The journey from fat to fit. Road trip, woo hoo!

I had my weekly weigh in this morning and am UP .4 of a pound.  WTF?  I couldn’t believe it.  The only thing I can pin it to in my previous weeks’ food posts is too much snacking and  munching.  My meal choices were all good.  But girl scout cookies, doritos, pizza, etc., just a little here and there, did me in. 

I wanted to throw myself a big pity party complete with party food, but decided to buy a scale instead.  I have not owned a scale in over 10 years and was very reluctant to get one because of my obsessive personality.  I will only be setting myself up for failure if I am on the scale ten times a day… and ten times a day is not an exaggeration, I can totally see myself on the scale before and after every drop of water that goes in my mouth. 

But, I can’t handle going in to another JC session all cocky with my bad ass attitude of having a great week and finding out I gained weight.  My compromise to my obsessivity (is that word?) is that I am putting the scale in the kids’ bathroom in the basement, which is way off of my beaten path.  I go days on end without going into the basement (my room is a converted attic, living area/kitchen/etc are on ground level, nothing in the basement but my daughter, her baby and the play station -0h, and laundry room, but I avoid that as much as possible.)

So, anyway … goals for this week are: 1.  LAY OFF THE FUCKING GIRL SCOUT COOKIES.  2.  Stick to my JC meal plan FAITHFULLY, NO EXTRAS for three days of this week.  3.  Keep up my awesome kick ass exercise schedule.

Had my weigh in this morning.  Down 2.4 pounds this week for a total of 21.2 pounds overall in 17 weeks.  I did three days off JC food and four days on and am really excited with the results.  And I’m really excited to have crossed the 20 lb loss line.  That was a milestone goal for me. 

Goals for the week: Keep up daily (almost) exercise, drink more water, avoid GS cookies.

Weighed in at 166.0.  That’s down from 166.8 last week, which was up from 166.4 the week before, so basically I am down .4 for the last two weeks.  Kind of pathetic.  BUT today was also my 16 week measurements and I am down 17.5 inches overall.  In the last four weeks I’ve lost .5 from my chest, 2 inches from my waist, 1 inch from hips and 1 inch from abdomen.  YEAH BABY.  I think I have actually lost more in the chest/back but I have worn my usual bra for each weigh in, which is kind of heavily padded — not padded exactly, but has really firm cups.  Anyway… I was disappointed in the pounds, but thrilled with the measurements.

No big surprise… up .4 of a pound.  Could have been worse.

I had my weigh in today.  Only down .6 of a pound this week, for a total of 18.6 pounds total loss in 13 weeks.  I would like to be making faster progress, but I do own up to the fact that my exercise is not where it should be.

After the weigh in, I went to Taco Bell today.  My fast food has been really, really limited for the last 13 weeks, which is when I started Jenny Craig.  Before that, it was out of control, as in fast food pretty much every day for lunch and then sometimes even for dinner too.  Since starting JC I have been avoiding it, and doing really well.  But for some reason today, I could not drive past the Bell.  I had two chicken soft tacos and an order of cheesy fiesta potatoes.  I listed the damage in my food log, and when I factor in that I had not had breakfast and then had a really “good” dinner and avoided snacks pretty much, I still stayed pretty much within my 1200 cal/day goal.  Plus I did 20-minutes of cardio where I really kept my heart rate of for a good 15 minutes of the time, so that’s a plus.

I’m just worried that it’s the start of something ugly.  That “urge” it from out of nowhere after 12 weeks of being quiet.  I don’t want to go down that road again.  I’ll admit that I was a little disappointed in my measley .6 loss, but I wasn’t in my “fuck it, I’ll just binge” mode either.  I’m going to have to keep the fast food in check or I know the weight I’ve lost will come right back.

This was my 12-week visit at Jenny Craig, so I also did measurements.  Bust/back remained the same, waist down 2 inches in four weeks, hips down 2 inches in four weeks and abdomen down 2 inches in four weeks!  I am down a total of 12.5 inches in 12 weeks and 17.8 pounds.  Feeling groovy….

Wah…. I had a weigh in today and am down .8 of a pound.  I thought I would have done better because I did exercise a little more than normal, but I also did eat out three times last week and do a bit of drinking.  Oh, well… at least I didn’t gain.

I had a weigh in at JC today.  I am down 1.5 lb this week, for a total of 15.5 lbs in 10 weeks.  I am very happy with this… a tiny bit wishing I were moving faster, but happy nonetheless.

When I have a weigh in, I order my food for the next week.  I have been having Quaker Oats “weight control” oatmeal and it has the same number of calories/fat grams as the JC oatmeal, so I decided not to order any JC breakfast items to save on my food cost.

Well, my counselor was not happy with this.  She said that I “had to” eat JC food.  Had to.  It’s a “food-based program” and it only works if you eat the JC food.  This did not set well with me.  I didn’t want to cause a stink, but I only had X amount of money to devote to JC food this week and that’s the end of that.  She said that I “could not” start going off of the JC food until I am halfway to my goal.  My original goal is 35 lbs, and I’m at 15.5 down, so I’m almost halfway.  Rather than argue, I said, my new goal is 30 lbs, I’m over the halfway mark, there you go. 

I realize that the counselors make money off of food sales, and I know that I ‘agreed’ to the terms of the program when I signed up, but I thought it was a rather cheezy discussion and I’m not happy about it.

In her defense, my counselor is a lovely woman.  She is petite like I am, and she went from 200 lb to 120 lb and has maintained at 120 for years.  She is very tiny and adorable and wears cute clothes and tall boots and I love/hate her.  I lean more towards love v. hate because her office is filled with pictures of her at 200 lb and she is such a great motivation to me by her actions and just by her example.

So, I’m over it now.  I lost 1.5 lb and, yay, that’s better than not losing at all and a hell of a lot better than gaining.