Trying to get the feeling again…

That’s right.  I have no voice.  I have sneezed and coughed and drained myself into losing my voice.  It’s okay.  I don’t really need to talk and people tend to leave you alone when you can’t talk.  I went to the store today in search of a bed lounger pillow.  Have been looking for this certain one for days.  I need to sleep sitting up so I don’t choke on my own mucas.  Sorry for being gross - it happens.  I finally found it.  I get obsessive about things I really want.  Maybe because I don’t shop a lot so when I do, I am focused.  I went shopping ugly with no make up, watery eyes, red nose and sweats and a t shirt.  I looked like shit and at this moment in life, I don’t care - I found the pillow!  I am going to change my bed and try it out.  I am so tired for lack of sleep.  But I have been reading a lot and I have put more stuff on line to sell.   It’s better than a garage sale.  Mostly because at a garage sale I usually end up giving stuff away.  I feel so sorry for people.  My thought is that I don’t want it so I should give it to the first person who looks at it.  AND I like to make sure I have cute bags to put their things in so I save all those cute store bags.  I am a sucker.

Life still is what it is.  But I will make it turn around the way I want it to.  I always do.  I just hate doing the work.   I need a facial and massage.  and a pedicure. and some good sex.  (did I say that?!)  LOL! 

Love to all of you.