Loosin It… Again

Sun is finally shinning… but unfortunately my mood is somewhat glum.  I am just getting very wore down with all of the stuff that I need to take care of and I guess somewhat resentful that I just can’t take four months off to enjoy the new baby.

It is my own fault, and I have no one to blame but myself.  Also everything is going wrong at work.  A motor went out on one of the machines, and the computer is acting up on another.  All the while, I am trying to sell this business to someone and I am freaking out that they will decide to bail at the last minute.  There is nothing but bad news on the tv about the economy, which is also really discouraging.  To make matters go from bad to worse… I just found out that my largest appraisal client got a cease and desist order to quit making loans.  That is a nail in the coffin for them… so time to find a new client.  Better yet… I need to find a bunch of new clients.  I hate being beholden to one company.

Baby boy is still spitting up a lot.  I need to make a doc appt.  We have been giving him mylecon, but it doesn’t seem to be helping.  He seems like he is really uncomfortable and I feel bad for him.  He spit up an enormous amount this morning!  I can’t believe he is keeping any of it down, but he has lots of wet and poopy diapers and he continues to gain weight and thrive.  So I know he is not starving.

He just got a bath and he smells so sweet.  He is sitting on my lap watching me type.  So I may have to cut this short at any moment.  ;)   On the positive side my weight is down to 179.  So officially 30lbs lost in thre weeks.  LOL… not too bad!!!! 

Hopefully I will get a chance to get caught up with everyone.  I haven’t set up my blog roll thingy… I think I need some help.

I hope everyone is having a wonderful spring day!

I find that it is much harder to make it to the blogs than to the journals for some reason.  I don’t know why.  I really wish they would reconsider our impending termination. 

Things have also been insanely busy.  Trying to train new people to run the machines, sell the business, balance the check book, and generally keep my wits about me just seems like a chore. 

I miss catching up with everyone.  I hope all is well.  The boys are both doing great.  DS#1 still adores DS#2… DS#2 still has a gas bubble in his belly and is spitting up a lot.  I am making twice as much milk to keep him fed because he is always hungry.  I actually have run out of milk a couple of times when the spitting up is really bad.  I hope my supply can catch up.

Well… I have a baby crying.  Have a great Monday!

Morning… almost afternoon!  Today DS#2 had a doc appt, his two week check up and DS#1 has a conference.  They are back to back, so the doc office better be on time.  I think DS#2 has a cold.  They told us, “Don’t let him get sick the first month.”  But what can you do when DS comes home sick from school and then you get it too.  He isn’t running a fever but he has runny eyes and he just seems a little lethargic.  He is still “spitting up” a lot, if you can call it that.  Often times he looks like a milk fountain.  Not sure if he is getting too much or if he is having problems.  He also has the runs today… oh the joys of motherhood.  I remember all of my single friends being totally grossed out about mommy talk which is dominated by all kinds of bodily functions… then they had kids!  LOL… sometime you just DON’T have anything better to talk about. 

Still in limbo on the sale of the business.  I am hoping that something pans out soon, because I am running myself ragged right now.  I am truly exhausted.  At the end of the day, all I want to do is crawl in bed.  But of course I can’t.

Well ladies… I better go.  I’ll be back tonight to try and seek out everyone’s entries.  Still not adjusting well to the blogs.  Have a great weds!!!!

A friend sent me this and I thought of all you chickies with your personal trainers.  Enjoy!  Hope you have a great day!

Weekend was incredibly uneventful.  I was basically a big sloth.  I just cuddled up in the oversized arm chair with ds and finished a book I had started reading when I was in labor and watched the tv all weekend.  I feel like I wasted 48 hours of my life.  Oh… I did go to the barn and put the horses away and brushed them.  My baby horse… has grown so much!  I can’t believe it.  DS pony was very loving and I think she is desperately missing attention.  I am hoping that next week I can start working with them again.  Austin remained in the car where it was cozy and warm.  I have a baby monitor that runs off batteries so I can hear if he fusses or cries.  Kind of nice.  Once the weather gets better, he can come out into the barn with us.  But it is still just tooo coooollld!

DS has conferences this week.  So it is half days… next week is spring break.  All of this could not have come at a worse time as I am trying to sell this business.  But… that is life.

I hope you all had a great weekend!

I am here… better late than never… right!  So today was kind of a wild day.  I guess I better back track and start with Thursday.  DS#2 did great with his circ procedure.  Thankfully I didn’t have to stay in the room.  The doc said that he didn’t cry at all, well at least until I walked in the room.  His mommy sense is well developed!  We gave him some tylenol every four hours, and he never had a major melt down.  I just made sure he had as much mommy milk as he wanted and lots and lots of rest.  The doc thought he might be kindof fussy at night, but he was fine.  I could tell he wasn’t totally normal, but he was able to be comforted.

I also got a chance to talk with the doc about the delivery.  He told me that I was very lucky he wasn’t a home birth, because he wouldn’t have survived.  I thought the delivery was five minutes, but it was more like 2!  There wasn’t even time for a c-section… so luckily all the stars were in alignment and someone was looking over us that day.  Anytime DH thinks about it he starts to tear up, I think we both are having a hard time getting the image of his limp grey body out of memory.  Okay… enough of this… now I am tearing up!

Today I had to send him off to be with gma for a few hours.  It was my first time away from him, and my body protested.  He wasn’t there for his feeding, but it proceeded without him. 

