not today. I’m sort of eating healthier, but I still haven’t gone full force into the diet/exercise that I want to. I wish I could figure out why I’m holding myself back. It is definitely harder with DH around, but that’s just an excuse, because it’s not an insurmountable problem. We only share one meal a day anyway. I just haven’t had the drive I need to buckle down and do this right. Where did it go??? I want it back 
Posted on January 7th, 2011 by srosa
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So, although I’ve taken some small steps back toward the healthy lifestyle I want, I have hesitated to make the big leap back into it full-force. I can’t figure out what’s holding me back. Fear that I’ll fail? I don’t think that’s it…if I fail, I’m just left where I’m at now. Big whoop. Fear that it’ll be hard? I think that’s edging closer to the issue. I *know* just how hard it’ll be, but I think maybe I’ve lost sight of just how GOOD it felt when I was succeeding in eating healthier, exercising every day, and losing weight in the process. Seeing that number shrink felt AWESOME, and beyond that, just knowing that I was working out and *feeling* better, feeling sexier. I need to remind myself of that feeling.
What I need is to get my ass of the couch and start MOVING. I need to walk the dog, work out, move around. Sadly, I’ve been spending the majority of my days sitting on the couch, on the computer/watching tv, not doing much. Usually, the most movement I get is going to the grocery store once a week and when I cook dinner at night (which doesn’t happen as often as I’d like). I feel like maybe I’m working through my issues bit by bit, but unfortunately there aren’t yet tangible results for “working through my issues”. I wish there were a scale for that. I’ve done pretty well on my minor goals - not buying junk food from the shoppette, not buying fast food…but now it’s time to take it a step further. Now it’s time to dive in head first. I’m just scared, I can feel that I’m scared. Why is this so damn scary?!
Hmph. I’m off to re-read my earlier posts from when I was having some success. Maybe that will help my determination to work out every day.
Posted on January 6th, 2011 by srosa
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I am SO MAD at myself. I got all the way down to 8 pounds away from being under 200 for the first time in YEARS, and then…I put it back on. I’m back at 225. I’m so pissed. All those nights lying in bed thinking about how much food I wanted to eat, and FORCING myself to stay in bed and not go binge, wasted. Down the toilet. My fat thighs have rubbed holes in the thighs of my best pair of jeans, and I refuse to go buy more. I swore the next time I bought jeans it would be because I needed smaller ones. On top of this, I’m just..sad. I’m sad that I know EXACTLY what I need to do to fix this problem, and I can’t seem to get off my lazy ass and just do it. I’m sad because other than my weight, I am very happy with my life. My weight is the ONE THING in my life right now that I would change, the one thing that brings me down. I have no excuses. None. Not one single good reason for this beyond my inexplicable laziness.
What happened to my determination? My optimism? What happened to that feeling that I *could* do this, even if I messed up, I would just try again? It’s like I gave up. Which is ridiculous. The disgusting part is the quote from my “goals and inspiration” page: “A year from now, you’ll wish you had started today.” A year ago, I had reached my highest ever weight (for the first time) and was determined to get it off. I was off to a good start. I was determined, happy, not too terribly unrealistic about the effort and time involved. And yet, here I am.
Seriously. What the $%%^ happened to me? I have made some small (very small) changes recently, and I’m doing ok keeping those up, but I am really just ready to make the big leap into full-on weight-loss commitment. And yet……every day…..nothing. It’s like…I don’t know. Maybe I’m scared. I don’t know what of, though. I mean, I can’t really be scared of failure. Failure would just put me exactly where I’m at right now. There’s nowhere to go but up! I think that’s it though. I think I’m scared. I just need to figure out why. I know it’ll be hard. I know it’ll suck. I know I’ll have unending fantasies about junk food for days on end.
I’m about to go to bed, so there’s nothing really I can do about it tonight. But I suppose I could do something tomorrow - take it one day at a time, like I talked about at the beginning of my original weight loss. It seemed to help. And tomorrow DH works (for some reason *I* have an easier time of it when *dh* is on a regular work schedule, what kind of sense does that make?) so there is that opportunity. I could walk the dog, get on my elliptical, do a workout video… I think I’ll give the elliptical and the walk a shot. The elliptical is the least scary of my workouts, and I think it’ll be good to ease into this. I really, really, REALLY want to get through Insanity at least once before we go to Germany. And I would *like* to get through c25k as well. I have the shoes, the music. The weather is warming up. I’d like to do 30 day shred too, but if I actually do Insanity and c25k I’ll probably just leave it at that. I want to arrive in Germany as a fit, healthy, sexy woman. As of tomorrow, I have 95 days. 95 DAYS! That is not long at all…
Posted on January 4th, 2011 by srosa
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Just got word that we are moving to Germany this spring!!! AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!! I am SO excited. It has renewed my determination to lose weight. Moving, for me, means a new start, a fresh beginning, all that trite bs. And when I meet my husband’s new coworkers, I want to be the hot wife, not the Typical Fat Army Wife. I want to be proud of myself, not just as his wife, but for myself. I’m hoping to get a full-time job there, and I want to be comfortable with myself, I want to walk into my interviews with my head held high and not fidgeting with ill-fitting interview clothes. I have about four months to accomplish this. Wish me luck!
