as much as I am happy that im posting again, i’m still doing something very wrong. I have no self control. i have GREAT self control until dinner time, and then from dinner time onward I eat not the best dinner and then munch and snack on so much food throughout the evening, it’s getting out of control. ugh.  tomorrow when I weigh in, I’m pretty sure I will have gained 3 lbs from last weeks weigh in, as I edge closer and closer back up towards 190, which is really scary.  I really wanted to be at 186 tomorrow, which definitely wont be happening.

so, today, I’m going to try to do what SistahPat sometimes does, and tries to do a “perfect day”.  Well, already my day wasnt perfect because I barely got 5 hours of sleep and i’m TIRED, but my goal is to get 8 hours tonight, and I should still focus on other things to have a perfect day.

So today, I’m going to only eat the food I plan out, and try not to eat more than 1200-1300 calories. that also includes only having one planned healthy snack after lunch and one small snack after dinner, not constant grazing until bedtime.  it also includes lots and lots of water consumption.  it also includes a full weights and abs and cardio workout.  and NO SNACKING, especially no chocolate, chips, massive amounts of carbs etc etc. ugh, i cannot get into the 190s. i must get back to the the low 180s and then out of here.

I can do this! I cant slip away. i cant believe i gained 3 lbs this week. that’s offensive. I have to start reversing that RIGHT now and cant let the end of the week and weekend be gaining times, I’ve got to work on losing consistently, or it’ll get out of control.

Breakfast: sf redbull (10), and yogurt (100)-110

lunch: big salad (130), tomato soup (120?) and a couple bites of ravioli (60)- 310

snack: apple (70)

Dinner: some salad (200), small piece of chicken (110), some whole wheat pasta (300), some chocolate cakes (100)-710

Snack: some pretzels (80) and a few other munchies (30)-110

Total: 1310

yayyyay !

no gym today, but a full gym workout tomorrow!!