I am done with diets

Okay, I have never blogged before. I am completely new to this and all my online buddies suggested I do it. I chose I am done with diets because about 2 weeks ago, I basically had had it. I found myself 30 more pounds to the bad and generally sick of everyone. In short, I was jaded. I am talking really pissed too, the goldfish ticked me off. Everything was wrong in my world, everything I ever did came down to one moment for me. I walked from my bedroom to the kitchen and became short of breath. I have never in my life been so out of shape, so heavy and so down on myself. Immediately following this moment, I receive a phone call from a good friend (all of size 5) and she starts making excuses for me about my weight and then tells me how she is over weight. I snapped. I begin yelling at her, I am not talking about 5 pounds. I am talking about 70 pounds and you cannot tell me it is okay, I look like hell, I feel like hell and I don’t need to hear this crap right now. The recent addition of 30 pounds from my broken back last summer didn’t help my Drama. I feel justified in my screaming. So I head to the Chiropractor for my weekly fix up (thinking if he can feel my back bone through all the fat). I look at his amazingly beautiful and YES, thin, Secretary. “how are you?” she asks. Is this the wrong day to ask that? Well I tell her, I don’t sugar coat it either, I dump it all out. My chiropractor’s mouth was on the ground as well. He fixes me up and tell me about how she loses this weight a few years ago and never put it back on. SO… I again go to her… Hey, what did you do? She fills me in. It is not a diet though?

I say that because you think of it, I have been on it. All of them. I think that the diet industry is crap. I have eaten NO CARBS, Points, Core, Good Carbs, Count the calories, Veggie, Grapefruit… I could go on and on…I could never find that one diet that I could stick with. Everything comes back as soon as I go off it. INFURIATING.  So I am going to shoot for this Non Diet. For myself personally, the rest do not work for me. But seeing a woman who pulled the pounds off and didn’t diet, but actually kept the weight off show me a lifestyle change. She is a testimony to me. I do not have to look at pics, I know this one. I waited too, I had my first class on Thursday, interesting for sure, I will get to that.

I waited for her class on this “non diet - lifestyle change.” I did however drop the sugars (all sugar that I could read about and know) the week prior to the class. I did not go work out excessively, I waited for a plan. I am patient at this point because I am at Rock Bottom for this weight thing. I cut the sugar at her suggestion. I waited. As desperate as I was, I waited.

I go to class, My hubby goes with. We sit down and there are 4 of us. One lady looks at me and tells me she has been doing it for 8 weeks and lost about 37 pounds.  I am shocked, but hopeful. That is more than 1/2 of my goal weight. I read over this material and am still reading. The big shockers are no sugar, plenty of veggies and lots of water, go figure. The real shocker was the 7 day “cleanse” I am now doing to prep my body and detoxify it for the weight loss process. It works too and I didn’t have to buy a $50 cleanse kit. All organic an natural. I do like that.

She tells me I will be working out 2 times a day. Can I make this commitment? I make this commitment, I am dying here~and Why not, nothing else has worked, and she tells me that I will only be walking 30 minutes a day 2 times a day for the “cleansing” period of this Non Diet. This is where I am at now.

So I am done with many things at this point:

1. Diets - this has been a 10 year whirlwind that I am stepping out of. No more, eat this and not this and do this and not that.

2. Friends, thin friends, who are sabotaging me by saying but you look okay, you carry the weight well. You have such a pretty face, you have injuries, you don’t need to lose weight. I am not sure what all that is about, cept’ must be a personal issue with them. I know that my friend who called me - well, all her friends are fat.

3. Killing myself with workouts that go nowhere. I hate plateaus. I had a lady tell me they didn’t exist, but I hit about 165 and all weight loss stops every time. My new “trainer” states this will not happen to me because she knows what to do.

I could go all day, I figure that I better start doing something, my neighbor asked me the other day to join her on a run sometime. I cant run due to the back thing, but WHY IS MY NEIGHBOR SUGGESTING I RUN WITH HER! At least she cares.

SO that is my first rant. I am new to this and do not know if I am doing it right. I just figure I better journal something.

R.