Going to Lose: My Weightloss Journey!

weight at the beginning of this week (monday): 197.2

weight today (Thursday): 195 (-2.2)

So the weigh in today was quite good and I’m pleased because I lost basically 2 pounds in three days which I’m happy with.  However, I faced a huge challenge last night, where I semi-sabotaged myself.  I got back from the gym and had a healthy snack of yogurt and cereal which was perfect. and I drank all of my water. then i had some pretzels and cream cheese, and some noodles and tofu, and some chips and cheese…obviously i didnt need any of that, and clearly I still am not immune to temptation…definitely something to work on.

I feel like in a way I need, not a cheat day, but an allowed higher calorie day, to allow for a few treats etc, so i think that day will be thursday or friday, whatever day I weigh in since I have about a week from there till the next weigh in.  so maybe most days my calories will be about 1100-1200, and on Weigh in Day I get about 1300-1400.

I’m going home this weekend, and I’m very excited. hopefully i can focus on schoolwork, eating well, and seeing my family.

today:

breakfast: yogurt (35), a few nuts (85), cream cheese (100), and 1/2 bagel (125)- 345

Lunch: some salad (100), some rice (130) and tofu (60), and about 1/2 cup of ice cream (110)- 400

Snack: some chips and salsa (140)

total so far: 885–>man, its a high calorie day. i should have been more careful, need to make note to REALLY watch out this weekend and next week too. id love to be in the low 190s for the next weigh in

the scale was once again very nice to me this morning! clearly, proper eating, great self control, and exercise helps me lose weight—shocking.

I’m hoping for great # on the scale tomorrow so I can get closer to my 40lb loss at 187.  its funny that im mad i even let myself get back into the 190s, but it still feels great to continue losing weight.  Soon I hope to be at a point where I’m reaching new weights that I hadnt reached before, but I’ve got to fix my mistakes and get into the 180s before I can see new #! Still, I’m positive, in control, motivated and feel completely back on track.

Breakfast: yogurt (35), baby bell cheese (70), and 3/4 kup of kashi heart to heart (110), and tea (0)- 215

lunch: rice (105), teriyaki chicken (125), some tofu and veggies (70)- 300

snack: red bull (10)

dinner: some salad with some dressing (65), some edemame (80?), small bit of noodles (plain)  (130), turkey sausage (110), tiny bit of blueberry cake (60)- 445

snack: one yogurt (80), and less than 1/4 cup of heart to heart (20)-100

total so far: 1070–>DONE

water: 5 24 oz bottle, 1 left.–>ahh ill be peeing tonight

gym: 46 min elliptical, 30 min weights and ab… im so lucky i have a gym buddy–i was so close to not going to the gym tonight when my friend comes waltzing into my room and knocking on my room to go to the gym…thank goodness! im lucky to have him!

weigh in tomorrow, hoping for the best!

Well, i stayed on track yesterday and the scale was very nice to me this morning! so onwards towards another day of perfection!

I woke up this morning and was happy about the scale and then I had to deal with some frustration (i’m trying to buy some tickets for spring break and everything is being frustrating), and I realized that my first instinct was to run to the kitchen and get a bagel and cream cheese or something but then I stopped and thought! NO! dont ruin your on track good eating plan because you are upset about flight reservations.  a) they arent AT ALL correlated and b) i want to be skinnier on spring break ahah, so i drank my yogurt and tea and figured F U flights, I’ll figure them out when they are right for me an wont eat my frustration/anger since surprisingly, that doesnt actually help anything…

So yesterday’s, planning, self control and gym time worked for me! so we’re going to aim for that again!

Intake:

breakfast: yogurt (35) and tea (0)

lunch: salad (105ish), small amount of white rice and tofu/veggies (150), 2 strawberries and some grapes (40)-total: 295

Snack: coffee with nf milk (35), fuji apple (80)-115

dinner: some spinach with lf dressing (60), 1.5 steamed red potatos (80), chicken parmeasean (385?), and teeny tiny bite of carrot cake just for the taste (35?)- 560

Snack: 1 turkey slice (30) and a pear (95)..really are pears that high cal? is it the sugar?-125

total so far: 1130–>done

Water: 6 24oz bottles of water drunk/drinken?–>Done!

gym tonight!

I’m really proud of myself today.  At work someone had brought in a huge tray of gourment pastries, eclairs, cream puffs etc and I was working right next to them and could smell their sugary sweetness and I didnt even have ONE BITE, I just faced them and said NO you are NOT going to ruin my perfect day.  And carrot cake with cream cheese frosting is one of my favorite things ever, and i had one little bite and i contemplated getting more, but I said no! one bite was a treat, dont ruin it! My self control is in overdrive and I LOVE IT! this is a great day!

workout: 48 min elliptical, 10 min abs. now i cant decide on an aftergym snack…le sigh

I didnt do as much weight training as I had planned, but otherwise, a pretty damn near perfect day! WOOHOO!

breakfast: tea (0) and a yogurt (80)

snack: coffee with some nf milk (35?)

lunch: chicken cesar (285)

snack: apple (75), 1 handful of popcorn (30)-105

Dinner: veggie burger (100), some spinach salad with light dressing (65), some mashed potatoes (200), and one small piece of bread (105?)-470

snack: skinny cow fudge bar (100), 10 gold fish (25)

total so far: 1100–>done

water intake: so far 6 24oz bottles–>DONE

full gym workout tonight.
Workout: 46 min elliptical, 40 min weights and abs!!!

def on track for a perfect day. just have to watch the dinner intake and curb any and all snacking tonight.

after gym snack: apple (75) and something for between 40-60 calories, have to see what is in the kitchen

Man, it feels good to be on track and back in the game! I’m aiming for a perfect week!

