1. Still fat.
2. Still not exercising but I am reading lots of exercise articles, does that count?
3. Still looking for another job.
Well, that’s pretty bleak. I am not really feeling so discouraged as I am sounding. Let me go get more coffee and start again.
I am trying to decide if I should delay my next course. Classes start Sept 6, but I really am strapped for cash and I don’t know what is going to happen with the job situation. Also, Sailorboy dreads it, I know. He tries really hard to be supportive but I get all stressed and cranky and obsessed with grades and he tries to puff me up when I feel stupid…he is probably counting the weeks until it is over as much as I am. I’ll have to think about it some more, I guess.
I am pretty excited by how the job search is going so far. No offers yet, but some good interest from some well-paying places. The job I have now is not working out - the bonuses and commissions that were supposed to offset the lousy pay just are not there and I am actually going into debt to keep this job. Changes are necessary and I may be getting lucky!
Ok, three good things:
- talked to Son #2, he is working across the country this summer and will be driving back next week. if all goes according to plan, he will stop here for a few days to visit.
- Son #1 has committed to a weekend of heavy labour for me to help get some two-person chores done around this house.
- power-walked again tonight - 45 fast minutes.
Monday morning and as usual a bit puffy from the weekend. Too much wine, I think BUT no chips, nothing deep-fried, and portion control stayed on track. Also kept up the power-walking. All good.
Continuing the daily power walks. OK, it has only been 4 days but this is the weakest link in a long-term chain, when I can still talk myself out of it easily. So yay me! 4 days!
I am feeling pretty pleased with myself. I got my running gear together and did a 45 minute power walk. I will have to do that for at least 7 days in a row before even attempting running, still, it felt good.
I can say that this year has not turned out the way I planned, but then, things rarely do. Why am I surprised?
Some major problems in my life were, well, not resolved, but changed. For instance, Son #1 moved away, which was a good thing for several reasons. I love him but we had an unhealthy dynamic that was made worse by his being so close. Sailorboy and I came through some crappy stuff and I think we are much stronger together now.
My big plan at the beginning of the year was to get back into running and back into my wardrobe. Neither has happened, and I am still pretending that’s for reasons beyond my control. We both know how true that is…not very!