Loosin It… Again

Yesterday I was out running around all day, so I had to make a decision and go somewhere to eat.  I was with my mom and DS#2, so we decided to go to subway.  Of course… the “cheap” side of me wanted to take advantage of the $5 footlong deal and take half the sub home for DS or DH.  What I didn’t count on is that my mom would eat SO slow that I would inhale both halves of my sub without even giving it a thought.  (I don’t think I have ever eaten a whole sub before!)  I had ordered somewhat wisely, a touch of light mayo, just a little bit of shredded cheese, but I did get a BLT so it wasn’t the best choice.  When I got home I looked it up for my log and nearly fell off my chair when I saw how much fat and cals were in the sub!  Mine was modified, so it wasn’t as bad… but it was still pretty bad!  I used half my daily points on that one sub.  Needless to say, I used some of my flex points yesterday.  But I did get a lot of exercise in, so hopefully the two will balance each other out.  Live and learn…  

The weather here was insane yesterday!  We woke up to sunny skies, which were quickly followed by some very angry looking black clouds.  Torrents of rain, sun, more rain, hail, and then sun again.  According to the news, the next two days are going to be more of the same, but the weekend is supposed to be nice.  I really need some nice weather so I can finish up my planter boxes and get my new plants in the ground before they die! 

Today is normally my day to go to the barn, but my mom has had the flu so our schedule is a bit off this week.  I will still go, but take DS#2 with me.  Hopefully he will sleep while I get a quick ride in.  I need to get our pony in shape, because I am going to be swapping horses with a friend for a few months.  She is going to take my pony and get her trained to cart and I am going to take her Thoroughbred and get her back in shape for dressage.  Unfortunately, the pony is so fat that the farrier asked when she was “due,” as in pregnant!  LOL… I guess she needs to go on a diet too! 

Well time to get the kid up for school.  Have a great Thursday ladies!

One of the projects that I have been wanting to do is make a planter garden.  We have a huge yard, but it really isn’t set up for doing a garden.  But our deck gets a lot of sun and will be perfect for some planter boxes to grow fresh veggies.  I have already started some planter gardens, but I would love to expand that garden.  DH went to the hardware store and picked me up some cedar 2×6x10 and I am going to make 2 6″ deep beds.  I won’t be able to plant any root veggies, but I can plant lots of other veggies.  Hopefully we can get those done this weekend, as our window of planting is quickly shrinking.  My poor broccoli starts are starting to protest their tiny little pot.

Food has been okay this week.  I have been charting my points and avoiding the scale.  After yesterdays fiasco, I have decided that I will only weigh every few days but officially record it on Friday.  I have set some goals, that I think are realistic and should be attainable (2lbs a week for the first month).  I need to ease into this and not get completely obsesive compulsive about the whole process.

Well I better run… I have to take our car in to have some warranty work done.  Have a great hump day ladies!

Morning Ladies!  I am trying to get into a groove and make this part of my morning habit again.  DS#2 is sitting in his high chair throwing strawberries to the dogs…so this may be quick. ;-)  I got on the scale this morning, and the stupid thing said I gained 6 pounds in 24 hours!  I got on it a few minutes later and it said that I miraculously lost 5 pounds in 2 minutes!  Wow… at that rate of loss I will meet my goal in no time! 

I got a visit this weekend from two of my old college roommates.  One I have remained in contact with the other I have not seen since my own wedding.  She fell off the map, got married and had a little girl.  Some other friends found her on FB.  (LOL… big surprise!)  We all arranged to get together on Sunday for lunch.  It was great seeing them, but it was hard.  My close friend is actually in better shape than she was in college.  She is NEUROTIC about her food intake and she is very protective of what her daughter eats.  (I think she actually borders on the opposite side of being healthy.)  But she looks great, feels great, and loves to exercise.  My friend that we “lost” looks really good too.  She was always very athletic and slim.  She has a bit of a belly from having her daughter, but nothing like the weight that I am carrying around. 

When I avoid the mirror, pictures, and actually confronting my body; I don’t have any problems with how I look.  (LOL… cause I can’t see it!)  But I know that I need to make the change.  My goals are modest.  I have no expectation of running around in a bikini… I don’t want to weigh a “buck twenty five”…  I would be ecstatic to comfortably fit my butt in size 12.  I think a good healthy weight at this point in my life would be 140-145.  Based upon BMI, 141 would make me “healthy.”   

