Going to Lose: My Weightloss Journey!

breakfast: 1/2 banana (55) and yogurt (70)

Lunch: 6inch turkey on whole wheat with provelone (330)

Workout: 33 min elliptical, 16 min treadmill, 1hr 5 min abs.
Tonight’s my formal and I tried on my dress last night and it was wrinkled so I ran and dropped it off to get it steamed, than went and did my full workout! woohoO! and then I picked it up, got subway, about to shower, go get a mani pedi, and then ill be off for my formal. my food and drink might not be great tonight, but I’ve eaten light all day to make up for that.

Woohoo! Happy Saturday, ALL!

Breakfast: 1/2 banana (55) and yogurt (70)-125

Snack: 1/2 cup of kgl (70)

Lunch: Chicken Cesar (425)

Dinner: (had dinner before the gym, so no pre-gym snack): small carribean passion jamba juice (100), 1 piece of coldstone ice cream cake (300), some chips (130), 1 piece of peperroni mushroom pizza (250): 780

Total Cals so far:1400 ; Appx Left: 200 max

~~Plan for the rest of the day:

Snack: 130-150ish

AND I completed avoided candy from my work today! Minigoal acheived! the trick was to have KGL available to much on. Have to go run some errands now, and then heading to the gym! Yay

Workout: I had an AWESOME workout tonight! 33 min elliptical, 16 min treadmill and I ran a 14:17 mile with NEVER going below 4.1 MPH, i know that a 14 min mile is slow, but I almost always have to stop at somepoint and drop down to somewhere between 3.6-3.8, but this time, I kept going and never went below 4.1 during my mile. I was SO happy. now I know i can run nonstop, now I just have to work on speed and consistency. also did a good 1 hr 30 min of weights and abs to try and make up for the missed workouts this week.  will also be doing a large workout tomorrow before my formal! woohoo!

Hi Friends,

Sorry for the couple of day absence. life and school has been SO hectic and busy and my lame weigh in is to show for it. Yeah my weigh in was not good today, i’m up about 1.2 lbs which is lame. I REALLY need to stay away from getting back into the 200s, and clearly I’m just off track and not going to make any kind of mini goal for formal on Saturday or for my graduation. Maybe I could try to make 195, but that’s assuming my weight will go down. I know I need to be positive, and I’m the only one accountable for my weight and exercise, so I just need to get back on track for these next few weeks, even though life is going to be stressful. Also, I got my ipod and it’s AWESOME, but now I feel lame, because I got it, and my weight is going up. And i’ve only been to the gym once since Tuesday (when i got it) and used it, but it was great. But now I just kind of feel guilty about it, because I worked hard for it, and got it, and then my weight went up. Anyways, I’m going to the gym for the next 3 days (it’s penned in my schedule, so hopefully that will get me back on track). I also realized I really DO need to blog and track my food and calories online, otherwise I become careless, so I’m restarting that right now and really need to continue with it.

OK, I know that I’m busy and that my life is crazy and hectic right now, but I need to stay in control of my food and exercise.

Lunch: 6inch footlong turkey with provelone (330)

Snack: strawberries (40), and work candy (BLAH) 3 tootsie rolls (70), one mini airhead (47) and 1 caramel (32)- 189. ugh this was awful. obvsiouly I need to get control over this candy. Mini goal for tomorrow: not to have ONE piece of candy at work. it makes me mad when i see the cals, that i could have SO many strawberries or cherries in place of thoe stupid candies. ugh. anyways.. my fault.

Dinner: rice noodle stir fry with veggies and tofu (?480?) and some frozen yogurt (120)-600

Snack: 1/2 banana (55) and 1/2 cup of cherries (45)-100

Total Cals Today:1219–>DONE

I didnt make it to the gym because I was So exhausted that I kept falling asleep, so I’m giving myself the present of going to sleep early tonight and then I’ll be doing mu FULL gym workout tomorrow afternoon!!

