My big fat loser dinner
January 22nd, 2008
UPDATE: I did manage to get in 15 minutes of cardio and another 15 of crunches and pushups. And another bottle of water. That counts for something, right?
I totally blew my food plan tonight. For dinner I had a BIG slice of Papa Murphy’s take and bake stuffed pizza, not sure what kind it is but full of sausage, pepperoni, ground meat and mounds and mounds of cheese. It was freaking delicious. Sorry. It’s true. It was.
DH picked up the pizza Saturday when I asked him to prepare dinner for the kids. He went to Papa Murphy’s and got a hawaiian pizza. Perfect, I hate hawaiian pizza. I ate my JC meal while the fam had pizza and all was right with the world. DH even picked up a really nice salad while he was at PM’s so, yay, lagniappe.
Fast forward to later Saturday night, I open the fridge and what to my wondering eyes should appear but a GIGANTIC stuffed pizza looking ever so delicious sitting in my fridge. “Hon, WTF is this?” Oh, it was a two-fer.
So the pizza sat there Sunday and Monday uncooked while I stuck to my food plan. Tonight was do or die, it either had to be cooked or frozen. I could not fit the sucker into the freezer (I swear I tried), so I threw it in the oven. It cooked and I am thinking “Oh my God, why doesn’t Yankee candle have a pizza scented candle? I would so buy that.” Even though the smell had me salivating, I got out my JC meal (which was looking less and less attractive by the moment). I was going to pop my meal into the microwave when the oven timer rang.
I took the pizza out of the oven, looked at my healthy meal and said *F it*, and had a big fat slice of pizza heaven. Halfway through the pizza the self-loathing set in, but it wasn’t quite enough to stop me from polishing the sucker off.
The good news: I did not go back for a second slice. I did not eat the leftovers on princess’ dinner plate (what kind of kid doesn’t eat the cheese?).
I did a 20-minute yoga DVD workout today, and now I’m going to go do 20 minutes on my bosu ball along with crunches and pushups.
Why oh why do I do this kind of shit to myself?
January 22nd, 2008 at 10:21 pm
The best thing I can suggest is look up how many calories it has in it. Either (next time) work it into your diet plan, or use the calories to stop yourself. I’m not sure how the link will show up, but it’s on their website at:
http://www.papamurphys.com/public/menu_nutritionalInformation.cfm
January 22nd, 2008 at 11:00 pm
Ah, sometimes ya just gotta. You did have some control, because you didn’t go back for that second piece. And I’ve had their pizza. I know. Yeah, you did alright.
January 23rd, 2008 at 12:36 am
RESPONSE: Wow, thanks for the link to the nutritional information. Good to know. If only I would think to look this stuff up beforehand. My little transgression totaled up to 730 calories and 31 grams of fat. WHAT A WASTE!
January 23rd, 2008 at 5:19 pm
It doesnt sound like a 730 calorie waste to me, it sounds delicious, and a nice break from the JC prepackaged meals.
Think of it as training for maintenance - you actually did great - only one slice, and you really enjoyed it. Life is about pleasure, you know, and you deserve some!
730 calories more or less in a week doesn’t make a bit of difference. In the month even less. As far a daily transgression even, it’s not very bad!
Stop beating yourself up over this. You ate it. You enjoyed it. It’s in the past, forgive yourself, and move on.
January 23rd, 2008 at 8:27 pm
I agree with Round. You enjoy it, so plan for it. I find I do that from time to time. I’ll look at calorie counts and decide if I really want it, and sometimes the answer is yes. Take the pizza and a great salad and enjoy.