So I just need to remained focus on my health and eating and keep it foremost in my mind.  I got my WW spreadsheet out and will begin to follow it again.  I am still breast feeding, but it really doesn’t seem to matter.  I don’t get the “bump” in calories from breast feeding because my metabalism is so dang slow.  So I set it up for the normal weight loss.  My son is finally drinking milk, so he doesn’t need me for all his vitamins and nutrients.  (Plus he eats quite well!)  I actually hope to “wean” him soon.  At 18 months… he will be done.  So he has 4 more months, and then I am reclaiming my body. 

Well ladies have a great day!

So I have been an absentee fat chick since they elimated our journals.  LOL… I am still a FC though!  So even though I have been absent, it has not been forgotten. 

It is kind of funny, my life is on track in so many ways.  But when it comes to my body and my eating, it is still like a run away freight train.  Ever since I had the Mirena IUD, my weight has continued to creep higher and higher.  I am still slightly lower than my all time high, but it is within a few pounds.  THAT is very frustrating. 

Food is still a problem.  I don’t know if I am an emotional eater, overeater, or both.  I am also convinced that I could survive off of 500 cals a day.  I don’t keep junk in the house… most of it is reasonable, lots of fruit, veggies, and some crackers for the kids.  When I am at the grocery store, I have great restraint.  I can’t put any “crap” in my cart, but sometimes when I am out running around I get the overwhelming urge to eat crap.  So I’ll swing by and get a cheeseburger or chicken strips.  I wish the resolve and comittment that I have at home and the grocery store would translate and carry over into other parts of my life.

I feel really good that I have bestowed good eating habits on my kids.  My eldest eats great!  He is super active, hates sugar, and is very conscientous about what he puts in his mouth.  And he has no “guilt” issues!  I love food and I hate it at the same time.  It is a truly unhealthy relationship we share. 

Exercise could ALWAYS be better.  I ride my horses three times a week, but I have yet to find a way to balance exercise with having a toddler full time.  I know many who don’t have kids don’t understand that difficult challenge, but you get absolutely NO time to yourself.  I bought a series of Pilates videos, and anytime I get down on the mat he climbs all over me, pulls my hair.  If I go down stairs, he sits at the top of the stairs screaming.  During his nap time, I have essential household chores to do that I can’t do when he is awake and into everything.  Sometimes I think it would be GREAT to have a nanny.  LOL…. that just isn’t in my budget.

Well ladies… lets see if third, fourth, fifth, or sixth time is the charm! 

I can’t believe that it is already half way through November!  Time flies when you are having fun!  So Renee and I are back on the bandwagon.  Although truth be told, I am not really feeling very motivated.  I am behaving, but I am not being “good.”  It seems like I am always on a diet or being overly conscious of my eating around the holidays.  I guess that is a good thing, because if I went whole hog I would have a lot more weight to lose!

It has been a crazy week.  The car that I have been driving, our Tahoe had the heater coil go out.  Ended up iwth anti freeze ALL OVER the front carpet.  Took that it to get fix, decided to drive our minivan that has been sitting around collecting dust.  The brakes were seized, had to take THAT in.  Then DH goes to check on his daily commuter car, front end was shaking.  They tell him he needed all new tires, bearings, and shocks.  OMG… we have spent almost $3k at the mechanic this week.  And that doesn’t include MY car getting fixed.  My car sheared off an engine mount last winter and is still sitting in our driveway out of fear of the repair bill.  The problem with having tons of vehicles is that you have to maintain and fix tons of vehicles.

Okay… back to weight loss… So far I have lost 5 pounds in two weeks.  Sounds great, but in reality it is just getting rid of some water retention from being sick.  I know that I haven’t earned that loss.  Need to get busy so that I can get to a weight that I can live with.  I am also trying to revise my expectations to determine what that healthy weight is????  Have you asked yourself that?  The older I get the more I realize that my expectations to get back into size 6 pants are NOT gonna happen!  Time to figure out what size,shape, etc can I accept.  I THINK that the new target number is 150 and I would be THRILLED to be a size 12.  (If you told me 15 years ago that I would love to be that size, I would have told you that you were NUTS.)  But I think this tummy has been stretched to it’s max with two kids, too much fat, to go back to being small.

Well ladies… I hope everyone is doing well.  Miss you all….

