Hopping on the Baby Train

I was thinking about my neglected blog today and thinking perhaps I should hop on and post a few updates. My weight is still all over the place. I’ve been down 8 pounds at the most and I’ve been hovering around 6 for the last two or three weeks. I think I need to get stricter with my diet for a bit. Not like Atkins strict but maybe “whole food” strict. I have my doctor appointment on May 8th. I’m going to get my yearly exam taken care of, talk about weight loss, and discuss maybe coming off of my birth control shot and going to the pill instead. I want to get her opinion on that. I’ve heard it can be extremely difficult to get pregnant for months and months after coming off the shot (other people get pregnant ON it…). I figured it might also be good to get my body back on a regular cycle. I haven’t had a regular period in over three years. I also know that the shot is associated with weight increase. I personally have not had any issue with this, but who knows, maybe going off of it will aid in my weight loss. I think if I do switch BC methods the whole baby thing will become more real to me. I’ve still got a long way to go before I’m down that 100 pounds. I’m extremely confident in myself that I can do it but it’s the doing it where I lose my steam.

I haven’t formally worked out at all since last Tuesday (almost a week!!). On Wednesday my sister and I signed up to deliver phone books and I figured that would be enough of an informal workout that I wouldn’t have to worry about the gym. It has proven to be a workout. Between carrying the books and the delivering them it’s a lot of weight movement. We should finish that up tomorrow though. We started with about 1300 phone books and we have 170 left. We’ll make about $250. We’re gonna use the money and go camping.

I think I’ll look at the “whole foods” board on the forums and see what that’s all about. That makes sense to me….meat, fruit, veggies, whole grains, fat free dairy, I can do that. It’ll help me hop back on the bandwagon.

Just FYI, I graduate from college this coming Friday. I will offically have my bachelor’s in social work. In a month or so I’ll be a certified social worker. I have my party this coming Saturday, plus the phone books, plus working out, plus I just acquired 18 rat babies and their mommas, PLUS I have to get my house cleaned for the party. Therefore, I may be neglectful again this week.

P.S. If anyone wants to adopt rat babies, I’m in Nebraska and I could try to get a rat train set up to get them to other locations

Fooie….I wrote a lovely post and it disappeared….round two.

I feel much better than I did at my last posting. As of Monday, I’m still down 8 pounds. I say “still” because I’ve been at 8 pounds for a few weeks, but I’d rathter maintain than gain…hehe…I rhymed. We’ve been working out pretty religiously. Last Wednesday I went swimming with my sister, husband and niece, and right as free swim was getting over, I noticed that they were setting up for aquacise, so I decided to stay for that. I think I’m going to do the same thing tomorrow. Tonight (if I can tear myself away from Biggest Loser) we’re going to do our weight lifting routine. Um…I think that’s all…I have to hop on the elliptical now or we’re not going to have time to work out at the Y.

I’m usually pretty chipper in my posts, but I don’t see that happening in this post. I am so BEYOND frustrated. My weight last week was 264.2, this week it was 264.8 and since Monday, I’ve gradually been gaining all week. I’m up to 266.4 today. Tuesday and Wednesday were really bad. Those were the days that I ate a butt ton of sugar and wasn’t feeling good because of it. Yesterday was great. I was under budget on my calories, I worked out, and I felt like it was an all over good day. I thought for sure I’d see maybe a .2 or a .4 decrease between yesterday and today. I know, I know, I’m not supposed to weigh myself every day just for this reason, but that’s how I’ve always done it. My body is pretty good at showing me when I had a bad eating day and when I had a good eating day. Needless to say, my 2 pounds a week goal is shot to pieces. I would have to lose 4 pounds between today and Monday…. NOT likely. Anywhoo…I’m about to go grocery shopping so that’s a positive. I get to hand pick my foods for next week.

