well, whatever I had earlier this year, that helped me lose 40 lbs, well i lost it. i have no self control whatsoever.  now i have 4 pairs of size 12 pants that i cant fit into, and im still eating everything as if im skinny and have the metabolism of a gazelle.

i dont even know what i’m going to do. im dissapointed in myself, but that hasnt kept me from eating all of this junk and munching so much at night.

i need a new ah-ha moment..