Well, I had a bit of a disastrous weekend.  On Friday I went to an Italian/Valentine themed potluck– so, lots of pasta, bread, and chocolate.  Yummy, of course, but I way overate.  I can’t even begin to count my calories.  I ate normally with the regular food, but I kept sneaking back in and picking at the desserts, so I’m thinking 2,000 calories at least, and that’s probably a very low estimate.

On Saturday, I went out with some girlfriends, and I had a Gyros sandwich, some fried mushrooms with ranch dressing, a few fries, half a chocolate truffle cake (small piece), and a watermelon martini.  However, the embarassing part happened at home– I ate two cookies, a pop tart, some peanuts, and probably something else I can’t remember.  I basically just binged.  I didn’t feel overly stuffed since it was spread out over hours, but still, I’m just kind of embarassed about the whole thing.  I thought I was starting to have some measure of self control, but apparently I’ll still have my moments.  I guess one can’t vanquish all the food monsters in six months.  I’ve had a whole lifetime of letting food control me.  I am doing better, though.  Soon I’ll switch over to calorie counting, and I hope mixing it up a bit will help me stave off the binges– they don’t happen extremely often (maybe one a month if that?), but I get sick of having “off limits” foods.

Anyway, I started my last week of metaquick (this is my last month on their plan), and today I behaved perfectly.  I even ate the spinach, and I’ve cooked dinner for the rest of the week, so I should be all set as long as the hunger from working out doesn’t get to me.  We’ll see how it goes.  I’m ringing in at 980 calories for the day, and I’m not hungry (of course, I didn’t work out today, either), so that’s fabulous.

I’m considering not going to WI tomorrow.  I don’t want to see the scale up, and I don’t want the lecture (they don’t really lecture, but I feel guilty nonetheless when I show them my food journal).  Also, last week I did lose fat acording to the body fat scale (2.5 lbs to be exact), but I only lost 1 lb. for the week.  This was at my gym, though, and they did not do a fat analysis on me at MRC, so all they go by is the scale numbers, which was up 1 lb. for them.  I haven’t missed a WI yet, though, so I probably will end up going, but I really need to just put it in perspective if it’s up.

Regardless, I plan to make this a good strong week.  I have big plans for my workouts/running, and I’m really going to make the effort to plan ahead and not cheat this week.  I just have to remind myself that I only have three weeks left of this including this week on MQ, so I can do this!

weight at home– forgot to weigh!  perhaps it’s for the best

calories in and net for the day:  980