Is there really any more to say than that? I feel blah, my eating is blah, my weight loss is blah and more blah and more blah. My eating has sucked for the last couple of days, which in turn is making me feel yucky which in turn in making my weight loss yucky. It’s the fricking Easter candy that’s doing it to me. The sugar makes my tummy upset THEREFORE, an intelligent person would stop eating it. I was thinking about fasting tomorrow just to give my body a chance to clean itself out. I could probably definately use it. Not sure yet….gonna finish out my day with blah blah and more blah, then bed time.

Well, today is Easter. That means two things. #1 we’re going to my mother in laws for her delicious breakfast casserole (which I can’t calculate without hardcore guessing) and #2 the Y is closed. I’m spot on today with my weight last week, which means I’ll lose very little if any this week. Typically we do a “last chance workout” on Sunday’s. Technically we can still do one, it’s just harder to get motivated to do a workout without the Y. We talked last night about doing the Buggest Loser cardio DVD. That one is a very good workout for me. It’s hard. It definitely gets my heart pumping.  Anywhoo, that’s really all I have for the time being. I’m gonna try really hard to get the recipe fromm mother in law so I can calculate

Well, my sister had what I thought was an ingenius idea. Sit on the porch, hang up all of the clothes we don’t want anymore and sell them super cheap. Soooo I dug through my entire closet….everything, current clothes, goal clothes, all of it. I need up with about two totes worth of stuff. So you’d think I’d be excited to sell some clothes EXCEPT…. The weather man lied (shocker). He said it was supposed to rain until 8am…well it seems to have changed to 11am. On top of that, the temperature has actually dropped two degrees since we’ve started. So, everything is covered in plastic (including us) and we’re waiting out the storm for some buyers to show up.

Anywhoo, we ate at Long John Silvers last night. That was absolutely delicious…until about a half hour later for my husband and about 2 hours later for me. Turns out that when you don’t et crazy greasy food very often, ot has a tendency to upset your tummy. That sucked. We did our first workout on Thursday night from the New Rules of Lifting book. It was ok. The weight room was complety dead so I did end up doing the prone jackknife in public. It was easier than I anticipated. I Kind of got complimented on my form doing the squats. That was kind of nice.

I’m pretty sure I’m not losing my two pounds this week. In all fairness I lost 5 last week so I kind of expected a dull week. Maybe I’ll have a big weight loss every two weeks. See shall see. I’ll be content to maintain this week.

These two things have nothing to do with each other, they are just what is on my mind today. I had cantaloupe with breakfast today and it wsa wonderful. I had two pieces of smart wheat toast, two tablespoons of margarine, a cheese stick and HALF a cantaloupe. Just shy of 400 calories. The cantaloupe was fantastic.

My agency is the special guest tonight at a LGBT trade show (essentially LGBT owned and allied businesses learning about each other). I’m kind of excited to go so I straightened my hair and put some smelly lotion on. Usually I throw my hair up in a pony and let the fly-aways fly. Originally I wasn’t going to go. My co-worker was going to go since I’m supposed to be off at 5 BUT her brother passed away yesterday so I’m up to bat. It should be fun.

Tonight I’m starting the plan out of New Rules of Lifting for Women. It’s real weight lifting, not two pound barbie weights lifting. I’m deathly afraid of going to the Y in the big scary man weight room BUT my big scary man husband will be with me so I’ll be fine. I can’t do “real” push ups so I’m afraid of looking stupid doing them against the wall but….who gives a patootie. I have to do squats, push ups, rowing, step ups and the prone jacknife. I will be doing the prone jacknife at home. Take some time to google what that looks like and you’ll see why I refuse to do it in public….I’m more afraid of falling off the ball than anything else. The worst part about working otu tonight is that I’m going to the zoo tomorrow. We’re not just talking any zoo….we’re talking the Henry Doorley Zoo in Omaha….it’s like the epitome of zoos. It’s just a normal zoo to me….but it really is huge and I’m really going to be hurting. I’m sure I’ll having something intriguing to post about that tomorrow if I’m still alive. Well…i have to be to work at noon and it’s currently 10:36….20 minute drive….stop at the bank…..thrift store (I’m a thrift store junkie by the way)…yup….gotta get off the internet right now.

