Going to Lose: My Weightloss Journey!

Lots of school work, work work, and gym today, but Overall a full day!

Breakfast: 5 almonds (43)

Lunch: vegetable sushi (410)

Snack: 3 tootsie rolls (70), caramel (32) now and later (28)- 130

Snack: rice cake (30), turkey (50) -80

Dinner: salad (180), brown rice (115), Less than 1/2 a chicken breast (45), tofu w/ veggies (135), froyo sundae (210)-685

Snack: 1/4 cup kgl (35), 1 apple (35)-70

Total cals today: 1418 ; appx left: 182 max

Rest of the day: Snack (about 200ish)

Gym: 33 elliptical, 20 min treadmill, 1 hr weights and abs

now i’m at the library. booo.

i weighed in at 196.6 this week which was great, especially after last week’s weigh in! I’m really hoping/aiming for 195 this
week, and I think I should be able to achieve it if I stay on track with food and gym. yay!

breakfast: 1/2 a banana (55)

Lunch: Cesar Salad (425)

Snack: rice cake (30), turkey (25), apple (35)-90

Dinner: a bunch of little brazlian appetizers (no clue on calories (600?)

Snack: Smoothy (200) and some other munchies (250?)

1620ish, maybe more. who knows…i think i ate pretty well but too tired to estimate.

Gym: 40 min elliptical, 45 min weights and abs

I’ve been thinking a lot recently about various aspect of weight loss, food, body image, life, etc.  I have a lot of things to say, but in no order, so i kind of think I’ll just list them.

*I gave up diet sodas cold turkey the day I decided to start seriously losing weight.  It has by far been the easiest thing in the world for me to give up.  I NEVER crave soda. I never drink it.  I never want to drink it.  I tried some today cuz I wanted caffeine, and really I couldnt drink it, I would rather have coffee.  I will once and a while drink soda with alcohol as it’s lower cal then juice etc, but I love that I know longer drink soda. I also love that in all seriousness, I am absolutely addicted to water.  Almost obsessively, but still it’s been the absolutely easiest thing for me to give up.  And I’m glad i did.

* While this weight loss journey is definitely an enormous daily and lifetime struggle, I sometimes get this feeling (and I’m not saying it’s justified haha), but kind of this calmness over me, where I know that I WILL lose this weight, not even a feeling that I can, but a feeling that I know, at some point in the near future, I WILL get there, whether it takes a couple months or a year.  I also feel like I will reach my goal weight within the coming year.

*I think I can highly increase my weight loss this summer because I will be cooking for myself and have so much mroe time to dedicate to getting on the healthier track and also exercising more etc.  I may also get a personal trainer 2x-3x per week for the summer, since I’ll have the time.

*I don’t have this feeling of uncertainty or a lack of clarity about this process.  There is no chance that I will entirely fall of this wagon and go back to where I started.  It’s just not something that will happen. Sure I might fall off the wagon one day, or  not track my calories but that’s expected.  Eating well and going to the gym has become a lifestyle (and a healthy/happy obsession!).  I’m glad to be obsessed with it.

*Some people dont like working out, going to the gym, etc etc. I LOVE GOING TO THE GYM SO MUCH! I was sad that I couldnt go today, but I knew I was too tired. I also love spandex and workout clothes.  A lot. I also love my new ipod and workout mixes.  I also really like being gross and sweaty after the gym.

*Big news! Now that I know I can do this, it’s time to set some bigger goals.  Longer-term goals.  I very well might not reach them by the intended dates, but it doesn’t hurt to try, and to put these goals out there.

So, I’m having a weigh in tomorrow, and I’m hoping that by June 12 (next week) I officially weigh 195.

Then, I have a rather lofty summer goal, but I really think I should be able to achieve it because I have a) the time to do great and more thorough workouts and b) I can really pay attention to my food and cook precisely and healthily.

So from June 12-September 18 (the Thursday before school starts), which will be a total of 14 weeks, I want to lose 2 lbs per week which would be a total of 28 lbs.  Therefore, on September 18, my ideal weigh-in (assuming I hit 195 next week, so this can all change), would be 167 lbs.

