im still sick today which sucks. ive been trying to stay on my food plan, but havent been exercising much except going to and from class (biking)

today i had a bigger breakfast than usual because i knew it would be a while till lunch

breakfast: 1 airborne drink (5 cal) , 1 lower sugar oatmeal packet (120), one piece of wheat bread (45), a dab of fat free cream cheese (30), and some proscuitto (no clue), kinda a lot, i know

lunch: some turkey noodle soup, a few spoons of mac and cheese (eek i know, baddd), a few bites of a hot dog (not even half), and (gasppp!, seriousily im mad) some french fries. and 2 small slices of water melon.  this is the problem with a dining hall! since you can take little bits of things, i end up getting bites of bad things. i can exhibit total control when im ordering from any place, but once im at the dining hall, sometimes my control goes out the window.  its something im REALLY gonna have to work on.  maybe thats a mini goal i can have; to really exhibit control in the dining halls.

for dinner i had some spinach and lettuce salad with some candied walnuts and feta cheese, no dressing, and i had 1.5 small pieces of cheese-less pizza, so basically bread with light tomato sauce.

snack: one campbells on the go 70 calorie soup.

ok well i think i would have done fine for  today if it hadnt been for the bad choices at the dining hall. ive really got to work on that.

i get frusterated, because when i look at other people’s food journals, they seem to be exerting so much control, and eating such small portions, and counting calories so exactly, which i cant do in a dining hall setting, and its frustrating because so many women are cooking and having success, which i just cant do because im just not in a situation where i can cook.

but i guess the point is that i have to work with the situation im in, so all i can do at this point is exert good self control and make healthy decisions.

also, i havent worked out properly at the gym yet cuz im still sick.

and tomorrow is weigh in day, and im really not expecting the scale to go down, but i guess im just hoping it doesnt go up too much.  at this point i jsut have to hope that i can get better from this stupid cold so i can start up with my full plan next week and be on my regular work out sched, etc.

argh…alright–night