went on the date yesterday. it was good. the guy really likes me. im not sure how much i really like him. we have a lot in common and have a lot to talk about…but i need a guy who offers push back, challenges my opinions and has a great deal of ambition..not sure if this is it. not sure if i should go on the 2nd date or not. he tried to ask me out this weekend, but i white lied and said i was busy…im busy, but not the WHOLE weekend. he has a mediocre job, and still lives at home…im superficial, i know, and those things are not SUPER appealing to me…
still been talking to the other guy but i may end up seeing him in march…
i ate pretty well last week and weekend, and then blew it last night and today once i realized i wasnt super enamored with the guy on the date… but definitely not a good reason to blow my self control..
back onto full food plan and gym tomorrow.
advice on guys?
thanks!
also (originally written in my private journal):
i did not realize that not knowing what i want would lead to so many problems.
also, how much superficiality is valid? how much can you fault people for certain things?
