Well, tonight did NOT go well…I had well laid plans, but then they brought over pizza…didn’t eat it at first, but then I got hungry…and that’s when i have trouble, when I’m genuinely hungry.  Here’s one for you calorie counter, Laura– and you were so right about not making cookies, but did I listen?  No, I thought I could handle it.  Boy, was I wrong.  This just shows me that i definitely do still have a food addiction there.  It’s kind of scary, really, since I really thought I’d come a long way in mastering the art of portion control, even if I was cheating.  I think I’ve been leading up to a problem lately, and this was definitely it!

Breakfast: MRC cheesecake, HNS

Lunch:  bar, HNS

Dinner:  3.5 pieces mad mushruoom sausage pizza (didn’t eat crusts), 1 piece cheesy bread (no crust), 6 (yes, SIX!!) chocolate chip cookies (they were small, at least– 80 calories each). 

I completely lost control, and I feel so awful about it now (not overstuffed awful, just totally regretting it).  On top of that, we were trying on costumes, and I was having some major difficulty with the belt and realized that I am about the same size as a friend who I thought was bigger than me– I suppose that shouldn’t  bother me a great deal, but it does kind of make me feel fatter.  This has just not been a good day.  So, the plan for tomorrow is to start fresh, get on the treadmill so I at least burn a bit of it off, make a good plan for the rest of the day and the coming week, and hope that it doesn’t slow me down too much.  Starting Monday I’m going to do the metaquick plan (shake for breakfast, bar for lunch, normal MRC dinner), which is supposed to speed up the process a bit, so hopefully that will help.  I’m just hoping I’m not too hungry on it, because, again, that’s when I have my worst problems.  Talk about a bad week– slow scale and two major cheats– yikes!  I’m sure I’ll be seeing the results of my little indiscretion on the scale tomorrow morning…

weight at home (before the big pizza catastrophe): 188.5