omg, i did an unofficial weigh in the morning and I’m up to 204.8. that’s awful! that 2.4 lbs more than I was on thursday! in way under a week! I really hadnt thought that I did that badly this weekend or yesterday, but apparently, i really did! shit, this is really bad. well, I’m not going to be down to 200 this week, but I do need to do major damager control and lower this number by thursday! oh man only two days away! i’m SO sad that I’ve gained this much! I dont even know how it happend, I really didnt think I made that many bad choices, but i guess i’m learning that a bad choice here and there really add up.
Ok i’m going to try to limit my total calories for the next two days, including evening snack to 1400 again. So i’m thinking:
Breakfast: yogurt (70) & 1/2 banana (55), and sugar free redbull (10)-135
Lunch: soup (70), rice cake (30), string cheese (60), turkey (50), apple (35), pudding (60): lunch total: 305
Snack: fiber 1 bar (140)
dinner: 600
evening: 200
Total calories eaten so far: 440 ; appx left: 760
I’m also really mad at myself because last night I was hungry and made myself a sensible 100cal bag of popcorn. i didnt want anything else and my friend was really hungry for junk food. i told her i didnt want anything else, but she really wore me down and I ended up eating some junky fried food. I’m so mad because I really lost my willpower there. I was satisfied with my popcorn and my friend was like “well you’re not full with popcorn” blah blah and I ended up eating fried food which I’m sure is a direct reason for my horrible weigh in. I also didnt go to the gym last Friday and Saturday which I had planned to do, and ended up not doing. And I’ve been really irresonsible about food on the weekends. I guess I interpret it as this invincible time where the food I eat doesnt really matter, or doesnt add up, but it does. And I do really need to take that into account and actually track on the weekends and at least try to estimate calories etc. Man this sucks. Blah. ok i’m back on track now with a full day cal limit of 1400 INCUDING evening snacks. no off tracks or anything. I have to fix this!