Becoming Tawnya

Good Morning. 5 am here. I’ve been up since 4:40 am. It’s 45 degrees and it looks like it’s going to rain a good part of the day. I’m working both jobs today but I have a switch. I work at job2 before job1. I wanted to get enough “me time” in before I had to leave for the day.

Weigh-in was up this morning–higher than it’s been lately. Time to cut off the sugar intake. I can feel that my body isn’t nourished and I keep reaching for sugar thinking it will do the job. And I have to be honest this morning. I realized, as I was driving to job1 yesterday, that I am just not happy. I feel “discontent”. I am out of focus somewhere. I have to realign my body, mind, and soul. My happiness does not depend on food, being with Ed, having money, or constant service to others. My happiness comes from my perspective on all areas in life. Happiness comes from achieving my goals and building my self-esteem. Happiness comes from me making the choice TO BE happy. Somewhere along the line, I fell into a garbage hole and started thinking that I wasn’t happy. Well, that is garbage! I need to be more careful of where I walk.

I had set a goal to complete projects that I have started, or to start projects that I have always wanted to do in order to increase my feelings of self-worth. I still want to focus on those because I still have a few things that I would like to do. I still want to focus on those because there is still room to grow! I realized that I quit working on projects if I need a tool to help me to the next step, or out of materials to complete. When I don’t thoroughly plan my craft, I miss details like that. Most often, it’s a money issue that stops me in my tracks. Now that I realized this fact, I am forced to be more creative, which is a good thing. I feel like a farm girl. I need to push forward on my goals, realign my self, and become one with the universe. Man, I’m out of touch!

Okay, I have to quickly mention dinner, at the very least. We ate left over veggie lasagna and venison tenderloin steak. It was interesting. We used garlic, seasoning salt, and thyme to flavor it. It really was quite tasty with seasoning, but I needed to eat it with ketchup. I also tried Koops German mustard with it and REALLY liked that. Yummy. I can’t wait to make venison burgers, stew and roast. There are tons of recipes that I have come across that I’d like to try. Sweetie and I butchered it ourselves. The whole process fascinated me.

I’ve been so excited about the hunting thing, and then Mum getting a new computer that I had a terrible headache yesterday. That was my warning sign that I need a “readjustment”. Okay, I will post and move on. HealthyMe signing off.

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