Going to Lose: My Weightloss Journey!

ok ive been reading some other people’s blogs, and I’ve realized the people with the most success are the people who, when they are calorie counting (like me), that they write down EVERY single bite they eat, and accurately count it.

to be honest, sometimes by the end of the night, I snack and dont record it on here, or sometimes I slightly adjust my calories to be within my range.  but, i’ve just had that stupid epiphany where I’m realizing that that isnt helping anyone, and especially not me.  no one here is going to judge me (at least not to my face) about the snacking i do at night or the slightly too big portion i ate at dinner.  the only person my ‘calorie adjusting’ or non-snack reporting affects is ME.

so if i give myself a 1300 calorie limit, im going to try to stick to it.  and hopefully i will feel that being on this site will make me feel accountable.  BUT, if i do go over my 1300 limit, i’m STILL going to record it, see that number and then actively change my habits the next day.  i realize that when I look at my journal, i’m like “oh wow i’m doing so well” but i’m not always being honest. and if i cant be honest with MYSELF about my food intake and recording, Who CAN i be honest with and WHO will keep me accountable if I cant keep myself accountable on a public blog.

so from this point forward. no fake-o calorie adjusting.  no not recording later night snacking. if i mess up, the blog should know about it.

and to be honest, if anyone reads this and thinks i didnt do so well on my food journal, or thinks my calorie amounts for some foods might be low (because i do guesstimate a lot of my food because i dont cook) CALL ME OUT ON IT!  I wont be angry and honestly, it’s for my own good.

THANKS!!!

ps. all my food recording today is 100% accurate and will continue to be from this point forward.

hi all,

ugh no classes or work today but i woke up feeling shitty. with throat stuff etc. eww. i got up to have brunch with my friend, and then promptly fell asleep afterwards. obviously I really want to go to the gym, but I wont because being sick all week will really screw up my gym stuff, so for now im sitting still, working, eating well, drinking tea, and hoping this will pass by tomorrow. i really hope i dont have to go through this week being sick. anyways, here’s to getting better!

brunch: eggwhite omelete with spinach, mushrooms, a tiny bit of bacon, and cheese (200). 1/4 cup of milk in my tea (23), 2 small beef taquitos (120), 1 bite of watermelon (it wasnt good) (10), and one green apple (35)-brunch total: 388

snack: vegetarian chicken noodle soup (90), 6 almonds (42), and 1 bag of 100 cal oreo crisps yum! (100)-total 232

other things: one airborne (5) and one emergen-C (20)-total 25

snack: 1/4 cup of kashi go lean (35)

dinner: i really have to guesstimate for dinner, because it was a make it yourself station and i made asian noodles..so here goes the guesstimating: chinese egg noodles (360), some soy sauce (30), 1 egg (70), beansprouts, carrots, and some mushrooms (15), and 2 pieces of grilled tofu (45)-dinner total: 520 (my dinner estimation might be high, but honestly, i doubt it, and really i’m trying to be honest and i just actively fought with myself not to adjust some of the cals, but I’m glad I didn’t)

other: honey for my tea (40), one tiny satsuma (or clementine? i just dont know the difference, all i know is that this one was REALLY tiny and is about the size of a ping pong ball (25?)-total 65

Calorie total so far today: 1265 Calories left:35

also, for the rest of the day, im done with dairy because i dont need my nose to get any more stuffed, so no yogurt or cheese today, etc etc.

im worried that i’m becoming lazy/careless with my food.  ive been thinking and trying to do well, but I feel like I’m not really being intense or strict as I was being the last few weeks.  i’m also really worried that I’m not going to lose this week.  i know i still have 4 days until my weigh in, but I just dont feel like my body is losing.  im really going to have to super push myself this week because I really NEED at least a 1 lb loss, but i really WANT a 2 lb loss.  argh. i really hope my earlier losses weren’t a fluke.

aghh. wish me luck with the rest of this week!.

ps (i’ve even been pretty good with snacking so far, these past few nights.  i really just have to stay on track and hopefully stay more stringent with my food choices and calorie calculating and reporting.)