I guess all of my transgressions caught up with me. Scale is reporting up almost a pound from last week. GRRRRR…. It is my fault. But it is still frustrating. WHY WHY WHY is this so hard for me? A friend is trying hypnosis… if it works for her I am going to bust down their door and get myself hypnotized! I hear all the time, that WHEN I want it bad enough I will find the willpower to succeed. I want it really bad. I am tired of feeling like a fat frump, but it is so discouraging when little tiny slips mean the difference between a loss of 1lb and a gain of 3lbs or when I limit myself to a 1300 cal diet and exercise 4 times a week and I only lose 1lb.
I am also convinced that the research as to how many calories make a pound is a bunch of bull#$*@! I have written down everything that has gone in my mouth, and I don’t discount for calories out (exercise) … so why is a calorie increase of 500 result in a 1 pound weight gain?
I think we still have a lot to learn about the bio-physical aspects of food and weight loss. My sis, who eats SOOOOOO BAD can lose weight simply by elminating ONE of her fast food meals of the day. While still eating her other two meals at McDs. We weigh the same… I eat egg beaters and lean ham, she eats a Sausage Egg McMuffin, I eat a turkey sandwich on whole grain no mayo, no cheese, She eats a Quarter Pounder with Cheese and fries, for dinner I eat grilled chicken breast with low cal low fat balsamic salad, she eats tuna fish casserole smothered in cheese and crumbled potato chips. SHE MAINTAINS… I MAINTAIN. Tell me how could this BE if weight loss is ALL about cals in… cals out? I have more lean muscle mass than her… I SHOULD burn more cals than her?
Sorry… it is just frustrating. Now physically, I could kick her a$$. I have buns and thighs of steel from riding several hours a week. My arms are rock hard, my stomach is still made of jello but even when I was “thin” my tummy was soft and squishy. Having children have not helped my stomach at all. My mom watches both of us and just shakes her head. My sis SHOULD weigh 500lbs… I SHOULD weigh 150. It is very discouraging.
Am I doing as much as I “can?” No… I could workout 2 hours every day, reduce my cal consumption to almost NOTHING and I would likely lose more weight. But can I LIVE that way? NO! Whatever lifestyle I choose to embark on must be maintainable and enjoyable. I don’t want to be a slave to losing weight. It already consumes way more of my time and mental energy than I care to admit. What I am doing right now… should be enough! I am within my flex and bonus points every week… I work out vigorously four hours every week. ?????
Okay… I am done venting for now. I was also discouraged watching TBL last night and seeing how many of the past contestants have failed. Sure they had great losses when they were in a “competion” but once they got back into the real world, they reverted to their same old habits. Only two of the contestants actually looked like they were within 20lbs of their finale weight. The other two, were back to being obese. It is a viscous cycle.
Well ladies… have a great hump day! Back to the grind……