~The Never Ending Quest~

Hello everyone-

I had my WW meeting last night- It was crazy because the power was out but the scales worked still so we got to weigh in and have a meeting!  I weighed in at 205.2 last night which mean I have lose 26.4 lbs since starting WW at the end of Jan.  I got my 25 lb washer to put on my 10% keychain!  It is awesomely cool-  My next personal goal is 199 which is only 6.2 lbs away…..  I think that is doable! 

The meeting was a good one also- How to keep negative self talk out of your head!  I have a big problem with this… It was a good meeting topic and a reminder that I am working on being nicer to me!

My boyfriend is graduating today from his master’s program!  It is an exciting day!!  Well, I have to clean the place up in case anyone wants to come over after the cereamony! 

Have a great weekend!

My boyfriend bought me a new dress to wear yesterday.  It was perfect.  I loved it… Everyone said I looked great!  It was so nice of him to offer to buy me a new outfit… he even bought me a new strapless bra to go with it!  He is such a thoughtful dude… I am attaching a few of the pics in the dress. 

How was everyone’s weekend?  I hope you didn’t eat too much easter candy!  I am hoping he will eat more of my candy so I don’t have to worry about that basket that is in my living room will tempt me!  Ahhhh… it is all candy that is portioned out either 100 calorie packs, or those 100 calore butter finger stixx and also hershey’s 60 claorie sticks…  Still easy to overeat!!

I hope everyone has a GREAT week!

Hello, Hello!

Today is weigh day.  I have great news… I am down 4.2 lbs this past week.  That brings my total to 19.2 so far since starting WW, but 36 since September.  Yeah!!  I was the biggest loser in the meeting so I got take the groups lion for the week!  I will attach the biggest loser lion so you can see how cute he is! 

My boyfriend is going to be home late again after I go to bed… :(  I am a bit lonely right now.  I tried to call my sister to talk, but she got mad when I told her about my weight loss today.  She said I was rubbing it her face that I am losing weight and she is not… I had no intention of doing that… I didn’t know she felt that way- she never mentioned it before.. I have called her after my meeting for the 11 weeks.  She is my best friend also so it upset that me she didn’t want to hear about it.  I apologized and told her I wouldn’t mention my successes to her anymore… She tried to change what she had said after that but she did say it… Grrrrrr  Now I am home alone and have no one to talk to….  What are you guys doing tonight?  I also added a new side pic in my Photos page… Check ‘em out! 

I am so relieved. I have been very stressed lately-about what? Money of course. My DBF and I were going to move to a bigger place and I will be starting the accelerated nursing program in September- I will not be able to work during the 14 month program so I have been freaking out about how I will pay for things besides rent or even rent if the place we get is expensive or doesn’t include utilities. I actually just started bawling a few times from the stress of it… I tend not to talk about my feelings so they build up and then crying is usually what brings about discussion. I am trying to work on naming emotions and sharing them rather than keeping them inside as best I can.

My DBF is very observant and has noticed my distress even though I try to handle things on my own. Yesterday he said that we could just stay in the small, small apartment for another year or so until we are both financially ready to move to a bigger, better place. (He moved into my small apartment a few months ago and it is a bit cramped, but cheap!) Also he said he wanted to split all of the bills in half even WW and my the insurance for both of my dogs(our dogs). He also said that once our current gym membership is up he could would renew at our two for one rate and could pay the whole thing himself. He also told me not to worry at all because he would take care of me… he said he couldn’t let me starve… LOL I am feeling so relieved, really. I will be able to save more of my cash now that he is going to help me pay some of my expenses.

I just love him! Oh, he also basically told me that he was going to ask me to marry him once he finished up his Master program. He is planning on being done after this Summer semester and will walk at the end of this semester. He was funny because then he said- of course it will be a surprise. LOL

So anyway, I am feeling so smiley and calm today-

Hello all-

Happy Saturday.  :)  I have been having a lovely day- I got to cuddle with my DBF this morning after I got back from taking my math test for an online class.  We went to the gym after that and I got in some serious lifting.  I did a 10 minute warm up and then lifted for an hour.  My muscles might not like me to much tomorrow though.  LOL

I just finished dinner.  I was a yummy fettucini alfredo loaded with veggies: broccoli, califlower, spinach, peas, garlic, green onions.  The alfredo was light and didnt over loade it- also the fettucini(sp) noodles were 100% WW- YUM-O. 