Then from September 18 to December 11 is my next weight loss period, which is the Thursday before school until the Thursday before Winter Break. That is a total of 12 weeks.  Being realistic, and looking at my in-school weight loss pattern, I’m not sure that I can lose 2 lbs per week during the year, so I’m gonna put my goal at 1.5 lbs per week.  So if I could lose an average of 1.5 lbs for those 12 weeks that would put me at an 18 lbs loss which would be put me at 149.

Then I am going to be taking a “break” from December 11 to January 6, which is winter Vacation.  That doesn’t mean I wont be staying on track and working out, but it does mean that I just want to enjoy my Winter Break and definitely maintain whatever loss I have, but with less pressure.  Of course, if I lose, I wont be complaining, and I’ll absolutely be trying to stay on track.

Then staring, January 6, when I am back at school, I will be entirely back on track with the ideal 1.5 lb loss per week.  So with the first weigh in being on January 15 my next goal period will be until March 20, the last day of school in the winter quarter.  So January 8-March 19 is 10 weeks.  So 10 weeks at 1.5 would put me at a 15 lb loss which would ideally 134, which puts me 7 lbs away from goal!

So then Spring Break will be another “break” weight loss period.

Then starting March 31, I will be back on track/plan and I can use Spring Quarter to get myself to GOAL: 127. So from April 2 to June 11 is 10 weeks.  So because these goals will never be met exactly with each date, this last quarter has some leeway for catch up etc.  So my final goal is to weigh 127 on Thursday June 11, a few days before the graduation from my Master’s Program, my birthday, and basically exactly a year from where we are today.  So, the simplified goal plan looks like this:

June 12-195
September 18- 167
December 11-149
March 19-134
June 11-127

I know that this looks highly ambitious, but I figure it doesn’t hurt.  Best case scenario, I make these awesome goals. Worst case, I don’t make them, and I just keep trucking. But it’s always nice to have sometime to look forward to.  Also, on a smaller term goal, when I reach 187 I’m buying a new pair of nike workout pants! I’m in love with them.

Alright, that was so much babbling. Now I’m tired and ready for bed.  If you actually read to the bottom of this, you’re awesome. And I truly appreciate the support!

yeahhh im out of it, cuz i didnt get much sleep last night. how many hours you ask? 8? HAH? 6? I WISH!….3? Closer, I SLEPT NO Hours last night cuz I was finishing a presentation for a class. The plus side of it was that I already gave it this morning and got an A/A+. the bad news is that im exhausted. ugh. at least I can get a good night’s sleep tonight.

breakfast: 1 banana (110) and one fiber 1 bar (150)-260

Lunch: small bit of cesar salad (65), some shredded chicken breast (70), potatoes (55), tofu with veggies and cashews (210), watermelon (10), milk (30), broccoli (20)- 460

Snack: Veggie Chips (110)

Well, I fell asleep in the afternoon and slept through dinner. Sadness. So now, I’m scrounging, so my dinner and snacks are mixed. I’m probably going back to bed soon anyways. Great….

Dinner: 1 soup (90), sf oatmeal (100), 1 yogurt (70), 1 apple (35) and turkey (25), sbd oatmeal chocolate chip cookies (which i cant find in the stores anymore!!! ) (100)- 420

Total cals so far: 1250 ; appx left: 150-350 max

Dont think I’ll make it to the gym today. I’m just so tired. I dont think it would be beneficial. at all. nap time

Yay! today is my last day of my history class! I’m tired and in a grumpy mood cuz I’ve been up working on a presentation for it, but it’s my last session of this class, so I just have to push through!!!!