I WILL BE BACK ON TRACK, STARTING NOW!!

no school! yay, ive been doing work, and about to head to the gym for a small workout, but wanted to post my food so far for the day.

Brunch: egg white, spinach, mushroom and cheese omelete (around 215?), 2 slices of deli turkey (40ish), 10 tater tots (142), ketchup (20), cottage cheese and syrupy strawberries (120), nf milk (30), watermelon (10)-total: 577

Snack: 1/4 cup KGL (35) and 1/2 banana (55)-90

Dinner: (a few more calories than I had hoped, but I was hungry after the gym!): tofu (245), broccoli (20), brown rice (120), salad with an egg white (110), watermelon (10), some nf lemon yogurt (40), tiny bit of mac and cheese (95ish): total-640

Snack: coffee (115), one green apple (35), 1/2 cup of cherries (45) and 1/4 cup kgl (35), 1 rice cracker (30), some turkey (25)-285

total cals so far today: 1592–> done

WORKOUT: 40 min elliptical, 10min weights and abs

sundays are so great when there is no school monday! it’s so pleasant and carefree!

brunch: chicken naan wrap (535ish), 1/2 piece of poppyseed cherry streudel (125?), and some nonfat milk in my iced coffee (45)-brunch total: 705

snack: cottage cheese (100), and turkey (17)-117

Dinner: brown rice (120), tofu (110), edamame (60), egg white (17), lf ww bread (40), peanut butter (85), fried banana (175), watermelon (20) - 627

snack: 1/4 cup kgl (35), 4 almonds (34), 1 piece of dark chocolate (30)-99 

Cals eaten so far: 1548–>DONE

Some non-scale food victories from today: I was in the fast food drive through with a friend and I ordered NOTHING and i was offered a 130 calories oatmeal and dark chocolate chip cookie which i promptly decline. i also was at the movies and instead of buying any snacks, I prepacked my littled snack baggie of KGL with 4 almonds and had my water bottle. i will now be having my piece of dark chocolate as a night cap. im awesome.! NIGHT

Workout: + 1 hours of squash

my little peptalk with myself and the great comment from round really made me feel better today and more in control. so, here we go!

breakfast: 1/2 banana (55)

lunch: shared with my friend-pad see ew with tofu (290) and some green curry tofu with veggies (260)-total: 550

Snack: iced grand sk v latte (130)

dinner:[the salad was at a restaurant but im estimating the ingredients) spinach (40) salad with carmelized pecans (120?), feta cheese (110), and apple (40) and walnut vinigrette (80)-total: 390

snacks: less than 1/2 cup lf cottage cheese (60), frozen yogurt with blueberries and mandarin oranges (120), 2 tiny chicken wings (120), popcorn (100), a few cheese cubes and pita chips (110)-510

total cals so far: 1635–>done

No gym today, but will do Squash and Gym tom.

today was a not so good day. food and exercise wise. you can see my food below.  while I ate more than I had intended to, when i actually calculated it, it was less than I thought, which is positive.  while my eating overall was not in any way good or stellar, i made some good choices on the individual level.  for example: i really wanted a bagel. so i got one, with light cream cheese, and then threw away the other half, because i knew 1/2 was enough.  or, i really wanted to eating some carbs after dinner, something saltyish etc, and i went for a smart ones mac and cheese instead of heading to the drive through. obviously, in retrospect, I know I didnt need the bagel or the mac and cheese, but i still made better choices than I could have.

i also didnt go to the gym today, but the next few weeks are going to be rough, because school is ending and i have a ton of work, papers, projects, etc.  I’m really going to try to go tomorrow, but we’ll see what happens.  i’m planning on playing squash on sunday, but i may try to hit the gym as well, since i think ill have some time.

