I hate being fat! March 4, 2008
There I said it! I hate it hate it hate it! It’s so depressing sometimes. Most of the times. Blah!!!! I hate that I let myself get this far gone. I hate looking fat, being fat. I hate the fat stomach thing that hangs down. I hate losing weight and still being fat. Yes, I AM complaining, bitching, whining, bellyaching, whatever you want to call it. I am just trying to do what I can NOT become overwhelmed. And I feel like this AFTER yoga. Imagined how I felt BEFORE yoga.
What triggered this? I had to watch my video of me teaching. I HATE looking at me.
Done - now I am going to take a shower. And drink some water. Oh joy!
Go onnnnn tell us how you REALLY feel heh heh heh. One time I was working alone and I glanced up at the monitor and wondered who the fat old lady in the shop was. Only me. sigh