24 May, 2008
failure friday, but im not gonna beat myself up about it
Posted by: travelgal In: General
today was a not so good day. food and exercise wise. you can see my food below. while I ate more than I had intended to, when i actually calculated it, it was less than I thought, which is positive. while my eating overall was not in any way good or stellar, i made some good choices on the individual level. for example: i really wanted a bagel. so i got one, with light cream cheese, and then threw away the other half, because i knew 1/2 was enough. or, i really wanted to eating some carbs after dinner, something saltyish etc, and i went for a smart ones mac and cheese instead of heading to the drive through. obviously, in retrospect, I know I didnt need the bagel or the mac and cheese, but i still made better choices than I could have.
i also didnt go to the gym today, but the next few weeks are going to be rough, because school is ending and i have a ton of work, papers, projects, etc. I’m really going to try to go tomorrow, but we’ll see what happens. i’m planning on playing squash on sunday, but i may try to hit the gym as well, since i think ill have some time.
so, ive decided, ill let today be my big oops off track day. so i kind of fell of the wagon. but m3at9 has made me really see that this is truly a journey, and i have to stop berating myself so much, and actually just be supportive of myself. i think if im more loving of myself and my progress in general, maybe everything will really fall into place. sure i make mistakes, even whole days can be mistakes. but the true accomplishment is to get back on the right track the next day, and to not just give up and ruin everything. i’m SO close to losing 30 lbs! my ipod will be arrive on Wednesday and my formal is on saturday and I have an awesome dress. I think if instead of yelling at myself, I motivate myself more positively, I may see better results. So, starting tomorrow, saturday, i’m getting back on track. I’m going to really watch my food and my carbs. I’m going to try to finish my work early in the day so that I can really try/attempt to head to the gym in the afternoon (even if it’s for a shorter workout.) I CAN DO THIS and I WILL DO THIS. i’m not stopping at 29 pounds or at my ipod. I WILL reach my ultimate goal. I WILL keep chugging! I will have oops and big trouble days, but I WILL RECOVER. I’m young, motivated, and I WILL achieve this goal. and from this day forward, I’m really going to try to be more positive and encouraging of myself. I’m going to try and keep my motivations and mini goals in mind. I can do this!
this week’s motivations: my ipod is coming on Wednesday and I want to put it on and feel like I truly DESERVE it and my FORMAL is on saturday, and I want to look and feel great and be confident in my lovely black cocktail dress and heals. my dress is a size 16, a size i havent worn in ages, and I hope that it is way too big in a few months. i can do this!
back tomorrow! thanks all!
bfast: 1/2 banana (55), yogurt (70), cream cheese (45), 1/2 wheat cranberry/blueberry bagel(160)
lunch: spinach salad (270), and some chocolate covered cherries and espresso beans (140?)
dinner: 1 turkey hot dog with ketchup(200), 1 chicken breast (115), some watermelon (20), 1 smart ones mac and cheese (270), some strawberries (20)
snack: skinny vanilla latter (130), frozen yogurt (130), chips and cheese (200)