so, ive decided, ill let today be my big oops off track day. so i kind of fell of the wagon. but m3at9  has made me really see that this is truly a journey, and i have to stop berating myself so much, and actually just be supportive of myself.  i think if im more loving of myself and my progress in general, maybe everything will really fall into place. sure i make mistakes, even whole days can be mistakes. but the true accomplishment is to get back on the right track the next day, and to not just give up and ruin everything.  i’m SO close to losing 30 lbs! my ipod will be arrive on Wednesday and my formal is on saturday and I have an awesome dress.  I think if instead of yelling at myself, I motivate myself more positively, I may see better results. So, starting tomorrow, saturday, i’m getting back on track. I’m going to really watch my food and my carbs. I’m going to try to finish my work early in the day so that I  can really try/attempt to head to the gym in the afternoon (even if it’s for a shorter workout.) I CAN DO THIS and I WILL DO THIS. i’m not stopping at 29 pounds or at my ipod. I WILL reach my ultimate goal. I WILL keep chugging! I will have oops and big trouble days, but I WILL RECOVER.  I’m young, motivated, and I WILL achieve this goal. and from this day forward, I’m really going to try to be more positive and encouraging of myself.  I’m going to try and keep my motivations and mini goals in mind. I can do this!

this week’s motivations: my ipod is coming on Wednesday and I want to put it on and feel like I truly DESERVE it and my FORMAL is on saturday, and I want to look and feel great and be confident in my lovely black cocktail dress and heals. my dress is a size 16, a size i havent worn in ages, and I hope that it is way too big in a few months. i can do this!

back tomorrow! thanks all!

bfast: 1/2 banana (55), yogurt (70), cream cheese (45), 1/2 wheat cranberry/blueberry bagel(160)

lunch: spinach salad (270), and some chocolate covered cherries and espresso beans (140?)

dinner: 1 turkey hot dog with ketchup(200), 1 chicken breast (115), some watermelon (20), 1 smart ones mac and cheese (270), some strawberries (20)

snack: skinny vanilla latter (130), frozen yogurt (130), chips and cheese (200)

Well, the Good News is that even with all of my off-plan eating this week, I didnt gain any weight. In fact, I’m the exact same weight, 197.8 this week, which means that I can officially buy my ipod, which I will order tonight or tomorrow. I’m really excited about that, but at the same time I’m also disappointed with myself about my zero lack of weight loss and my bad eating. So, I’m going to try to raise my cals again. So My new cal limit is back to 1400-1600, but only whole grain carbs, ie no white pasta, white rice, etc. I will however let myself have brown rice and whole wheat bread which I havent eaten in a while, and also let myself snack on lf cheese again. I think my body is in constant need for readjustment in my foods and cals and while I think the no carb thing worked for a while, obviously my body has gotten too comfortable with it, so it might be time to let back in some good carbs. We’ll see what happens next week with now being able to eat these whole grain carbs etc. I also have to be really careful not to go over 1600, and to make sure I’m estimating my foods properly. Even if I dont reach my grad goal of 190 by June 12, I’d like to lose SOMETHING by then. And of course, the bad news was that I have lost no weight, which of course, is better than gaining weight. So, on to the new calorie and carb plans today. And hopefully on to really conscientious and controlled eating as well.

Breakfast: yogurt (70), 1/2 banana (55)-125 total

lunch: 1 chicken cesar salad (425), tiny bit of chai latte (60), 1 tootsie roll (24), 2 now and laters (26)-535

Snack: 1 rice cake (30), turkey (50), 1 string cheese (60), some strawberries (30)-170

Dinner: 1.5 tofu burgers (210?), some mashed potatoes (115), some tofu egg scramble (125?), some chocolate chips (45)-total:  495

Snack: fiber 1 bar (150), strawberries (35), piece of dark chocolate (27), popcorn (100)- 312

Total cals so far: 1637–>woops

Workout: shorter time today, 33 min elliptical, 20 min weights.