My mom said she would take me shopping!!  We are just going to goodwill (she is a manager there) as she gets a discount, but I don’t have any money right to buy clothes.  Mine are starting to fall off- I have to wear a belt with most of my pants.  I have been wearing the same clothes as when I weight 248 in september.  It is about time for a change in size.  I am hoping I can fit a 16 now…. :)  I am so happy she agreed to buy me some stuff… she said she would love to take me actually.  I love my mom!

I hope everyone is having a great weekend!

Check ya later-

I haven’t posted to much this week.  Sorry for those of  you waiting with baited breath to see what I have been up too!  :) 

I just got home from applebees and the gym.  My DBF and I met at the gym at 7:30 and then went to applebeees for dinner after we finished.  Yummmmm….. :) 

Yesterday was my BF’s birthday- he turned 30.  I made him a very yummy cake yesterday…  I ate some but i counted the points and planned for it!  Yeah me- Oh, I lost 1.8lbs at my weigh in yesterday which brings me to 15 down in the 10 weeks since WW.  31 since September… I weight 216.6- I can’t even remember the last time I was that low… Maybe HS but I am not sure!  LOL

S/B challenge-

1. Clean eating 5/5- I planned on that cake so it was ok!
2. 50 oz /80 oz water
3. 310 minutes/250 minutes exercise

Made up 30 mins exercise for not getting in all my water again! Yikes that was twice during the week. 

We had roasted pork loin and garlic mashed potatoes.  This was the best pork I have ever eaten… I amaze myself sometimes while cooking… he he he

So far this week is rockin’  :)  My WI is tomorrow and I am feeling good about it.  My pants are all starting to fall off of me so I have to wear a belt… I NEVER wear belts…  I only have one that came on a pair of pants once a long time ago… It is kinda cool to have to wear a belt.  I want to try on smaller jeans but I can’t really afford new clothes… I am thinking to seeing if my mom would take me to goodwill and buy some stuff that will fit for now… If I am just going to lose more seems a waste to buy new stuff.  :P 

S/B challenge-

Clean eating- 3/5 Days

Water (today) 90/80 oz.  (drank a lot of water!)

190/250 minutes of exercise

I didn’t post but I didnt’ get all of my water in on Monday so I added 30 minutes of exercise on Tuesday.  :) 

• I woke up with loads of energy!
• I received compliments about my weight loss.
• My boyfriend told me I was beautiful.
• I got a date night to my movie choice.
• I feel in control of my food choices.

Hello everyone!  I hope your having a great weekend.  I am really having a lovely weekend.  I am feeling great today and ready to attack my weight loss plan this coming week.  Which is great because I have been feeling so ho-hum lately about weight loss.  I think it is was because I was feeling comfortable about having lost 30 lbs.  I am feeling rejuvenated and ready to make my 10% goal which is only 10 lbs away…  I plan on going to the gym today for some hardcore cardio.  Oh, my exercise goal for the month of March was 780 minutes- I already have 866 and there are still a few days left… I am going to smash this goal!  I will set my goal higher for April.  Have a great day!

• I want to be confident around food- in control.
• I want to be smokin’ hot!
• I want to be healthy.
• I want to enjoy a variety of food without over eating.
• I want to be a sex pot in the bedroom. 
• I want to be irresistable to my boyfriend.
• I want to buy clothes in any store I walk into. 
• I want to be emotionally healthy- work through food issues.
• I want to pass on healthy food habits to my future kids.
• I want to run with my boyfriend.
• I want to have a healthy workout plan.
• I want a normal BMI.
• I want skinny knees & Arms.
• I want to be comfortable in my skin/body.
• I want to be the picture of health- no asthma and I don’t want to develop type II diabetes like my Dad.
• I want to raise my good cholesterol levels through exercise.

I am commited to changing my habbits to reach my goal of 150 lbs. 

This is an entry from my journal from 12/1/2008.  I just wanted to remind myself what I am working for.  I have been frustrated with little loses the past few weeks, but I have now lost 30lbs since Septebmer.  I was 248 on 9/8/2008 and I currently weigh 218.4.  That is really awesome!  I need to starting pushing the postive on myself… I have been extremely negative and not very nice to myself, but I am on a mission to love myself…  I am a great person and I should be treating me like it.  :) 

Fake it till you make it!  I am still feeling blah about everything lately… I am still using the eyeball method for tracking… I think this is probably better than not tracking at all.  I am still working to get out of my funk.  I need to really exaime my reasons for losing weight- maybe if I know what I am doing than I will be more excited about it again. 

I wanted to thank all of you who comment on my blog!  It really helps to know there are others out there reading what I am going through and care enough to write me about it.  SO REALLY THANKS!  :) 

I will get my mojo back…. I just need to take some me time to find it.  I will just fake it until I find it!