Going to Lose: My Weightloss Journey!

weighed in today, officially…199.6 up .4 from last week, but still in onderland. goal for next week is 197.something ideally.  we’ll see what happens once i start c25k and all of that…

right now im writing a paper, so life and everything is stressful, which means i cant go to the gym until tomorrow once i turn in my paper…ugh

lunch: large salad (200)

snack: small bowl of cereal with some soy milk (220)

total cals so far: 420, appx left: 680

water: 1 down 5 to go, and lots of iced tea

so, I’m really upset that I’m not really going below 199.something, but I’m definitely not going to get there if I dont try and keep putting in the effort.

so, I have to move forward, and try harder. I WANT TO BE THIN AND HAPPY WITH MY BODY! AND I AM GOING TO TRY TO REACH 187 by June 12, even if I have to be more restrictive with my food choices! Food has no control over me!!!

SO here are some things I am going to focus on in the next few weeks and keep to:

breakfast: yogurt or tangerines/fruit

lunch: LARGE Salad with tofu/egg white, lots of veggies, and maybe some fruit but NOTHING ELSE (our chef puts out a great salad bar for lunch, so there is NO EXCUSE to eat anything worse)

snack: fruit and coffee!

dinner: salad and protein NO Carbs NO dessert (except for fruit!!)

snack: fruit/veggies or some protein, but NO CARBS!

this might seem restrictive, but I really want to get solidly into the 180s by mid june, which is at this point, highly unlikely,but I can try.

Also, instead of having one cheat day per weekend, I only get ONE CHEAT MEAL now, which will probably be saturday dinner, all other meals will have to be on plan. ie lunch-big salads, or egg white omeletes, no carbs, and the snacks will still have to be fruit, veggies or protein

gym: restart c25k 3 days a week, other cardio 2 days a week… and weight training 5 days a week

Also, another huge this is that I tend to fully slack off on the weekends. From now on I am going to continue to blog all of my meals on the weekend AND do unofficial weigh ins saturday, sunday and monday, whcih i havent done in the past, due to not eating well on the weekends.

No excuses. Bad food or carelessness is not an option.

if im at 200 tomorrow (who knows where ill be), and i lose 2 lbs a week from her on out until June 12 which is 5 weeks away, then i can be 190. my realistic goal will be 190 and my reach goal will be 187…

how did i let this happen!? ok..i can do this…! if i dont blog one day, especially on the weekend, feel free to yell at me and make me blog! you all are amazing, inspirational and i love your support.

xox

travelgal

I put a significant amount of time and effort going to the gym almost everyday of the week, and I keep yo-yoing between 199.something and 200.something. this is getting really frustrating considering I often get up early, or change my schedule in some way to get to the gym 5 out of 7 days in the week, and I cant seem to go below 199…im tempted to not even go to the gym the rest of this week because im really tired and have a lot to do, and havent seen any results, especially considering that I have been eating pretty well all well and still eaten almost no white carbs and no cheese.  im definitely not going to make my goal for tomorrow…so what’s the point…i dont know what more I can do…i eat uner 1300 and often under 1200 calories per day, I drink 144 ounces of water at least per day, and I do 45 min of cardio and 45 min weights and abs 5 times a week. if that doesnt work, i really cant devote any more time or energy to this, so why am I trying…?

SO frustrated right now..

arghh i just feel so defeated right now…i feel like ive been trying so hard, and I’m just not getting any results…i looked back at some old stuff in my blog and 1) i cant believe i was 188 in october and was frustrated at that… and now its fricking may and im 199/200 and frustrated at THAT. im scared that in a few weeks im going to be at 210 or 220 or something and look back and wish i was at 200! why is this SO hard?!

also, i was re-readiny my blog from this summer and even though I wasn’t always losing weight every week, i realize that it was SO much easier when I was buying and preparing all of my own food! i think I got a lot more out of my calories than I do now because I was snacking all the time but eating really healthy and protein rich foods.  and, i wont be in that position again until september-december when I will be buying and cooking my own foods. so what do i do from now-june while im still in school, and what do i do from june-september when I’m traveling all summer?! i need to those this weight, and I’m so sad that ive gotten to this point where i gained 16+ lbs since august.. I was in such good spirits when I was losing weight this summer, but i wont be in a position to buy and cook my own food until September, so How can i lose weight in the next 4 months?

help me please, im desperate…

i just wish i was still at 184 or even 187…not friggin 199/200. so sad..

