Diet Daze

Well, tonight did NOT go well…I had well laid plans, but then they brought over pizza…didn’t eat it at first, but then I got hungry…and that’s when i have trouble, when I’m genuinely hungry.  Here’s one for you calorie counter, Laura– and you were so right about not making cookies, but did I listen?  No, I thought I could handle it.  Boy, was I wrong.  This just shows me that i definitely do still have a food addiction there.  It’s kind of scary, really, since I really thought I’d come a long way in mastering the art of portion control, even if I was cheating.  I think I’ve been leading up to a problem lately, and this was definitely it!

Breakfast: MRC cheesecake, HNS

Lunch:  bar, HNS

Dinner:  3.5 pieces mad mushruoom sausage pizza (didn’t eat crusts), 1 piece cheesy bread (no crust), 6 (yes, SIX!!) chocolate chip cookies (they were small, at least– 80 calories each). 

I completely lost control, and I feel so awful about it now (not overstuffed awful, just totally regretting it).  On top of that, we were trying on costumes, and I was having some major difficulty with the belt and realized that I am about the same size as a friend who I thought was bigger than me– I suppose that shouldn’t  bother me a great deal, but it does kind of make me feel fatter.  This has just not been a good day.  So, the plan for tomorrow is to start fresh, get on the treadmill so I at least burn a bit of it off, make a good plan for the rest of the day and the coming week, and hope that it doesn’t slow me down too much.  Starting Monday I’m going to do the metaquick plan (shake for breakfast, bar for lunch, normal MRC dinner), which is supposed to speed up the process a bit, so hopefully that will help.  I’m just hoping I’m not too hungry on it, because, again, that’s when I have my worst problems.  Talk about a bad week– slow scale and two major cheats– yikes!  I’m sure I’ll be seeing the results of my little indiscretion on the scale tomorrow morning…

weight at home (before the big pizza catastrophe): 188.5

Well…..today didn’t go all that well.  I think the problem started when I went to WI and had only lost 1 lb. despite weigh ins being a little slow lately.  I had been perfect, so I was expecting a greater loss, and it was a bit of a disappointment.  Then I went home and because I was a little down, I decided I didn’t want to put the energy into making lunch, so I had a fourth bar for the week (only supposed to have 3), and I had the wafer kind, too, which have extra carbs, so I felt a smidge guilty about that.  Then, when I eat bars, I’m always a bit hungrier for dinner, and I knew I had a class lasting till 9, so I took a drink with me to have as a snack.  Well laid plans, but when I went into the grad lounge to read, there was free food…and yes, I was hungry since it had been about 5 hours.  So, at least I didn’t get any of the sweets, but it certainly was not on my menu.  I’m not really hungry now, though, so I won’t be eating another dinner, and I’m just having an extra drink.  Hopefully it doesn’t do too much damage, but now I’m super disappointed, so I need to try to let it go so it doesn’t get me down.  I”m thinking of making chocolate chip cookies (slice and bake) tomorrow because some people are coming over, and I feel like I should have a snack.  Usually, I would be able to withstand the temptation, but considering I strayed today, I don’t know if that’s a good idea.  Normally I get right back on, but I’m kind of sensing a bit of rebellion in myself for some reason.

Breakfast: MRC cheesecake, HNS

Lunch: chocolate wafer bar (these are delish, just like dessert, and you can’t tell they’re sugar free), HNS

Dinner: 10 ritz crackers, 3 oz. cheese, 15 pepperoni slices, broccoli with no dip– could have been worse, I suppose, but still more calories than I normally get.

Snack: HNS

MRC weight: 195.5 (down 1 lb. since Monday)

weight at home: 189.5– finally below the 90s, and it corresponds with my 1 lb. loss at MRC.  Maybe I should just focus on that number.

Today went well.  I was going to wear these black pants that just fit a bit snug 3 weeks ago– I can’t even wear them anymore because they’re too big.  They’re not forgiving size wise because there are no belt loops, so there’s no way to really keep them up if they’re too big.  I’ve worn them twice since I bought them.  Oh well.  I’m glad they’re too big, but now I have no black pants, so that stinks since they’re kind of a necessity in the working world.  I feel as if I’m getting thinner by the feel of my clothes, but it’s not showing up on the scale this week.  Maybe it’s still water or something.  I drank a lot to day (new water bottle that works very well), so maybe I’ll show a loss tomorrow.

Breakfast: MRC cheesecake, HNS

Lunch: bar, HNS

Snack: HNS– I knew it would be a while before I could eat again

Dinner: 2 oz. grilled chicken on 1/4 wrap (25 cal), 1 oz. cheese, 4 oz. broccoli, 2 melba toast (20 cal), HNS

weight at home: 190.5– still not budging.

