Going to Lose: My Weightloss Journey!

first of all, thank you all so much for the great comments you all made yesterday! it’s so great to know how much support there is here. i’ve been reading all of your blogs too and i love reading all of your experiences! thanks for the great support!

breakfast: 2 tiny clementines (50) and 1/2 cup of kashi go lean (70)-total 120

lunch: small creamy turkey soup (146), 1/2 of a naked juice, [saving the other half for later] (110), and 1/2 a piece of sour dough bread (40)-lunch total: 296

snack: other half of naked juice (110) and one sugar free jello (10)-120

dinner: 1 piece of rotissere chicken (204), steamed broccoli (25), 1 cup veggie chow fun (~285): dinner total: 514

snack: 1 tangelo (70), 14 rice crisps (44), 2 pieces of dark chocolate (40) and 1 soup (70)-total 224

final calories of the day: 1294

no gym today because I’m still feeling sick. tomorrow i dont exactly know when I’m going to be able to go to the gym, so it will have to really be depending on how i feel, and how my schedule pans out. man this is a short week and it’s flying by which is good.

ahh i really hope i get better soon. i hate being sick.

ok ive been reading some other people’s blogs, and I’ve realized the people with the most success are the people who, when they are calorie counting (like me), that they write down EVERY single bite they eat, and accurately count it.

to be honest, sometimes by the end of the night, I snack and dont record it on here, or sometimes I slightly adjust my calories to be within my range.  but, i’ve just had that stupid epiphany where I’m realizing that that isnt helping anyone, and especially not me.  no one here is going to judge me (at least not to my face) about the snacking i do at night or the slightly too big portion i ate at dinner.  the only person my ‘calorie adjusting’ or non-snack reporting affects is ME.

so if i give myself a 1300 calorie limit, im going to try to stick to it.  and hopefully i will feel that being on this site will make me feel accountable.  BUT, if i do go over my 1300 limit, i’m STILL going to record it, see that number and then actively change my habits the next day.  i realize that when I look at my journal, i’m like “oh wow i’m doing so well” but i’m not always being honest. and if i cant be honest with MYSELF about my food intake and recording, Who CAN i be honest with and WHO will keep me accountable if I cant keep myself accountable on a public blog.

so from this point forward. no fake-o calorie adjusting.  no not recording later night snacking. if i mess up, the blog should know about it.

and to be honest, if anyone reads this and thinks i didnt do so well on my food journal, or thinks my calorie amounts for some foods might be low (because i do guesstimate a lot of my food because i dont cook) CALL ME OUT ON IT!  I wont be angry and honestly, it’s for my own good.

THANKS!!!

ps. all my food recording today is 100% accurate and will continue to be from this point forward.

hi all,

ugh no classes or work today but i woke up feeling shitty. with throat stuff etc. eww. i got up to have brunch with my friend, and then promptly fell asleep afterwards. obviously I really want to go to the gym, but I wont because being sick all week will really screw up my gym stuff, so for now im sitting still, working, eating well, drinking tea, and hoping this will pass by tomorrow. i really hope i dont have to go through this week being sick. anyways, here’s to getting better!

brunch: eggwhite omelete with spinach, mushrooms, a tiny bit of bacon, and cheese (200). 1/4 cup of milk in my tea (23), 2 small beef taquitos (120), 1 bite of watermelon (it wasnt good) (10), and one green apple (35)-brunch total: 388

snack: vegetarian chicken noodle soup (90), 6 almonds (42), and 1 bag of 100 cal oreo crisps yum! (100)-total 232

other things: one airborne (5) and one emergen-C (20)-total 25

snack: 1/4 cup of kashi go lean (35)

dinner: i really have to guesstimate for dinner, because it was a make it yourself station and i made asian noodles..so here goes the guesstimating: chinese egg noodles (360), some soy sauce (30), 1 egg (70), beansprouts, carrots, and some mushrooms (15), and 2 pieces of grilled tofu (45)-dinner total: 520 (my dinner estimation might be high, but honestly, i doubt it, and really i’m trying to be honest and i just actively fought with myself not to adjust some of the cals, but I’m glad I didn’t)

other: honey for my tea (40), one tiny satsuma (or clementine? i just dont know the difference, all i know is that this one was REALLY tiny and is about the size of a ping pong ball (25?)-total 65

