Trying to get the feeling again…

I am tired.   I had my grandbaby for two days and she is wonderful but life runs a little faster when she is around.  She told me that she loved me very much several times.  She melts my heart with her sweet words and even sweeter voice.  She is my heart.  I can’t imagine life without her and never want to know what it is like.  I am glad I am a young grandma.  I have taken grief over it - that and being a young mom - but you know what, it’s my life.  I only had one child because that is all I could afford on my own and even then, it was a sacrifice but I wouldn’t have traded it for anything.  My daughter is my life and I know she loves me no matter what.  We talk every day and when she was 19 and pregnant, it was okay with me.  My only condition was that she finish college.  And she did.  I remember my mom and my ex husband being horrified when my daughter became pregnant.  What would every one think?  I don’t care.  I think history is full of women who had to be ashamed and had to sneak away and give up or kill babies that society wouldn’t accept.  If I had to choose between a person’s opinion or a child, I would choose the child.  I don’t think women should have to be ashamed and hide.  I do think that we have to be responsible for our decisions and make wise choices.  But not make choices based on what would others think.  I choose to stay away from the others.  I don’t like them any way.  

Any way, my baby must have given me 1000 kisses while she was here and hugged me 1000 times.   Her eyes are as blue as the ocean and in them, you can see love and life.   I love my hubby so much because he loves my girls as much as I do.  He left flowers for her in her room today as well as flowers for me on the counter. 

I subbed second grade a few times this week. Classes I have been to already.  I enjoy it so much.  The kids are amazing in their own way.  Even the difficult ones.  There is a reason they are that way so I try to figure out why and work with them instead of against them. 

Ok, time to go.  The house needs to be vaccumed and dusted.  The dust bunnies always seem to maange to find a way in.

Hugs to you all