Great. Just when I start thinking positive self-image thoughts I see a picture of myself.
I am DETERMINED to interpret EVERYTHING as a sign of positivity today.
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OK, note to self: in the future, an hour before bed might not be the best time to polish off a litre of sparkling water.
Evidence: my size 16 skirt which was the only one I could wear to work for a while without looking like a sausage is now too loose to wear.
Will I break down and buy a scale? I am spending about 2 weeks a month at the work site and there is no scale in the company house. Do I need one? I am eating healthier, getting more sleep and more moderate exercise (walking) here.
I feel better, but of course I have no evidence. The question I have to answer is - if I see the numbers move on a scale, will I feel motivated or will it legitimize cheating? What happens if the numbers aren’t moving, how will that effect me? Oh the humanity…lol. This is not a life-changing decision, hardly worth the drama. Really, I need to get a grip.
It is a beautiful Fri afternoon and I am having a hard time staying focused and productive. I am watching people stroll down the street in t-shirts and I want to be outside. This is unheard of really for this time of year. Well, probably not unheard of, but this is not your average spring for this part of the world. I think we will have the speedboat in the water come April for sure!
It is pretty early in the evening for me to be so sleepy. Out for a walk with the dog and then early to bed, I guess.
Tuesday night at the beginning of a three week stretch away from home. I”m pretty pleased with myself so far this week - eating clean, good walks. I brought my bike with me so I can try biking to work first dry day. Going to bed early too. This is a chance to break some bad habits.
I put on this 40 lbs over 7 years, it is going to take at least 7 months of days like this to get it off.
I slept for almost 10 hours last night! Vivid dreams and some tossing and turning but despite that I awoke fresh and energetic. Maybe eating clean and exercising does make a difference.
According to the doc, if I am fat ‘at this time in my life’ then I will be fat for the rest of my life.
Monday morning. Back with the drastic measures approach. Working so far.
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I am going to bed very early tonight. Very early.