Today went well.  I persevered and ate my veggies tonight, even though I didn’t want to go through the trouble of packing them (had to work) and then eating them on top of that.  I also avoided some candy traps.  I do need to start doing a better job with my water, though.  I’m just not drinking it all.  Mainly, my current water bottle is disgusting.  My husband left it in his car for months, and it grew nasty stuff.  I washed it several times in the dishwasher, so it is sanitized, I’m sure, but it still has that smell to it– no taste, just a yeasty smell that I’m more and more disgusted by.  So, I’ve decided to buy a new one, but now I’ll have to wait until the weekend when I have time to go get one.

Breakfast: MRC cheesecake (4 oz. cottage cheese, 3 melba toast rounds, 1/4 pudding supplement (20 cal)), HNS

Lunch: bar (150 cal), HNS

Snack: HNS

Dinner: 2 oz. grilled chicken, 1 oz. cheddar, on 1/4 wrap (25)– very yummy.  I’ve been into grilled things lately.  4.2 oz. broccoli, HNS

weight at home: 190.5  I can’t seem to get over this hump.  I had a very heavy shirt on this morning, though, so that could contribute at least a pound, and it was too cold to take it off, so we’ll just see what happens tomorrow.  The wii fit says I’ve lost 1.5 lbs. in 5 days, so that’s slower than normal, but I’m weighing at different times in different clothes, so it’s hard to tell. 

I tried on a couple pairs of 12s tonight.  Most of them lack about 2 inches of closing comfortably.  One pair will close, but it’s not pretty!  So, it will probably be at least another two weeks before I can actually start wearing them.  I think things are progressing nicely, and quickly, too, but every time I’ve been in a size for a while, I start to get antsy to get on to the next.   My 14s are now plenty loose, but of course I’m not quite down to the 12s– at least, I’m not comfortably into the 12s, and I refuse to let myself look like a stuffed sausage…patience.

Well, I was down 1/2 lb. today at weigh in.  It was a bit disappointing, but in reality, I did eat out/cheat just a bit yesterday, so the sodium content if nothing else might have caused me to hold water.  Since I’m on such a low sodium plan, it seems that if I even get just a few milligrams over my normal amount, it causes me to hold water.  Also, I had much heavier jeans, a corduroy jacket, and a belt on….so you never know.  Yes, those are excuses, but they make me feel better.

Breakfast:  cheese toast (1oz. cheddar, 45 cal bread), 1 hard boiled egg white, HNS

Lunch:  bar, HNS

Dinner: Shrimp taco (wonderful!  I used 2 oz. leftover grilled shrimp from last night, 1 oz. cheese, and 1/4 wrap (25 cal), and it was fabulous– I may have to buy some shrimp and make it myself sometime) broccoli, 2 garlic melba toasts (30 cal), HNS

I didn’t get to eat dinner until very late due to some water leakage problems with the house, so I went about 8 hours between meals, which is not good, but it couldn’t be helped.

weight at MRC: 196.5

weight at home: 190.5

So, today presented a myriad of food challenges, beginning with lunch at someone’s house.  Luckily, there was a meat, but not much else that I could eat.  She had roast beef, carrots (too much sugar), corn (too much sugar), green bean casserole (too much junk on it), bread, and other salads (all off plan due to added fat/sugar), and dessert.  So, I ate the meat and a piece of bread, which wasn’t technically OP, but I didn’t eat bread at dinner, so not too bad.

Then, I had to go to Red Lobster with someone.  I got grilled shrimp, double broccoli, a salad with dressing on the side (although I did eat about half of it).  That would have been okay, but the person I was with ordered a fried veggie and calamari platter– and I had a few pieces of each, but it was fried broccoli, and it wasn’t heavily breaded, so it could have been worse.  I also took carb/fat blockers at both meals.  Hopefully they helped.

Breakfast: cheese toast (45 cal bread, 1 oz. cheddar), 1 hardboiled egg white, HNS

Lunch:  Roast Beef (in a crock pot, approx. 4-5 oz.), 1 piece plain white bread, HNS

Dinner:  Grilled shrimp (10 jumbo), 2 oz. broccoli, 5 pieces fried broccoli, 4 pieces fried calamari (small pieces), caesar salad w/ 1 Tbsp. regular dressing and some parmesan (no croutons), about 1 Tbsp. miscellaneous dressing/butter, HNS

So, I did okay, but I’m really hoping this doesn’t make me show a gain or stall me out when I go to WI tomorrow.  I’ll let you know what happens.

weight at home: 190.5 (same as yesterday)

So, I’m now in my smallest pair of 14s…actually, they’re junior 15s, but I put them in this range.  I’ve been kind of waiting on wearing them because I wasn’t thrilled with them a week or so ago.  Tonight I was wearig a sweatshirt, so no issues with stomach roll showing, but once I had worn them for a few minutes, they were just right, even a hair on the big side.  I think I just didn’t have them pulled up right.  Anyway, this is pretty exciting.  Maybe in a week or two I’ll be in my 12s.  I’m already wearing the clothes I wore on my honeymoon, so things are progressing well.

