Someone kick me in the pants! July 4, 2012
So….. Since I’ve been slacking I have gained 3 pounds,yup….. 208. When I stepped on the scale after family cabin weekend,the scale read 213! Holy crap! Thankfully that went down to 208 by the next day,and has stayed there. Why WHY????????? Do I do this. This is my biggest downslide since starting this all in September. I also think my downslide into purging again has caused this gain. Viscious cycle! Throwing up has never ever been productive…. EVER! It always leads me to weight gain not loss. It slows my metabolism,and when I do not throw up after having done so periodically,my body holds on to every single calorie and fat gram it can. If I know All this… Why do I still do it? I had to fight hard not to do it today.i have eaten exceptionally healthy today. Filled up on a ton of veggies today. But….. I’m full so I want to get rid of the food! Argh! I need to smarten up!