Hi ladies!  I hope everyone is doing well.  It seems like a lot of us journal chicks have abandoned the blogs.  So sad!  Things are going well here.  I decided to try journalling on the Chicks website on FB.  I miss having an easy place to go where I can just log on and see everyone right there!

Tomorrow starts the end to a busy week.  This morning DS had  a play at school  OMG.. it was just a little skit but he did so well.  He had lines in front of the whole school… and whenever he said his lines (he was alittle mouse) the whole school would crack up laughing.  So Proud!  Tomorrow he has a Halloween party at school.  Mom has agreed to watch Austin so that I can go.  I am going to dress up and the whole NINE yards! 

This Saturday, the town near us is having their hometown Halloween, with a costume contest, Pumpkin Carving Contest, and Pumpkin Pie bake off.  I always enter a pie…this year I am doing a Pumpkin Streudle and a pumpkin pie from Paula Dean’s cookbook.  Definitely not figure friendly.  The fact that that woman doesn’t wiehg 800 lbs escapes me!  The recipe calls for cream cheese, BUTTER, HALF AND HALF, and egg yolks.  LOL… cook off is the perfect time to make that pie, cause none of it will be at my house!

Then there is a horse show Sunday.  My friend wants us to take our filly (young female horse), but I don’t think I will have the energy.  So we will see how that goes.

Well ladies… I hope all is well!  Take care of yourself!

Hi there,

I don’t get here much anymore.  FB seems to be easier.  But I do miss everyone!  I wish we had a forum similar to the journals.  It is a big part of my day that I miss terribly.  Things are going horrible on the weight front.  I got my Mirena implant four months and quickly started gaining weight.  I thought it was a change in my milk supply and over eating.  Then my hair started falling out.  I was more concerned about my hair rather than weight, so I did some research.  There are THOUSANDS of complaints about women losing their hair and gaining 15-20 pounds instantly on this implant.  I am soooo mad!  I was actually seizing the day and loosing weight, and once I got that thing put in.. BAM!  I hit a brick wall.  Then I got frustarted and went back to my old ways.  So… I am back at pre-preggo weight.  Feel HORRID because I am loosing my hair and gaining weight again.  It is really hard to get motivated.  DH is going to get snipped… but until then I have to leave it in.  It will have to be surgically removed, which I hear is very uncomfortable.  It is just soooo depressing that this cycle never seems to end.  I am working out and getting lots of exercise, but it seems for not.  I guess if I didn’t get exercise I would be bigger!

On a more upbeat front… kids are doing well.  Austin is CRAWLING!  Cam loves school, but likes to say he hates it.  I guess it isn’t cool to like school when you are in 2nd grade.  DH is working a lot, but he seems to like it.  I am not workign at all… and I hate it!  LOL… not made out to be a stay at home.  I hate all the work involved with keeping the house neat and orderly. 

Well ladies… those of you that are still out there… I hope all is well and htings are going great! HUGS!

Even though I don’t get here to post very often, don’t want to lose all my hard work!  I hope everyone is doing well.  We finished up DS’s second week of school with the cold from hell that has not passed through every family member.  DS#2 included.  It has been a lot of sleepless nights, as he doesn’t like to lay flat and he prefers to be held the whole time.  I was the last to get the crud, so I am in the heat of it right now. 

Not too much else to report.  I did finally get a small job, so next week I will have to work on a report.  It will be a tough one… but I will get paid so it doesn’t matter at this point.  Baby is crying… I better go!  Have a great Monday ladies!

DS started second grade today!!!!  It was a joyous occassion.  LOL… I’ll miss him but he was really difficult this summer.  So it will be a nice break.  Trying to get some stuff done around the house, but I wanted to check is and say “hello.”  We are painting the deck, which is turning out to be quite the project.  Hopefully I will get it done before the rain hits this fall.  Hope all is well with everyone!

HI ladies…  I have to do this fast.  DS #2 is getting tired of being in his high chair and is telling me ALL ABOUT IT!  Had a good weekend.  It was family day at DH’s work.  I am not kididng you… 20,000 people must have descended on that place… it was mayhem.  We walked and walked and walked and walked, and still didn’t even see half the stuff.  Finally DS#1 lost it and we had to leave.  But it was a good workout. 

Right now I am getting ready to prep the deck to be stained.  LOL… that is why I am on the computer!  I reallyam not looking forward to the task.  OK… full blown crying now… better go…  I hope everyone is well!  School starts next Tues…   YEAH!!!!!!