These were the words of wisdom (or, at least they seem wise to me) that I read on a 3FC post today.  Someone in the MRC forum who had to re-lose the weight again with MRC after gaining it back (she moved overseas and struggled while there) said that the second time around it was much easier because she trusted the process and didn’t “fight it” that time around.

So…what do I take from this?  Basically, I’ve decided to not fight the process.  If I’m supposed to eat a vegetable, I will eat a vegetable and not a fruit instead.  If I’m not supposed to eat cool whip on my MRC pudding, I will not eat cool whip.  I mean, really– how hard is it to follow this diet?  Granted, there will arise situations (like dinner at someone else’s house) where I legitimately have no control, but that is not what’s been slowing me down.  The bigger problem lies in all the little cheats I do on my own that add up to something bigger.

Yes, I should still be losing weight even with the cheating I’ve done, but if I can follow the diet, why not follow it?  I trusted it more at the beginning, and I think I’ve gotten a bit overconfident with the weight I’ve lost thinking I can tweak the program and that I know how to do it better.  While it is my body, their way simply works faster.  For whatever reason, it just does.

All of a sudden that chocolate and the peanuts in my cabinets aren’t sounding nearly as good as they sounded last week.  I only have three more weeks before I start getting some stuff added back in on a regular basis…I can totally do this, and I WILL.

Having said all that…I ate perfectly today.  Even with the workout I did fine.  I was not hungry for most of the day (I am now, but I’m going to live with it since I’ll be in bed soon), so i didn’t even think about having extra calories.  Hopefully I won’t be hungry tomorrow, either.  Tuesday/Thursday seems to go better for me since my workout is at the end of the day instead of the beginning.

I also did not end up going to WI.  It is the first one I’ve missed (except for around the holidays when I was out of town).  I actually intended to go all along, but then I was running late, so I just skipped it.  It was probably for the best since I know I would have showed a gain.  At least this way I can go Friday, and hopefully that will show a step in the right direction. 

For whatever reason– either my newfound determination to finish strong or my new mantra of “just don’t fight it,”– my motivation has returned, and I really think I will be able to pull this out for another few weeks.  In March I’ll start adding foods back in on stabilization, and I should lose 5-7 lbs. over 6 weeks on that.  That means I just need to make it to 151 or 152 before March….probably not going to happen since that would be a loss of 10 lbs. between now and March.  However, I should come close, and I’m okay with that.  I might even lose a bit more since I’m working out so hard, and they don’t really take exercise into account at all– here’s hoping anyway!

weight at home:  163

calories in:  880

workout:  30 min. elliptical at 7 resistance, 10-11 incline  (460 cal), weights–arms and abs (150)

net calories:  270–actually this is kind of a scary low number, but again, I’m trusting the process!