~The Never Ending Quest~

• I woke up with loads of energy!
• I received compliments about my weight loss.
• My boyfriend told me I was beautiful.
• I got a date night to my movie choice.
• I feel in control of my food choices.

Hello everyone!  I hope your having a great weekend.  I am really having a lovely weekend.  I am feeling great today and ready to attack my weight loss plan this coming week.  Which is great because I have been feeling so ho-hum lately about weight loss.  I think it is was because I was feeling comfortable about having lost 30 lbs.  I am feeling rejuvenated and ready to make my 10% goal which is only 10 lbs away…  I plan on going to the gym today for some hardcore cardio.  Oh, my exercise goal for the month of March was 780 minutes- I already have 866 and there are still a few days left… I am going to smash this goal!  I will set my goal higher for April.  Have a great day!

• I want to be confident around food- in control.
• I want to be smokin’ hot!
• I want to be healthy.
• I want to enjoy a variety of food without over eating.
• I want to be a sex pot in the bedroom. 
• I want to be irresistable to my boyfriend.
• I want to buy clothes in any store I walk into. 
• I want to be emotionally healthy- work through food issues.
• I want to pass on healthy food habits to my future kids.
• I want to run with my boyfriend.
• I want to have a healthy workout plan.
• I want a normal BMI.
• I want skinny knees & Arms.
• I want to be comfortable in my skin/body.
• I want to be the picture of health- no asthma and I don’t want to develop type II diabetes like my Dad.
• I want to raise my good cholesterol levels through exercise.

I am commited to changing my habbits to reach my goal of 150 lbs. 

This is an entry from my journal from 12/1/2008.  I just wanted to remind myself what I am working for.  I have been frustrated with little loses the past few weeks, but I have now lost 30lbs since Septebmer.  I was 248 on 9/8/2008 and I currently weigh 218.4.  That is really awesome!  I need to starting pushing the postive on myself… I have been extremely negative and not very nice to myself, but I am on a mission to love myself…  I am a great person and I should be treating me like it.  :) 

Fake it till you make it!  I am still feeling blah about everything lately… I am still using the eyeball method for tracking… I think this is probably better than not tracking at all.  I am still working to get out of my funk.  I need to really exaime my reasons for losing weight- maybe if I know what I am doing than I will be more excited about it again. 

I wanted to thank all of you who comment on my blog!  It really helps to know there are others out there reading what I am going through and care enough to write me about it.  SO REALLY THANKS!  :) 

I will get my mojo back…. I just need to take some me time to find it.  I will just fake it until I find it! 

Today DBF and I went to the gym as we planned as I skipped yesterday.   I have been doing 35 minutes of cardio on the elliptical, but wanted to work up to an hour…. Today I setting the time and I was like oh I will just go to 45 minutes, but then I said heck, I can do an hour- I will just try it.  So i did.  I completed and hour and 4 minutes on elliptical machine.  Sweet!!  According to the machine I burned 640 calories.  :) 

I just wanted to share this exciting workout news.  I  am not feeling a 100%, but I am working on it and NOT giving up.  I really appreciate everyone’s kind words.  :) 

These past two weeks I just haven’t been as in to weight loss.  I haven’t measured out my food and I am just estimating on portion size.  I am feeling a bit apathetic toward my weight loss and I don’t know why…..  I need to do some real soul searching to try and dig up what is going on. 

I am happy with my weight loss so far… 12.6 lbs down as to wi today.  I lost .4 this week…  I am enjoy some aspects of working out, but I do not really like cardio.   I didn’t go to the gym today because I was tired.  I was tired but I feel like I should have sucked it up anyway and just went to the gym.  I am going tomorrow with my BF instead of today like I should have(Tuesday,Thursdays are our gym days).  I am feeling guilty about not going now….  I feel like I should just go now but I really need to study for my pharmacology class. 

What are some things I can do to get excited about tracking points again?  What can I do daily to stay positive and committed to getting healthy?  Well, I am going to think on my mood and will update when I have some more info about cause of my mood and what I will do to get back to Rockin’ my plan. 

Thanks for listening!

Hey there everyone…. 

