Going to Lose: My Weightloss Journey!

So, assuming my weight doesnt really go down this week, which I’m not expecting it to, there are two paths I can take to try to remedy the situation:

1) lower my calories goals back down to a strict 1300 calorie a day goal (but I think I always eat a bit more than that considering the nutrition elements of my diet are mostly estimated)

OR

2) raise my calorie limits to something like 1350-1500 (maybe even 1550) a day.  Because most of the calorie calculators say I need some # over 2000 calories a week to lose 2 lbs a week, there is also the slight, but possible chance that I am just not eating enough to lose weight successfully.  I do exercise quite a bit 5-6 days a week, bike to class etc, so I would say I’m moderately to highly active.  But I do definitely want to be on a plan where I can consistently lose 2 lbs a week.

SO, lovely 3fc bloggers and readers! what do you think? assuming i dont lose weight this week, which i doubt I will, should I lower my cals back to 1300, OR do the total opposite and raise my cals a bit, in the hopes that my body is yearning for more food/energy/nutrients?!?!?!

Let me know what you think!!! What has worked for you!? what has worked for people you know!? what have the things you’ve read say?!?! this issue is constantly plaguing me, and I just dont know what to do! so, any and all advice, thoughts, and info is appreciated!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 

Breakfast: 1 activia yogurt (70)

Lunch: Small creamy turkey vegetable soup (146) a few bites of wheat bread (20) and a cup of fruit salad (105)-lunch total: 271

Snack: 1.5 SBD snack bars (150), some almonds, walnuts and a few wheat thins (170)-total: 320

dinner: salad with one egg white (35), small amount of orange chicken (300), some vietnamese chicken rice soup (35), small amount of brown rice (~100), some tofu (60), a few french fries before i felt guilty and threw them away (20), and a teeny amount of froyo with some oreo crumbs (40)-Dinner total: 590

Snacks: 1/2 banana (55), 2 saltines (28), some jiff peanut butter (190), and 1 bite size baby ruth (52) -yeah i know i went off track…..blahh, but i was super craving peanut butter–total: 325

total calories eaten today: 1576 Calories left: none, went over by 176…

Workout!!: I had an awesome workout today! 33 min on elliptical, 16:40 on treadmill did exaclty one mile, I think within a few weeks I can be down to a 15 min mile, and 20 min of weights and abs.

I’m feeling better and more motivated/on track today, but I still need to figure out what to do calorie wise after the weigh in. I feel like if I do raise my calorie levels, it could lead to a bit of a weight gain, which would not be so good…well, i have a few days to think about it…

I’ve gotten to the point where I’ve lost the great sense of self control that I had earlier.  I also think I’ve already plateaued and I really feel/know that I’m not losing weight anymore.  I’m horrified, that I actually up-ed my calories to 1400 and im gaining slightly and not losing.  I was so motivated before, and was losing consistently everyweek.  That weekly weight loss was really a motivating factor to keep me on track and kept my self control in check.  Now tonight I had a dreadful dessert/snack, I went hugely over my calorie limits, and I just dont think I’ll be down at all on Thursday weigh in.

I’ve gotten to that point where I just get incredibly overwhelmed and frustrated about the process.  I’m exercising a ton, but obviously I’ve lost that great self control that I had before.  Also, I’m getting frustrated and worried that I cant lose weight with the situation I live in.  The blatant truth is that I am not in a situation where I can cook for myself, and I wont be for at least another year +.  Therefore I must somehow try and figure out how to lose weight entirely based on portion control, and good choices (which there usually are), and consistent exercise (which I can control).

Ugh, I know everyone has set backs and this and that, but it’s really discouraging that I probably wont be able to make it to my 2nd mini goal by the time it’s set for, which is next Thursday.  I thought I was so close to getting to my next reward.  Ugh. I’m just disgusted honestly.  Well, I’ve decided I’m going to lower my calories back to 1300 starting this thursday, if I don’t hit at least 208 on the scale.  I think maybe moving my limit up was a bad choice, this early in the game and process. ugh. well anyways, tomorrow is a new day. i definitely have the gym scheduled in, and now i just need to figure out how to get back on track foodwise to hopefully do some damage control before the weigh in.

blah, i should just go to bed. i’m so annoyed and feeling hopeless.

night.