It’s Sunday
April 19th, 2009
It’s Sunday. The night I am home alone. Well, unless you count the two kitties that roam the house. Otherwise it is just me. At 44 years old, I am pondering my life and the meaning of everything. Past decisions, future decisions, decisions I never made… I wish I would have had a better grasp on things when I was younger. I wish I would have had parents worth a damn. I think that may have helped. I am not sure. Maybe my daughter will feel the same about me. I don’t know. I know one thing about me, I tend to make decisions based upon how much they will affect other people. The less people affected, the easier the decision. It sucks. Too bad about how I feel. So, I will go on with my life, much as I have. Going forward, learning new things, developing new skills and trying to lose weight. For such an obsessive control freak you would think I would have that dialed in. NOPE! But I do know how to take care of myself and help myself grow. It’s just sad when you realize that John Wayne was just an actor in a movie and Superman never existed and June Cleaver was a television mom and the job at the brewery that LaVerne and Shirley had sucked. Oh reality! That’s why I don’t watch it on tv. I get enough of it daily.
I am greatful for good freinds
I am greatful for my health
I am greatful for my granddaughter and daughter
Every day I will remind myself to be greatful of what I do have.
April 23rd, 2009 at 8:37 am
Hey missy -
You’re right - it’s a rude awakening when you find out that there’s no Santa Claus and that you can’t ever ‘go back’ to the way things used to be (when they’re good). Like you, I often reflect on my life and it always leaves me bummed out. But like you, I think about how I want it to be (raising a child with love) - doing things differently than what I had when I grew up. I think that’s what fuels us to ‘do better’ and have someone think of us with a warm feeling rather than an empty one.
We’re only human and can do the best we can….we’re gonna make mistakes but we’re gonna recover from them. But we’re sensitive about how others feel and that will help guide our decisions. WE’ve just got to not forget ourselves in those decisions
Love ya
xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo
May 4th, 2009 at 9:08 pm
What’s shakin Bobbie girl? What’s new and exciting over there?
xo
May 10th, 2009 at 8:52 am
Happy Mama’s Day Bobbie Girl….
Love ya
sweets!!!!
xoxooxoxoxoxoxo
May 11th, 2009 at 3:24 am
How was Hawaii my friend?
May 13th, 2009 at 9:44 pm
Better get your tail back here Ms. Bobbie.
WTF?!
I’m gonna meet your challenge (gulp) or at least try as hard as hell to do it.
Luv ya
xoxoxoxo
May 22nd, 2009 at 8:04 am
Hey ya Bobbie Girl.
Whatcha up to?
xoxoxooxox
June 3rd, 2009 at 12:02 am
Yooohoooo Bobbie, where are u?
June 4th, 2009 at 7:10 pm
Whatcha up to ms. bobbie cakes?!
xo
June 14th, 2009 at 4:28 pm
Hiya Ms. Bobbie
xo
June 21st, 2009 at 9:28 am
Hey ya Bobbie girl
come back now ya hear?!
xoxooxxooxoxxoox