check in

February 11th, 2010

Hey Chicks,

Thought I’d check in and say HI, I’M NOT DEAD. THANKS!

I had a post op visit yesterday. The doctor removed my surgical drain but I still have a liver drain. I have to go back next week, at which time he MIGHT be able to remove the “bag” (gross gross gross) part, but the tubing and port will remain for up to six weeks. There’s a 50/50 chance I’ll need another “procedure” on my liver, and having this port in place will make that an easier process if it is needed.

I am, frankly, freaked out and skeeved out and grossed out by the whole thing. I am a delicate flower and when ugly things happen I go LA LA LA LA I CAN’T HEAR YOU, which is apparently what I was subconsciously doing in the hospital as things were being explained to me and which is why I apparently didn’t hear things like LIVER REPAIR and PANCREATITIS and YOUR GALLBLADDER WAS A TOTAL FUCKING MESS. Because? LA LA LA LA I CAN’T HEAR YOU.

Nothing hurts other than a dull achey feeling in the abdomen. I’m just in bad mood, tired, zero energy and afraid to eat anything. Recovery is not all it’s cracked up to be.

I haven’t gotten on the scale yet. Going into the downstairs bathroom requires too much energy. And that’s where I keep the scale. Because of my compulsive weighing issues that I’ve had in the past, I keep the scale in the least convenient bathroom, so that I am not weighing myself before and after every time I pee.

When you hear things like that, doesn’t it really make you think, shit, a fucked up gallbladder is the LEAST of this chick’s problems? haha

xox

Posted by tiny2b Filed in General

4 Responses to “check in”

  1. dietbuddydaily Says:
    February 11th, 2010 at 12:35 pm

    OMG. I feel so bad you had this happen and I would feel the same way… hang in there and there are a whole lot of us sending you positive thoughts. Do you need help with your 52xchicken blog? I made a good ca

  2. dietbuddydaily Says:
    February 11th, 2010 at 12:36 pm

    sorry, computer mess up… anyway, I made a killer chinese chicken salad from a rots. chicken the other day. I could send you the info and a pick. You won’t be cooking chicken for awhile… Let me know.

  3. Sunny Says:
    February 11th, 2010 at 4:02 pm

    you are too funny. Even when feeling like absolute shit. ;)

    Don’t worry about your freakin’ weight. Your body IS all kinds of fukked up, and that will definite show some unnecessary weight from:

    1. surgery
    2. fluid retention from the drains

    etc. etc. Why torment yourself about weight? Don’t have enough else on your mind, missy? LOL :b

  4. round Says:
    February 18th, 2010 at 3:31 pm

    Gosh, I missed this happening to you & I’m so sorry.

    I am glad however that you sound like you’re full of piss & vinegar - means you must be feeling like yourself.

    I’ve been thinking of drastically cutting back the scale recently & your statements really make that even clearer.

    Hope you’re feeling better soon -

    sarah

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