I just feel soooo hungry again today!  I don’t know why….  I Just feel like I could eat and eat…. I still have 9 points left for they day but I wanted to make dinner tonight so I wanted to stop eating until then… Grrrr

I might just have a bowl of ceral though… It may help the munchies to get in some fiber?  Eh, I don’t know…  I don’t have any flex points left though… My wi is tomorrow. 

It is yucky outside…. I wish it wasn’t so gloomy! 

My back is finally feeling a bit better today though-so that is positive. 

Hello, Hello-

My back is killing me today!  I hate having a back that is prone to pain… I have had problems ever since I was in middle school.  I think due to poor posture and being top heavy…. Well I have been doing weight lifting to build back muscles for about two months now and I can feel the results but I still have days with back pain…. :(  I had hoped that strengthing the muscles would stop the pain.  I guess I just need to stick with it, eh??  I am wearing my posture support brace today to help- it just really hurts.  I am glad it is not a gym day becuase I would probably cry….

I hope your all having a good day!! 

Well, I am here distracting myself from reading in my pharmacology text book…… It is a snooze!  LOL 

I had a great day other than the studying though… The girl I went to a movie with on Friday asked me if I would like to go for a walk on a trail in a nearby park so I did.  My pups and I went with her and we took about a 70 minute walk- mind you it was slow as the chihuahuas are the fastest dogs around but I earned 4 ap’s for that.  Then when I got home my BF and I went to the gym as today is our gym day so I did 35 minutes on the elliptical….  I was sweating bullets!  Then did weight lifting for about 40 minutes….  Today was a good workout day for me!  Oh, I wanted to add a few pics from bowling on Saturday.  Check out all the fun!  LOL  :) 

Hello Everyone-

I am still so excited after making my 5% goal!!  Thanks for all the support.  I really appreciate it.  :)  I am ordering my clothes today as I couldn’t decide what I wanted…. I didn’t want to spend too much and decided to buy my BF a shirt too.  LOL  I think I am going to get him to buy me a food scale for my present.  He said about $20 for a gift my pick.  I have really wanted a food scale because I think I may be under estimating what I am eating- (Lunch meat for a sandwhich anyone?? )  My nephew is coming to spend the day with us…. We are excited cause we like hanging with him.  My boyfriend wants to take him to Chucky Cheese which we like to do or possibly bowling.  I also wanted to take him to park to play if it is nice out- which it seems like it might be.  :)  Either way today will be a fun day!!!  :)  Oh, and yesterday I went out to dinner and a movie with a girl from my pharmacology class.  You may be thinking big deal… but since I moved to this city I have not have any female friends and haven’t hung out with any girls in about a year in a half.  This girl and I have had a few classes together and I thought we might become friends… It was fun, we saw He’s just not that into you….  I cried….That proposal was great! 

Have a great day ladies!

So tonight is WI.  I am feeling pretty confident that I lost at least 1 lb which is what I needed to make my 5% goal tonight.  I need to hit it so I can buy reward of new clothes!  Well, an outfit anyway.  LOL  I would love to be under 220 tonight as my last registered weight was 221.  Keep your fingers crossed ok??

This week on spring break I have been pretty lazy- I have not done any studying!  I did do some laundry and clean the house.  I have also got to spend some time with my BF which is really important to me… He is so busy working on my thesis for master degree that it can be difficult to be together- at least lately.  I finally met his reclusive friend last night!  We have been together over a year and we have never managed to hang out with his friend and friend’s GF.  It was not for a lack of trying on my boyfriend’s part- his friend just always found and excuse to say no!  LOL- I was so suprised when they agreed to go bowling with us.  Then his friend also went to dinner with us- (the GF went home cause she had other friends with her).  Anyway, it was nice meeting him and I didn’t think he was weird like my boyfriend said… he he he

Well, I will wrap this up for now- I wanted to try and do some school work before my BF wakes up.  Today is a gym day for us so I can try out my new pink worktout gloves for weight lifting!  I am totally pumped to use them. 

I will update later after weigh in-

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So the results are in…… :)  I lost 1.6 lbs this week which means I made my 5% goal!!!!!!!!  YIPPIE!!!!!  I am so excited.  :)  My BF said he was going to take me out to celebrate, movie perhaps??  :)  I don’t know yet.  I get to order myself a new outfit as my reward!  I am going to order online from Old Navy… I love that store… Maybe a new spring dress??  Hmmmmmm…..