i know I just recently got to 198, so I can’t really complain about anything, but, I know I’m not really going to lose much/any weight this week. I know I haven’t been trying as hard as I could, or using as much discipline etc, or even doing AS hard of workouts as I could be. I’m just bummed cuz I’m pretty sure I wont reach my grad goal. But, I’m really going to try to focus on my food from this point forward and really try to eliminate carbs etc. We’ll see how it goes. I so badly want to lose weight. Also, perhaps after my weigh-in tomorrow I will raise my cal limit from 1200-1400 to 1300-1500, ideally with not many or any carbs, and maybe that will help with something. Also, I’m ordering PB2 today and SO excited. Also, I just hope I’m 198 or under tomorrow so I can go ahead and order my ipod! I want/need it SO badly!

Food for today:

Breakfast: 1/2 banana (55), yogurt (70)-125

lunch: Bowl of beef noodle soup (80), 1 hard boiled egg white (17), 1 turkey hot dog (135), some tofu (45), salad (80), some watermelon grapes and strawberries (45), frozen yoguret (50)-452

Snack: 8 almonds (69)

Dinner: again, dinner was at a meeting where i had no options, it was pizza and cesar salads. i know i could have picked eating only cesar, but i didnt, cuz recently I have no self control, so: tiny bit of cesar salad (100), 1 piece of pepperoni pizza (325), 1 piece of cheese pizza (275), chips a hoy cookies (140)-700

Snacks: 1 small twizzler (25), 1 piece of dove milk chocolate (44), small pack of reese’s pieces (90)-159 –>ugh, of course I had to eat this, after the horrible dinner I had, great.

Cals so far: 1505–>done. ugh, my food at the beginning of the day was so on plan, and then it veered so terribly. my self control is non exist ugh. and of course, the day before weigh in day…
It’s late and I’m tired. I’m still fighting with myself about working out, but seeing my cals, I’m pretty sure the workout will win.  My workout won and I’m so happy I went to the gym, even though it was so late!

Workout: 66 min elliptical, 20 min treadmill.  I dont know if my weigh in will be good or great tomorrow, but this workout certainly made me feel much better physically and mentally.  yay

must make a change. im not losing weight. i already know i wont reach my goal. raise my limits from 1300-1500, will that help?

i rarely talk about more than food and exercise on this blog, but today was just a blah day. i had the class that i wish i liked with a professor that i love, but the content is always over my head, I never participate and I never do well on the response papers. ugh, the class just never makes me feel good. anyways, im going in to talk to the prof tomorrow, he’s one of the prof’s im closest to and i just feel shitty because i cant really contribute to the class, and in his other classes i’ve taken, i was usually a better more vibrant student. and im researching with him this summer. and now i look lame to him, triple blah, lame etc. to make my day worse, on top of bad lunch eating which I will get to below, I basically, broke a chair at work. I think a big part of it was that I jumped on it really quickly to get at my desk, but i cant ignore the fact that a smaller person who jumped on it, probably wouldnt have broken it. so, the fat girl broke a chair. great. today’s just not a good day.

bfast: yogurt (70), apple (35), 3 almonds (25)-total: 130

lunch: was in complete violation of one of my mini goals. I was at a lunch event where food was provided, and I ate a lot of it, which reckless abandon ugh. some chicken (120) pasta salad (160), some chips (140), cookie (135)-555

snack: strawberries- 50

dinner: egg white omelette with a tiny bit of cheese, spinach and a few sauteed mushrooms (155), some steamed broccoli (50), some asian chicken noodle soup (65), some tofu (115), a few pieces of watermelon (20)-405

Snack: frozen yogurt with berries and dark chocolate (120), some turkey (25), some cherries (80)-225

total cals so far:1365–>done

Workout: 40 min elliptical, 10ish min weights ran out of timeI really need to stay on track, as long as I am at 198 or below (HOPEFULLY below on thursday, I can order my ipod nano!)! man, i need a good night’s sleep and i hope tomorrow is a better day. maybe my workout will make me feel better! i hope!