Turns out I have two people interested in our company… but no one has committed.  I have to get that taken care of this week, because being in limbo is driving me nuts!  The neighbors that are adjacent to our building at work caught wind that we are selling, and they decided to put the pressure on.  So they called our landlord and told him that if they couldn’t get our spot in the next month that they are leaving.  So he was in a panic, called my house, my cell, my MOM, dh’s cell.  I was so irritated, that I just unplugged the phone.  It was 8pm… I was dealing with a baby fresh off a surgery and I didn’t want to deal with it.  Then the same neighbors hired one of our employees that runs our machines and told him if he didn’t start immediately that they would offer the job to someone else.  So he left with NO notice… totally ticked me off because it is all a ploy to get us to move.  Kind of makes me want to stick it out… but not really! 

All of this is an attempt to strong arm us into either going out of business or leaving.  They basically talked to everyone but me to find out what was going on.  If he had had the courtesy to speak with me he could have saved himself a lot of time and worry.

I am really looking forward to this weekend, and I am hoping that I don’t have to unplug my phone again to avoid all the drama.

Well DS is crying, so I better get going.  Have a great weekend everyone!

LOL… it is always something.  My blog has no admin functions.  Does anyone know how I easily can rectify this, as I don’t have a lot of time to mess with it. 

Okay… so a quick post here and then I will post it on the blog as well.  DS#2 goes in for his circumcision today.  I am dreading this appt so much!  He was sitting on my tummy cooeing and smiling and I thought… in a few hours you are going to be so mad at me!!!!  I hope it isn’t too painful and that they can load him up with some pain killers.  I can’t stand to see the little ones in pain.  DS#1 is still home sick.  He has a fever and horrible cough.  He wants to hold his bro… but I can’t let him that is sad too!

Things at work are piling up with things that only I can do… yet I can’t find a block of time big enough in the day to get it done.  I haven’t talked to the prospective buyer, and I just don’t feel like talking with him.  If I had my way I would sell the company to the employees, but they are all broke.  So that isn’t going to happen.  I just want to wash my hands of everything and get a fresh start! 

At my surgical consult yesterday they confirmed that I have indeed lost 26lbs.  I told dh and he is just fascinated by this.  He wants to know if I feel any different.  Duh… I don’t have a big baby in my belly!  I feel A LOT different!  But the swelling is down, so I can actually open my eyes, put my feet in shoes, and put my rings on.  So things are getting back to normal.  I would love to milk this for another 26 pounds.  LOL… no pun intended!  We will see.  If I am dilligent, behave myself, I may actually be successful this time!

Well ladies… baby is crying.  Have a great day.  The week is almost over!!!!

Morning Ladies!  I can’t believe it is already Weds!  This week is flying by.  I have an appt this morning for a surgical consult.  DS#1 has a fever so he can’t go to school, but he also can’t be around the baby.  So I have to call my mom to see if she can take him.  She just had catarac surgery yesterday so I hope she can do it. 

The baby has been spitting up a lot lately.  I know he is getting enough food because he has lots of poopy and wet diapers, but it is a little bit concerning and I will talk to the doc about it tomorrow.  He was making lots of noises last night like he was uncomfortable, but he never cried.  I am hoping he was just being noisy.

I finally found a breast pump and pumped some milk last night.  DH got to feed him for the first time, and the little guy drank 3 oz in record time.  Then he wanted mom for more.  So I think he may just be overeating.  LOL… I guess it runs in the family!  He hates his pacifier, so he uses me as his pacifier and gets too much food.

I made a bunch of sugar cookies with royal icing in bright spring colors to take to the hospital to give to the nurses and doctor to show our appreciation.  I doubt the nurses get thanked very often… and I am really thankful for all that they did.  I am a little bit embarrassed to do it… but I want to do something special for them.

Well… baby is getting fussy.  Better get this posted and start the day!  Have a great one ladies!

I don’t have a lot of time for the blog… today anyway.  Back at work for a half day.  I have so much stuff to get caught up on that it is overwhelming.  Can’t the world just come to a screeching halt because I had a baby!  Everyone is doing well, except both boys didn’t want to sleep last night.  DS#1 woke up crying a couple of times with nightmares and DS#2 just wanted to make faces at me through most of the night.  No crying… just wide awake and being very cute.  You can’t sleep through that!

My weight today is 183… down FIVE POUNDS from last Friday!  Austin’s weight is up over ONE pound!  Is that possible in one week?  So he is now 9 pounds 2 ozs.  (That is with clothes and a diaper… but I figure whatever is in the diaper was once in him… so it was just a matter of timing!)

Well… I am off to run more errands.  I hope everyone is doing well.  I feel very disconnected.  I haven’t read anyone’s blogs lately.

Have a great Monday!

Afternoon ladies.  I am here a bit late today.  I had to actually put in an honest “half-day” of work today!  :P  I was MIA yesterday because we took Austin to meet Grandma and Grandpa on the penninsula.  It was a 3 hour commute each way and he was a perfect angel.  Now… big brother… different story.  I realized that I really miss the age when they “CAN”T” talk!  Grandma and Grandpa were sufficiently pleased and did the appropriate oowww and ahhhhs!

We had to take the kids there because FIL is still in the rehab/nursing home.  Girls… let me tell you… take care of yourself now while you can because that place was filled with elderly and middle aged people that had not taken care of themselves and it was a sad sight!  People go there to recover from heart surgery, diabetes complications, etc…  They are just a shell of person.  Definitely an excellent motivator to get myself in shape now while I can.

This weekend is looking to be a quiet one.  So far… no one is comming over but that of course could change at a minutes notice.  I got on the scale today… after my juice I weighed 188.  So that is 19 pounds down in one week!  Not too bad!  Those are Biggest Loser numbers!  My short term goal is to be 175 by the time I have my post-partum appt.  That is five weeks away.  I am still quite puffy so I think I am still holding on to quite a bit of water weight.  Hopefully within the next week that will be gone.

Well ladies… little one is getting hungry.  Have a great weekend!  See you Monday!!!!