Posted on December 11th, 2010 by srosa
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…I just “paused” in my blogging/weight loss journey because…
MY HUSBAND IS HOME!!!
:D
It feels amazing every time I get to type that. Between finals, family visiting, graduation, and my husband’s homecoming, I just had to pause my journey for a bit. But I am officially hitting the “unpause” button tomorrow! I am so excited about it, too. Though I didn’t lose any weight the past few weeks, I haven’t gained either, so I’m encouraged by that!
DH and I have all sorts of plans (half of which probably won’t end up happening, but we’ll give it our best!). DH is a tall skinny guy with a crazy fast metabolism (it’s a damn miracle I haven’t killed him out of sheer jealousy) so he wants to put on some muscle. We’re going to start going to the gym together and walking the dog together in the evenings. I’m keeping my fingers crossed I can convince another friend to come workout with me at my house. And we’re planning a trip to Mt. Rainier later this week to hike around. I’m not much of an outdoorsy type but I really want to spend my husband’s leave time getting out and around more. We can both be very sedentary and I want to change that.
Oh! And as a belated Christmas/birthday/graduation/anniversary gift, DH got me a wii! I want to get the Wii Fit just for fun (I know it will take me some serious cardio to get the majority of the weight off, but the Wii will be good for “break” days or when I just want to get off the couch and move (I do have those moments, and usually I end up staying on the couch for lack of ideas).
That’s my update for now. I’ll post again later this week, hopefully with good news!
Edit: I almost forgot to post what I’m grateful for today! Though it is the obvious - today I am grateful to have my husband home safe. It puts things in perspective.
Posted on July 27th, 2010 by srosa
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Well, I got tired of waiting for the weather to be nice for c25k, so I’m doing Insanity in the meantime. I’m almost done with the first week, and it’s KICKING MY BUTT! But I always feel absolutely GREAT after the workouts, which is an unexpected perk. Usually after I kill myself working out I just want to curl up and not move. I’m sore as hell but it’s worth it to feel like I’m really getting the maximum workout in. I HAVE NOT given up on c25k but the weather is not getting nicer any time soon and I couldn’t keep sitting around on my butt. I feel like my eating habits really have changed for the better, and while I do have my miserable days where I just want to eat and eat and eat, for the most part I am eating healthy and relatively normal (as opposed to non-stop). Yesterday I was really REALLY craving dominos so I treated myself to subway instead. Still more calories than I would have liked but definitely the lesser of two evils. I love subway, I wish they would deliver.
Graduation announcements are sent out, graduation is on the horizon, and I am ready for summer!
Posted on May 24th, 2010 by srosa
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…because I’ve been absolutely DROWNING in homework lately. Things have been crazy intense with school, and I’m just trying to get through day by day. I’m still figuring out this whole eating healthy thing (without the comfort zone of pre-set meals) and I’m getting it down, slowly but surely. Unfortunately working out has been put on the back burner while I attempt to stay afloat at school, but I’m going to try to change that as well. I was doing really well there for awhile with the exercising, I want to get back to that place. One step at a time! This weekend should be lighter homework wise so I plan on heading to the track and going for a jog. I really like running on a track as opposed to the sidewalks in my neighborhood, so I think I’m going to stick to running on the track and just walking around my neighborhood. I am SO impatient for nice weather to get here so I can take my dog for daily walks. It’s still sporadic but we’ll give it a go this weekend. I had to take her to the kennel for a weekend and I think they fed her too much, because she put on some weight there, despite all her extra activities (community play, group walks and such).
Soooo that’s what’s up! I need to go to the grocery store but I’m really dreading it. I can’t seem to resist the cheez its these days, no matter how much I resist all my other bad foods. Somehow the Cheez-its win every time.
Posted on May 3rd, 2010 by srosa
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