Calorie total so far today: 1265 Calories left:35

also, for the rest of the day, im done with dairy because i dont need my nose to get any more stuffed, so no yogurt or cheese today, etc etc.

im worried that i’m becoming lazy/careless with my food.  ive been thinking and trying to do well, but I feel like I’m not really being intense or strict as I was being the last few weeks.  i’m also really worried that I’m not going to lose this week.  i know i still have 4 days until my weigh in, but I just dont feel like my body is losing.  im really going to have to super push myself this week because I really NEED at least a 1 lb loss, but i really WANT a 2 lb loss.  argh. i really hope my earlier losses weren’t a fluke.

aghh. wish me luck with the rest of this week!.

ps (i’ve even been pretty good with snacking so far, these past few nights.  i really just have to stay on track and hopefully stay more stringent with my food choices and calorie calculating and reporting.)

ok brunch: egg white omelete with spinach, mushrooms and some cheese (~200), some farm style breakfast potatoes (115), some low fat cottage cheese (40), 1 half grapefruit (52)-total 407

Snack: 1 slice whole wheat bread (90), 1 slice of deli turkey (15) and some cream cheese (35)-total 140

Dinner: spinach (10) salad with 2 egg whites (34), mushrooms (5), carrots (10) and cucumbers (5) and balsamic vinegar (5)-salad total (69), some tortilla chips and some fakeish nacho cheese (85), rotini (130), with some parmesean an a tad of shredded cheddar (55), peanut butter frozen yogurt (90) with some crumbled oreo (54), puffins cereal 3/4 cup (90) and 1/2 cup of nonfat milk (45)-dinner total 618

(i know this dinner looks kinda big, but because I ate in a dining hall, i just take little bites and bits of different things…none of these are full portions)

Snack: rice crisps (120) and 5 almonds (35) and 2 airbornes (10)

Total calories for the day: 1330

Workout: 45 min elliptical and 35 min weights and abs

ok yeah i didnt post yesterday. yesterday was an absolute shitshow. in every way. i ate fine yesterday and actually ate under my calories but i drank so that probably more than made up for it.

anyway back on complete track today:

breakfast (@ 1:30/2pm..ha): 1/2 kashi go lean bar (90), 1 activa (70), 1/4 cup kashi go lean (35)-total 195

lunch: 6 inch turkey sub on wheat (no cheese)-280

dinner: spinach salad (20), with chicken breast (130), walnuts (110), cucumbers (10), carrots (20), corn (70), parmeasean cheese (30), sauteed mushrooms (80), 1 piece of foccacia bread (100), balsamic vinagrette (80)-total 650

dessert: frozen yogurt (200) with blueberries (15) and some walnuts (70)-285

snack: 1 small banana (65)

total: 1475

workout: 50 min elliptical, 30 min weights and abs! (feels good to be back at the gym!)

Hiii All,

Happy Valentine’s Day…ok moving on… haha

so, i weighed myself this morning, as the official weigh in and it was 213.6! woohoo, still on my way down. although i couldnt help but feel a twinge of dissapointment, because i was hoping for 2 lbs per week loss, cuz thats what my mini goals are based on. but at the same time i a) didnt eat amazingly this week i.e. snacking at night and french fries for dinner last night nor have i b) worked out yesterday due to scheduling issues and c) it’s still that week of the month. and im certainly not complaining because I’m thrilled the numbers on the scale are moving down, but it is reinforcing something I need to really remember which is that my actions and the food I eat really do directly impact my weight loss. well its a long weekend this weekend so i can really get back on track (after v-day dinner..haha…) and go to the gym all the days this weekend and also really watch my food and hopefully the cravings and snacking will go away once im back on the pill. so, yea. definitely not disapointed, but I know I can really do better. I just really need to be more cautious about my food and snacking and really just stay consistent with my exercise. another thing i recognize is that I definitely didnt get 8 hours of sleep every night this week and I do believe that weight loss is impacted by sleep, so after my paper is due tomorrow, I really need to get back on track with not staying up late, and still getting 8 hours a night, at least.