I feel really happy and on the ball for staying completely on plan/track today. My main goal is to have a completely perfect week.  Tomorrow will be tough because chicken parmeasean is on the menu, but I built it into my plan…the main thing will be to have complete portion control and no snacking.  gym and water intake was on point today! woohoo!

back tomorrow and hoping for perfection!

So ever since about mid-august, I’ve become flakey and irresponsible with my weight loss, which only hurts me.  and it frustrates me a ton.  Something that has really helped me since January is that I’ve gained a gym buddy and have been going to the gym a bunch more than I did last quarter, and I go between 4-5 days a week for long workouts (cardio and weights and abs).

The most important thing that I really need to concentrate on is food, both portion control and choices.  I did okay with that today, and my body and mind actually feels better about it.  I also did a really good job at drinking water and my goal will always be to drink at least 6 24oz bottles of water a day.

I am still deciding if my weigh in day should be Friday or Saturday, but at this point I’ll leave it at Friday.

Here are my upcoming mini goals:

I’d like to first reach 187 ASAP.

After I reach 187 I’d like to slowly but surely reach 177- To reach a 50 lb loss.

Ideally in a perfect world I’d like to fit in my new and never worn size 12 jeans by March 18, but I think that might not happen, but that would be amazing,because then I would be a size 12 for spring break.

i feel like going to the gym consistently has REALLY refocused me, so I’m hoping to reach 187 SOON. I dont know what I weigh right now, but I think I may weigh myself tomorrow morning–if not by Tuesday am, and then Thursday will be the official weigh in day for this week because I wont be at school Friday and I would like to stay scale consistent.

YAY! back tomorrow! and yay for focus!

before gym: yogurt drink (35)

after gym: iced sk vanilla latte (80), soup (200), some brie and pretzels (200ish?), bite size baby ruth (50)-total: 530

Snack: cupcake (350?) (it was rich), some whole wheat crackers (140), 1 piece of cheese (110), and 1 apple (70)- 670

total so far today: 1235-DONE

Gym workout today (first thing I did after I woke up!): 46 min elliptical, 30min weights and abs.

goal (drink 6 24oz bottles of water today)-so far: 6 down! DONE: 144 ounces of water consumed today! hooray!

feels like a good day!!

brunch: tiny bit of scrambeled eggs, one piece of ww toast, some roasted potatoes, and one mini twix bar

snack: 100 cal bag of popcorn and 1/2 smirnoff ice

dinner: some lasagna, small bit of cesar salad, 1 cookie

booo it’s rainy here–that’s lame

breakfast: one yogurt (35), some heart to heart and nf milk

lunch: 2 pieces of pizza and some grapes (in all honesty, I really could have done with just one piece, so, lameo for me..)

snack: nf latte

dinner: cheese enchiladas and rice

snack: cottage cheese and a small bit of brie and pretzels

BAH too much cheese and carbs today, not enough protein and veggies,w ill focus on that tom.

workout: 52 min cardio (treadmill, started jogging again), 15 mi abs

While I am getting a little disenchanted about this whole process since im not losing tons of weight, i’ve also obviously realized that I dont want to GAIN weight.  So, my goal at this point in time is to go to the gym 5-6 times a week, watch what I eat and blog about EVERYTHING that goes into my mouth, think about what I eat etc, and my Mini Goal at this point is to re-reach 187, so i can be at a full 40lb loss. once i get to there, I’ll assess what’s next. Ideally on a seperate note, I have a size goal that i’d like to reach by spring break, but I’m not even going to mention that until I reach 187.

also, I watched the first episode of this seaons biggest loser, which obviously made me want to get on the weightloss train…so here I am.

I’ll be back tomorrow, writing down every morsel I eat and going to the gym tomorrow night.

tata. thanks for your support as always, everyone!

ugh this is just not what i need in my life right now…i gained what appears to be 3 lbs this week…i dont even know how that’s possible considering i went to the gym 4 days in a  row for the first time in aa  long time.  i thought I was paying attention to my food.

I am nowhere near 189 anymore, and I’m pretty close to just giving up and working on maintaining a size 14 and just getting back to 180s (SOMEHOW!) and just leaving it for a while, because this is stupid and discouraging. i feel like I was doing everything i should this week (except for obvious food mess ups here and there), but that definitely shouldnt have gained me 3 lbs so I dont even know what’s going on, but I’m bored of trying to lose weight and not have it working. now, i just want to be back at 187 where I had lost 40 lbs and maybe I’ll stop there until i’m out of school or something, because this is getting tiring and emotionally draining…I’ll be lucky if the scale ever moves down/if i dont hit the 200s next week. ugh, i honestly think i’m over this, especially when there are no payoffs..