i dont know why, but the scale showed a good number today.  for some reason i do keep seesawing from onderland to the low 200s so im hoping to break that on friday by having SOME # below 199.something.

this morning i got up early to go to the gym since I have a busy day today, and i dint hve time for a “full” workout but I figured something is better than nothing.  i have to really keep tabs on food and snacking today so that hopefully i can see a better number tomorrow! and an even BETTER # on Friday!

breakfast: yogurt (80)

lunch: large salad (150), 1 chicken breast (100), and some brown rice (135)- 385

snack: a chocolate almond cluster (95) and some sesame sticks (120)- 215

dinner: salad (65), some ground turkey (180), some ravioli (had i realized they had cheese in them before, i wouldnt have eaten them) (140), 1 cookie (110?) - 495

calories:  1175–>shoot, i went over…ughh i need to get back on track but im so tired this week and have so much work…ARGH!

water: 5 down 1 to go

workout: 20 min rowing machine, 20 min spinning bike, 10 min abs.

i did not like my unofficial weigh in today.  my goal for friday is still 197. I guess we’ll see if I can make that… hopefully the no cheese thing along with the watching carbs will really help.. fingers crossed.

breakfast: yogurt (80)

lunch: large salad with tofu, balsamic, sauted mushrooms, some turkey and a tiny bit of pasta ( 400?) (im trying to over estimate my calories so that I dont go over by 1100 cals, especially since i have to approximate everything)

Snack: coffee with some soy milk (20)

dinner: salad with balsamic (50), some green beans (60), small piece of beef, but i didnt really like it (110), 3 roasted potatoes (70), some grilled tofu (75), 4 mini eclairs (EEEEEKKK I KNOW! but instead of ignoring them, which i could do, im counting them and acknowledging that I ate them and they were DELICIOUS!) (170)- total: 535

Snack: coffee with some non-fat milk (20)

cals so far: 1055; appx left: 45–>oops those eclairs did me in.  I’ll probably have some coffee tonight and thats it since there isnt really any other good fruit in my house right now…i wish we had some apples or tangerines…hopefully i can just drink water and tea and not think to much about food, since i dont really have any calories left…fingers crossed! let’s go self control!

water: 6 down 0 to go

workout: 45 min elliptical 45 min weights and abs! woohoo!

ugh i snacked tonight def more than i should have..im going to see that tomorrow on the scale…damn…ughh i hate that i do work at night and cant just go to sleep. tomorrow im going to try to brush my teeth at 8. we’ll see if that helps…

i’ve decided (obviously) that it’s really important for me to reach 187 by June 12, the Friday before my graduation.

therefore, not only have I decided to severly limit all carbs (especially white carbs) but I also WILL NOT EAT ANY cheese until I reach 187. That means no cream cheese, no cheddar, no mozarella, no grilled cheeses, no cheese in pasta etc etc.

so, the two food guidelines I am keeping in mind is severely, limiting white carbs and eating VERY small portions of them, and not eating ANY cheese in ANY food, on ANY day, for any occasion, until I reach 187. and yes that obviously means no pizza, no lasagna, no cheese in sandwiches, no nachos, no quesadillas etc etc.  i think i can do this. i may fail, but I will at least try.

lunch: thai chicken noodle salad (500?)

snack: coffee with a splash of nf milk (25)

dinner: chicken breast (120), small mix of rice, tofu and mushrooms (250?), some salad and balsamic (60), and a quarter of a cranberry bar (75)-total: 505

snack: some gouda and 2 whole wheat cracker (last cheese until 187!!!!!) (100?) and some coffee with nf milk (15)-115

i also had a mango

total cals:1300–>too much..i have to be more cautious and careful tomorrow!

water: 6+ finished!

gym workout: 45 min elliptical, 50 min weights and abs

brunch: 3 egg white scramble with spinach, mushrooms and tofu

snack: coffee boba and a pear

dinner: some kombucha, some chicken tortilla soup and tofu from whole foods

no gym today…went 5 days last week.. ive realized thats now my goal…to go to the gym 5 days out of every 7…i think that’s reasonable

must drink more water today

food was fine today..didnt really track it..

I did go to the gym…45 min elliptical , 50 min weights and abs.

back on complete track tomorrow

onederland today! woot woot!

199.2!!! Think im going to victoria secret tonight!

lunch: not much, a little bit of tofu, some egg whites, i was rushing…

snack: ugh i had 2 pretzel rolls because of the unplanned/rushed lunch..LAME bad me…

ok off to work and then the gym!

vic sec tonight if i have time!