(woke up at lunch time)

Lunch: 2 slices light ww bread (80), some turkey (60), 1.3 slices of thin cheddar (i know i know, but i need cheese on a sandwhich) (~115ish), ketchup (30), grilled broccoli (30), watermelon (20), 1 egg white (17), small salad (50), nf milk in my coffee (25), some nf froyo with some crushed cookie and sprinkles (100)-lunch total: 527

pre-gym snack: 1 rice cake (30), turkey (50), 1 apple (35)-115

Dinner: green beans (75ish), scramble with egg whites (85ish), brown rice (160), tofu (90), mushrooms and spinach (25) and some soy sauce (25), some watermelon (45), and a few bites of my friend’s pasta (50ish?), and some milk in my coffee (25), about 1/2 cup of a mix of cereals (65?)-total: 645

Snacks: Cottage cheese (60), 1/2 sbd snack bar (50), strawberries (40), a bit of cereal (35), 1 piece dark chocolate (25)-total: 205

Total cals so far: 1497; appx left: 103 max

Workout: Elliptical for 53 min and 10 min ab work out. I’ve been super busy all day and haven’t really check in on the news much, and while I was at the gym, CNN was on the tvs, and I plugged in my headphones to listen, and when I heard the fact that Obama has won (more or less) the Democratic Nomination is thrilling and SO exciting. I really enjoyed Hillary’s speech and honestly wouldn’t mind her as a VP. I couldn’t stop watching the news which is why my elliptical was 53 min instead of 33 minutes. I’m pretty sad and disgusted about a lot of things in our government, our president (or lack thereof), the war, women’s and gay rights and I’m just so relieved that a change will (fingers crossed!) actually be coming. Anyways, enough politics, but that really was such good news at the gym! It really pumped me up!

its 10:20 am, and i’m already tired….ahhh school is over so soon, but I have to push through!

Breakfast: 1 sf redbull (10), 1/2 banana (55), 1 yogurt (70)-135

Lunch: Brown rice (125), tofu (130), soy sauce (30), egg white (17), some steamed green beans (30), watermelon (5)-337

Snack: pudding cup (60), 1 rice cake (30), turkey (50), and an apple (35)-175

Dinner: 1 Chicken Marsala Breast (175), brown rice (120), tofu (80), 1 egg white (17), salad (120)- 512

Snack: grande skinny vanilla latte light ice (120), 1/2 cup of cherries (45), 1/2 bag of 100 cal popcorn (50), 1/4 cup of lf  cottage cheese (40)- 255 (so far)

Total calories so far: 1414 ; appx calories left: 186 (max!)

Workout: 33 min on elliptical, 20 min treadmill, 45 min weights and abs..excellent workout.

The formal last night was SO fun. We ate at a tapas place beforehand, and it was SO good, and the sangria was great, and it was a huge group of 11 of us, and overall it was just SUPER fun. the formal was great and a ton of fun. my dress looked really nice, and my heels were bearable, i didnt fall or trip and i was pretty stoked that I managed heels for the night and only ended up with one blister.

anyways, formal was great, but Now I have to get back on track, and do a ton of school work etc, as I only have two weeks of school left and 2 presentations and 2 papers to get through! i’m going to try to get some of this work done quickly and efficiently so that I can head to the gym later on today.

brunch: egg white, spinach, mushroom cheese omelete (220?), 1 piece of whole wheat bread (90), with some cream cheese (50), 1/2 grape fruit (52), 1 piece of watermelon (5), cottage cheese (80), some apple sauce (45), some strawberries in syrup (35), some nf milk in my coffee (30)-brunch total: 607

Snack: Wheat thins (80), peanut butter (90), 1 green apple (35)-205

dinner: some cherry pecan salad (135ish?), rice pilaf (210), some chicken and tofu stirfry (220), 1 mexican wedding cookie (60): 625

Snack: 100 cal bag of popcorn (100), 2 pieces of turkey (17), some cottage cheese (40), 1 piece of dark chocolate (25)- 182

total cals so far: 1619-DONE

No workout today.

I’m really interested in the goal that M3at49 and some others have to lose 10 lbs in 1 month. I actually think it’s something that I am really going to focus on once school ends and I am living in my own apartment and cooking and buying my own food so that I can really focus on that goal. But I have decided to try from now until school ends which is basically the 12 of June to eat only whole grains as much as possible (and in limited quantities) and eat no cheese. –>the no cheese thing will be hard, but we’ll see how it goes. even if i can reduce cheese, that’d be great.