ok back to normal stuff:

Breakfast: 1 activa (70), 1/4 cup of kashi go lean (35), 1 sugar free redbull (10) and 1 green apple (35)-total 150.

Lunch: chicken tortilla soup (260) and a bite of marble rye bread (40) and one dove dark chocolate heart(37)-total 337

Snack: 1 string cheese (60) 1.5 rice cakes (45) and 1 sugar free jello (10)-115

Dinner:

Breakfast: 1 activa (70), 1/4 cup kashi go lean (35), 1/2 banana (55) & 1 sugar free redbull (10)-total 170

Snack: Homemade pumpkin apple nut muffin from someone at work…yum (110?)

Lunch: some potato leek soup (45), some whole wheat pasta (200), and some hoison tofu with snap peas (150)-total 395

Dinner: some chicken cesar salad (300) and some french fries (250)- 550

total so far :1225

im going over to my friends tonight to study so there will probably be some snacking there, but im gonna make sure i make wise choices..woohoo

weigh in day tomorrow.  hope all is ok

so, so far i’ve lost 11.8 lbs (dont know if/what i’ve lost this week because i dont weigh in until thursday and sadly its…thatttt week) but anways, i was hoping to see some kind of results in my body from losing almost 12 lbs, but i couldnt really specifically see anywhere in my body where i had lost weight. i definitely could see/feel that i was building muscle, but i was wondering if the scale was reading wrong. so i decided to try on my tight pair of 16 jeans. i fit into them last year and in september, but pretty much after early october they stopped fitting and I was back to 18. well, i tried them on right now and WOOHOO they fit and completely button/zipper. and im certainly not saying that they are 100% comfortable or that i look as good in them as i should, BUT they do actually completely fit on my body…which is definitely something they didnt do pre-january. so im really excited and actually id say every 5 or so lbs I lose, I’ll try on these pants to see where I am body wise. because while seeing # on the scale can be great, it can also be frusterating when I dont see direct changes in my body. anyways, this totally motivates me and I’m really happy im staying on track. I just have to keep trying to fight off munchies/nibbling and snacking at night. but ive been keeping up my exercise and in general my self control. woohoo! ok

so late must get up early tomorrow.

but yay. i needed this affirmation that my body IS actually changing.

when i actually hit size 14 im gonna go crazy. when i lose my gross stomach, (you know the one im talking about, the built in fanny pack below my belly button, i’ll be seriously over the moon!

ok seriously, bed now

no breakfast, woke up too late, ran to class etc..

Lunch: Chicken souvlaki 230 and some rice 200-430

Snack: 1 string cheese (60) and 1 green apple (35) -95

Dinner: dinner is very guesstimated tonight because i have no clue what the calories are since it was all homeade, organic etc etc.  1 cup mac and cheese not very cheesey/creamy etc (245), 1 grilled chicken breast with  a small about of bbq sauce? (160), about 5 homemade french fries (55), some salad and balsamic vinegar (12), 1 chocolate covered almond cluster (93), some cheezits-(~70), and a few bites of some kind of coffee cake (55)-dinner total 690

Snack: 1 grande iced nonfat sugar free vanilla latte (80)

Total for today: 1295

Workout: 45 intense/hard treadmill minutes and 35 min of weights and abs! woo hoo, i tried to do an extra hard workout today because I dont have time to do a workout weds or thursday so friday will be my next day back.

anyways, im still feeling good about everything, which is good! no off to do work! ahhh. long weekend coming up! excellent!