Today went very well.  I even went to Chick fil A with friends and didn’t eat a thing.  I had just had a bar around 6:00 (late lunch because that’s what happens when you don’t get out of bed until noon) when she called and asked if I wanted to go, so it was easy to say I had just eaten.  I really wasn’t very hungry anyway.  It seems like it’s getting easier to avoid things.  It works better for me if I just decide I am not going to have xx, and then I don’t even have to deal with the indecision/how much do I have question when I’m in the situation.  If I waffle on whether or not I’ll let myself have something, I usually do, and I usually have too much.  I didn’t even swipe a fry or a nugget.  Go me!

Tomorrow may be a bit rough.  I’m going to lunch at someone’s house, and I have no idea what will be offered.  So, I’ll take my blockers, hope for the best, and try to do the best I can with my options.  I’m kind of on a roll, so I don’t want to get derailed, especially if what they say about it taking three days to recover from a cheat being true.  On top of that, I have to go out to dinner (Red Lobster, could be worse) with someone, so that could present problems.  Luckily, I’m not tempted at all by their bread because I really don’t like it very well– I would have far more trouble with a yeast bread.  So, I’m going to check out their menu online and decide ahead of time what I’ll have, that way I’m not making a spur of the moment decision when I’m hungry.  I do think I should be able to stay OP there, though.  The only thing I know I’ll cheat on is the salad– I don’t like it with oil and vinegar, and I’m not going to be obvious and bring my own dressing, so I’ll take the blockers again and just eat their caesar dressing, but not much of it.  So, I’m weighing in on Monday, but with tomorrow in the works, I doubt I’ll lose much.  Oh well– at least the rest of the week is looking okay.

Breakfast:  cheese toast (45 cal bread, 1 oz cheddar), 1 hard boiled egg white, HNS

Lunch: Bar (150 cal), HNS

Dinner: 1/2 wrap (45 cal), 1 oz. cojack cheese, 2 oz. turkey taco meat (93/7), creamy HNS

This is a really low calorie day, but I’m surprisingly not hungry– I really think the drinks help out a lot with that, and I’m sure the extra protein helps, too.

weight at home: 190.5– can’t wait till I’m in the 180s- It’s getting close.

Today went well– I avoided the food table at a party.  Yea me!

Breakfast:  cheese toast (1 oz. cheddar, 1 pc. 45 cal bread), 1 hard boiled egg white, HNS

Lunch:  4 oz. roast chicken, 4 oz. broccoli with spray butter and garlic, 1/3 cup pineapple, HNS

DInner:  2 oz. roast chicken, 4 oz. broccoli, 1 oz. cheddar, 1/2 flat out wrap (45 cal), HNS

I’m really proud of myself for not cheating at all at the party tonight.  Surprisingly, it wasn’t that difficult.  I decided beforehand that the only thing I would have is water since it wasn’t a dinner type party where I HAD to eat– and it worked.  It wasn’t even that difficult, and I didn’t feel all that deprived.  Go me!

weight at MRC: 197, net loss 30 lb.

weight at home: 191.5, net loss 35.5 lb.

I’ve now officially lost 30 lbs!!

I’ve lost 1.5 lbs. since Tuesday, bringing me to a grand total of 30 lbs.  When I’m OP and not cheating, I lose about a half pound per day, which I’m very happy with.  This brings me to an average loss of 3.2 lbs. per week since I started– not too shabby.

weight on MRC scale: 197

weight at home in morning: 191.5

Things are going well this week.  I’ve moved a TV down in front of my treadmill to replace the “possessed” TV that turns on and off at will, so I exercised for the first time in a while last night.  I was inspired by The Biggest Loser, lol.  I’m not going crazy with working out– just for one episode of friends (about 25-28 minutes), and I’m walking 3 mph on an incline (don’t know how much of one because my treadmill is a bit junky).  I keep my heart rate in the target zone, though, so it’s better than nothing.  I’m going to back to the MWF Sat Sun plan for working out.  Tuesdays and Thursdays are just too long and busy (14 hour days), so I’ll just take those off.

My BMI is now 29.77, which means that I am no longer obese but overweight. :)  That’s a much nicer word.