I noticed a pair of my capris were fitting kind of loose…..then my husband told me his pants were feeling loose too. SO!! We measured!!  I’m down two inches total!  I lost an inch in my wast, a half inch in my hips and half an inch from my left arm :)  Just thought I’d share. Now I’m off to get my 5 pound loss massage :) 

Have you ever not wanted to cook dinner? Well that’s how it is for me EVERY night. I despise cooking dinner. I don’t know why, I just hate doing it. Well, tonight is even worse. One of my co-workers had a fmily emergency so instead of working 1-6, I’m working 3-8…which means I need to cook dinner BEFORE I go. It’s not really a big deal, but for some reason, making dinner is a pain in my butt!

I told my husband I wasn’t going to work out today, but the concept makes me feel guilty…soo I won’t have time to make dinner (cringe) and work out before I go into work, so I’ll probably end up going to the Y after work. I’m going to start the program out of The New Rules of Weight Loss for Women tomorrow. I wasn’t going to work out because I’m a little sore from my workout on Monday and I don’t really want to start my new weight lifting routine if I’m sore, but I don’t think a little cardio will kill me.

Back to my dinner plan. I think we’re going to have shredded chicken sandwiches. That’s pretty easy. All I have to do is boil up some chicken and put some BBQ on top. Sounds easy enough. AND, while I’m at it, maybe I’ll throw some chicken in marinade for tomorrow’s dinner. Now I’m just talking crazy…..

Well, if I’m going to get anything done I’ll have to go home. I’m hanging out at my mom’s house right now. WAIT! SCORE!! I just scored an invite to dinner at my mom’s for my husband!!! Now I don’t have to cook!! I’ll just take a Lean Cuisine for dinner for me….man I’m awesome. He’ll like my mom’s meatballs better than my BBQ chicken anyways.

Hello World!

Well, it’s happened. I got married when I was 19, three years ago. Our plan was to wait 5 years until we started talking babies. Well, I’m graduating with my bachelor’s in social work in May which means a lot of my classmates are thinking about families. Well, that got me thinking about families. I’m confident that my husband and I would both make wonderful parents RIGHT NOW! But, I’m trying to be reasonable. While sitting in a gas station parking lot on March 11th of this year, I aked my husband if “he would give me a baby if I lost 100 pounds.” Those were my exact words. He said yes.

So, I officially started dieting the next day, March 12th. My starting weight was 272.8. My baby goal is precisely 100 pounds less than that. Once I get to that point I may want to lose more, but who knows.

As of today, I’m down 8 pounds in 22 days. My goal is 2 pounds per week, but I’m aware that I probably won’t do that EVERY week. I want to be coming off of birth control by December (but still using barrier contraceptives) and hopefully trying for baby by March 2013. Whenever I hit my goal (or my updated goal) is when we’re going to start trying for baby.

Anywhoo….now that you know my reproductive plans I’ll move on to my losing weight plan.

I have been eating 1800 calories a day and trying to burn 500 per day. I’ve been fairly successful at this since I’ve started. I got a Y membership for me and my husband. If I bring up the Y, it doesn’t matter what he’s doing or how he feels, he hops up and puts on his workout clothes. He’s very supportive. I’m in love with the elliptical, it’s a super quick way to get my burn in. I also like the recumbant bike but I spend most of my time on the elliptical. We’ve been working on weight training at home. We have an olympic size weight bench and weights, medicine balls, yoga balls, etc, etc. We’re pretty set up at home.

My first weigh in I lost 4 pounds, my second weigh in I gained a pound, and my last weigh in I lost 5.6. As of today I’m up .6 from that last weigh in but I also weight trained last night, so I’m not letting it hurt my feelings.

So….that’s all I’ve got for today…except….I’M STARVING!! I maxed out on calories at like 6 tonight……won’t be doing that tomorrow.