ugh this is just not what i need in my life right now…i gained what appears to be 3 lbs this week…i dont even know how that’s possible considering i went to the gym 4 days in a row for the first time in aa long time. i thought I was paying attention to my food.
I am nowhere near 189 anymore, and I’m pretty close to just giving up and working on maintaining a size 14 and just getting back to 180s (SOMEHOW!) and just leaving it for a while, because this is stupid and discouraging. i feel like I was doing everything i should this week (except for obvious food mess ups here and there), but that definitely shouldnt have gained me 3 lbs so I dont even know what’s going on, but I’m bored of trying to lose weight and not have it working. now, i just want to be back at 187 where I had lost 40 lbs and maybe I’ll stop there until i’m out of school or something, because this is getting tiring and emotionally draining…I’ll be lucky if the scale ever moves down/if i dont hit the 200s next week. ugh, i honestly think i’m over this, especially when there are no payoffs..
