Gone

July 2nd, 2008

DD21 and my baby girl are gone.  They left at 3:45 this morning for the airport.  A friend took them.  I was upset at first that she had a friend coming, but honestly I don’t think I could have taken them and then made it back home, and DH had to go to work, and DD9 was insisting that she wanted to go to the airport, so taking that option away helped her settle down, I think.

Rough night.  DD9 cried for hours.  Finally slept in the bed with DD21 and the baby.  Didn’t stir at all when I was in there at 3 am helping DD21 get the last of her stuff together and dress the baby etc.  When DD9 woke up at about 6 am she came screaming into my room “They’re gone, they’re gone.”  Heartbreaking, to say the least.  She’s in my bed now, still asleep.  Not sure what I am going to do to distract her, but I know I need to turn off my tears because it’s not helping her and only gets her going.  Chain reaction… she starts crying, I start crying, and vice versa.

So thankfully I do not have to work today.  I have a weigh in in an hour… yuck.  Will take DD9 swimming and to the library after that, try to fill up the day.

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One Response to “Gone”

  1. brseay Says:
    July 2nd, 2008 at 7:06 pm

    I just finally had a chance to catch up on your last few blogs, I don’t know how I missed them. My heart broke for you when I read about your DD9 commenting on how the baby isn’t old enough yet to miss them. She sounds like a very insightful little girl.

    Generally I try to avoid giving advice but I’m going to break my policy. I know you’re trying to be strong for your daughter but it could be good for her to see how hard this is on you. I know when our son was diagnosed with his illness we tried to keep up a brave face for our older son but it wasn’t until he saw us break down that he began to share his feelings. He was only 3 at the time but it was like he was keeping his feelings hidden b/c he knew it would upset us. There are still times that we cry together and I think it reassures him that his feelings are normal, that they’re ok.

    I hope the two of you had a good day and that your other girls landed safely.

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