I had to work late and then spent a few hours trying on my summer clothes. You know, I thought it would be very discouraging but instead it was motivating. Ok, a lot of stuff is still too tight, but some fits, and I can see that it is possible I could fit into the too-tight pieces in another month or so. That made me feel pretty good.
Today I did have a cookie, my first in a long time. The good thing about it - I thought about it, decided to do it, and that was that. It didn’t kick me off the wagon, so to speak. I did feel the sugar rush, though, I will admit that.
My plan on my vacation is to treat it like a spa getaway. I have packed my workout gear, and my snorkelling gear. I am even bringing a yoga workout on my ipod. I plan to move in the sun a lot and really enjoy every moment. I am not bringing my laptop - do you know this will be the first time in 7 years I haven’t travelled with work? Well, I am bringing a notebook to jot down ideas but that’s more to help my mind calm down so I can sleep and relax. I have no plans to accomplish anything worthwhile. I am so happy that I am doing this. Sailorboy is a bit annoyed with me - but he will get over it. Or not. It’s a bit of a test…he sees travel as ‘work’ - he spends a lot of time in airplanes - and to relax he likes to coccoon. I do too, for a time,but eventually I ricochet out of my nest and have to satisfy my itchy feet. (How’s that for mangled metaphors?)
Ok, I am going to head to bed, I have another very stressful day tomorrow and a lot to get done.
I am running away from home this weekend. I m going to Cancun for 5 days of sun. Sailorboy decided he wanted to work on his boats all weekend, but I really need a change of scenery. by Friday afternoon I should be working on my sunburn.
In other good news, Son #1 is doing a lot better. I know this is a rollercoaster for him, he has troubles with addictions and depression. He’s seeing a new doctor and he is on new medicine, which seem to be making his life easier.
Son #2 is coming up for a visit next month, before he heads out on his summer travels. Now that the bug has bitten him he and his girlfriend are planning another long our of Europe. Go for it while you can, I say.
Tonight I have to pull out all my summer clothes to see what fits and should come with me to the Mexican getaway. I hope I can squeeze into a couple of swimsuits - the last think I want to do is go shopping!
This morning-after-the-sugar bloated feeling is not fun. I will have to be careful and keep the carbs low all day to let my body recover.
I had a horrifying amount of sugar today. Doughnut holes , easter candy (isn’t that a bit early?) and even a chocolate bar. Obviously something flickered in my little head, and I lost focus on my low-carb world, even though I was able to move the weight ticker down again this morning. Probably wiped out that loss.
I have had evening meetings every night this week. This happens on the third week of the month -all my volunteer and work commitments hit this week. Tonight I got home about 9:30pm, tomorrow will be late again, and then it is the weekend. Yay.
Well, off to walk the dog. Sorry, this is pretty mundane, but I am tired, I am cranky with myself, and whatever happens, i still have to walk the dog.
Feeling like I had a productive day. I spent the day cleaning up the yard, this is very early in the season to be doing this kind of work but it felt good to get things started. Son #1 helped a lot - he raked the back yard, which took him about 3 hours of sweaty work.
I am going to bed early tonight, the dog has been walked and Sailorboy will be working all night to get the last airplane done by the deadline and out on the runway early in the morning. I am a bit sore and really would like to have a good night’s sleep.
Insomnia and weight loss are not friends, and last week I don’t think I had one night of more than 5 hours of shut-eye. Some of it was my fault, but also my stress level is in the red zone right now and that always either makes me want to sleep all the time or gives me such a buzz I can’t lay still. Right now I am struggling with the latter.
I have to lose 27.6 lbs to be in the official healthy range for my height. Determined by some authority somewhere, it’s a statistic that pops up all over the place.
At the time of my last big career/house move, in 2003, I weighed in at about 12 pounds over that magic number, and I was in much better physical shape. I walked, biked, rollerbladed (some combination) every day when I lived in the big city. Here, I spend so much more time in a car. Sometimes it is legitimate travel but mostly it has become laziness. I could do most of my errands and run most of my life on foot or on a bicycle. And because I am slack in my daily life I have to come to think of exercise as a special activity I need to ‘fit in’ somehow. None of this is new to me but it is a disturbing trend, especially as I get older. I associate getting older with moving less, and that is not what I want to see in my life.
On a positive note, it looks like I will be able to openup my clothes storage wardrobe and possibly fit into some of the outfits I had to hide away for a while. Spring shopping in my own hallway!
Another milestone yesterday - I finalised my will and my living will. Signed and stored. Someday soon I will do a codicil regarding some of my possessions, because there are a few things I would like to stay in the family but really, I will be dead so who knows if anyone will care? i do think a will is important though because if I die without one my family has to deal with the courts, the banks, etc without any legal standing. I have seen what happens in that case and it is not balanced or fair to the family at all.
We had our first barbecue of the season last night, which was fun. Giant home made sausages.
I am staying off the scale until the weekend, but overall I am feeling pretty good about things.
Spent the whole evening trying to make my new Mac and my new ‘magic mouse’ perform. I did everything, including running out to buy the recommended software update. The d*&%$ thing still won’t perform as advertised. I am very unhappy. And for some reason the software update has made several other programs wonky. Maybe I just need to get some sleep; it will all be fine tomorrow.
I walked to work today, which is very positive, and will do it again tomorrow. If I also come home for lunch it adds about 60 minutes of walking to my day, a very good thing. I hope to have a bike by the weekend, which will make it possible, if not highly probable, that I can do almost my entire working life on two pedalled wheels. Except for the skirt and high heels combo, I can totally see it.
Actually, I have done the skirt and heels on a bike, it just requires planning and good weather. Rain totally kills the look.
It is almost 1:30 am. I am going to be a wreck tomorrow, however, I am 90% finished my home office re-org and I am pretty happy with it. I briefly thought about painting the walls but sanity prevailed and I have settled for a major clean up, clean out and tidy. It looks very good. I still have some sorting of files, etc. but nothing major. Almost all my records are online or digital so I work hard not to store paper. My insurance papers, legal stuff etc is in a fireproof box and the rest is just for reference. My big challenge is keeping track of the few bills I pay with cheques, I never seem to know what I am doing with those.
I have set aside lots of stuff for a garage sale. I am planning one for the end of June, and then maybe another one in the fall. My goal this year is to sift through my possessions and only keep the things that are important, meaningful, or that I really like and/or use.
I am hanging out at Sailorboy’s house, killing time until my hair dries. There is no blowdryer here, I will have to fix that…:)
The timechange last night was hard for him - he gets up at 5:30 am these days and there was lots of muttering about how it was really 4:30 etc etc etc before he slammed the door on his way out this morning. I kept quiet with the blankets over my head…
I have been visiting around looking for exercise inspiration and wow! you-all are an energetic crowd. I am feeling slightly ashamed of myself for talking the talk but not walking the walk. Literally. Now that the sun is back and the snow is off the running track by my house my acceptable excuses are withering away.
I am halfway through my office re-org/re-decorate project. I have to pick up a few small things on the way home but aside from the electonics I am doing this all by re-using things I already own. The goal is cool-funky and useable. It had become cluttered and a bit of a cave. I am quite excited by the whole project.
First big task once it is back together will be the taxes. Always such fun.
